Disclaimer: I don't own TS or any of the affilated characters Come stop your crying
It will be alright
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
When Meadow was born Tony finally knew love. He had always loved Carmella ever since they were children but this was his baby. She was the best thing that ever happened to him. As he held her the first night they brought her home from the hospital he made a decision. It was the hardest decision he had ever had to make and at the same time it was the easiest.
I will protect you from
All around you
I will be here
Don't you cry
She was innocent. Her eyes were on her father as he rocked her and fed her. She completely trusted him. What kind of a life would she have with him in the mafia? It wasn't the type of life he wanted her to have.
For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
He wanted her to grow up to be a happy child. He wanted her to have her mother and her father around for a long time. Granted he didn't have much skills but he could do office work. He could clean houses. Hell he could even flip burgers at McDonalds.
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry
"Carmella," he said to his wife, "Pack your bags. We're moving"
"What? Why?"
He knew that because I said so wouldn't cut it… she would demand an answer.
Cause you'll be in my heart
"I'm giving up the mafia," Tony explained, "and let them think I was dead. What kind of a life would the baby have with her father in the mafia? I want her to grow up happy and healthy with her father and mother in her life. She's so innocent. She's got a whole lot of living to do"
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
"Pack our bags," he instructed her, "and get the baby out of the house"
Once that was done he called the newspaper. He gave them an anonymous tip that Tony Soprano was killed in a fire. Then he set the house on fire grabbed some disguises and went to the airport.
"I want three plane tickets to," he looked up at the board, "London England please"
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart
Always
"Name?"
"I'm Anton Alto. This is my wife Carmine Alto. This is my 3 day old daughter Melody Alto"
"Next flight leaves in ½ an hour"
Why can't they understand the way we feel
They just can't trust what the can't explain
Tony felt a bit of sadness. He was leaving the only home he ever knew. He was moving into a new world. He had to leave his friends behind. He had to leave his sisters and his nephew behind.
I know we're different but
Deep inside us
We're not that different at all
But that was his old life. He no longer existed. He was Anton Alto. Tony Soprano, Carmella Soprano and Meadow Soprano were dead. They died in that fire.
And you'll be in my heart
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
Looking down at his daughter he knew he was doing what he had to do. He knew there life would be good in London. They didn't have a place to stay. He didn't have a job. It didn't matter.
Don't listen to them
What do they know?
We need each other
To have to hold
He had $5,000 in his pocket. That would hold them over for a little while. He would get a hotel and start looking for a job. He had some skills… not very many but some. Maybe he could get a job working with numbers… he did have a head for business.
They'll see in time
I'll know
They boarded the plane. It was a long flight. Meadow slept throughout most of it. Tony was amazed that she slept so well. He never saw a baby that slept like that… ever.
When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
The plane landed and it was time for Meadow to be fed. She ate, contentedly blinked up at her mother and went to sleep. Tony who was now Anton, hailed a cab. As he asked the driver to take them to the nearest hotel he thought about his daughter. Chances are she would outlive him but by a lot less then she would have if he'd stayed in the mafia.
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together
They checked into the hotel under the name Alto.
"What a cute baby," one of the guests said, "can I hold him"
Lady can't you see it's a girl," he thought to himself
"Yeah," he said, "and it's a she"
"Oh I'm sorry," the old lady said, "I didn't have my glasses on"
Cause you'll be in my heart
Believe me you'll be in my heart
I'll be there from this day on
"Payton Constantine," the woman introduced himself
"Anton Alto," he said, "and this is my wife Carmine and my daughter Melody"
"Melody. I always loved that name. It makes me think of music"
Now and forever
You'll be in my heart
(You'll be here in my heart)
No matter what they say
Tony ended up getting a job at the hotel. It didn't offer much. Free room and board, $100 a day and free child care for Meadow for as long as Tony worked there. They could also use any of the facilities for free. For Tony it was a perfect opportunity.
I'll be with you
You'll be here in my heart
You'll be there
Always, always
Their lives had definitely changed. Tony regretted that Meadow would never know her real name. He regretted that she would never know her cousin Chris. But he never regretted changing his lifestyle to allow him to be a father to his little girl. It was worth it to him to be able to see his little girl and later her younger brother grow up.