Hey guys!!! This story takes place in New moon thought I'd share that with you. Hope you enjoy it!!!!! PLEASE R&R!!!

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Bella POV

I woke as I jolted upward into a sitting position that caused me a head rush. I realized I had been screaming and that I was in a cold sweat. Ugh, when would these nightmares about him ever stop? I still couldn't even bear to say his name which I guess you could say was pretty pathetic of me. I wrapped my arms around myself to make sure that the hole didn't grow any larger. I had to hold myself together.

"What did I do wrong?" I cried out to the nothingness of my room not expecting an answer. I felt a few tears escape from my eyes but I wiped them away, I had to be strong.

I decided that I might as well get ready seeing as how there was no way I was going to be able to sleep anytime soon. I got off the bed and gathered some clean clothes to change into absentmindedly and headed to the bathroom even though I knew it was a lot earlier than when I usually woke up for school but I knew going back to sleep was impossible.

When I reached the bathroom, I pulled off my sweats and t-shirt and stepped into the warm, comforting shower. The water was refreshing and removed any bad intruding thoughts from my mind. I decided I would love to stay here in my safe haven and not go back to the nightmare I called my life. But that thought was soon crushed as I felt the water go cold after I had been in too long and I cringed as I stepped out with a sigh.

I put on my clothes and walked back to my room where I made my bed and cleaned up a little in my spare time before I laid down and stared at the ceiling trying to find a pattern in it. After finding none I sighed and rolled over on my side only to look at my rocking chair in the corner of my room. The sight of it brought tears to my eyes as I realized that it didn't look right empty.

I watched it until I couldn't stand the memories anymore and finally got up, grabbed my bag and hurried down the stairs. I was still early but at least I would get some time to myself at school. I saw that Charlie had left already probably while I had been in my room, he must not have realized I was awake, I thought.

I threw my bag in the passenger seat and slid into my seat as I slammed the door of my red pick-up truck behind me. I fumbled around for my keys in my pocket and jammed them into the ignition as the truck rumbled to life. I turned the heat up and wiped away at the fresh tears that were streaming down my face.

"I really am pathetic, aren't I? And lonely too I guess seeing as how I'm here talking to myself as I drive to school. Haha, Bella, I think you're losing it." I said as I laughed hysterically at the thought of talking to myself. I really was going crazy.

I guess this is just what happens to you when your heart it ripped out of your chest and shattered in front of your face. When you're left all alone because the one person you ever dared to love left you.

I sighed as I pulled into the school parking lot. It was pretty much empty except for a few cars which I assumed to be teachers and staff. I pulled into one of the spaces and grabbed my bag. I exited the rusty truck and walked over to a nearby picnic table. I took out a notebook and began doodling to pass time.

I don't know how long I sat there, just scribbling images onto my paper. I finally looked up when I heard someone call my name and noticed it was Angela. She was walking towards me and I then realized that the parking lot was nearly full by then.

"Hey Bella, why are you here so early?" She greeted me as she sat down beside me.

"Oh, um, I really don't know. I guess I just didn't have anything better to do." I smiled and hoped it looked genuine. I saw her look over at my notebook and a smile lit up her face as she studied my drawing.

"Wow, that's a really pretty meadow. Do you know it from somewhere or something?" She asked me and it was then that I realized what I had drawn. It was the meadow, our meadow.

"Yea, I do actually but I can't remember where," I lied quickly and changed the subject. "We should probably get to class if we don't want to be late."

"Yeah, I guess." She said as we both stood up to head inside.

School was just like any other day; uneventful. I was on auto pilot again as I never registered my actions or what I said. The real me was far away; stuck in the past. I was going to crack soon, I was sure. I don't know how long I can keep this up, keep it bottled up inside. I knew that the pain would come rushing back like a storm eventually. It would knock me over and my numbness would be gone, in its place was everything that I hid now. I needed to get away. Somehow, I needed to escape my twisted fate.

The ride home was pretty much the same as the ride to school. I drove but other than that I was empty. The gaping hole in my chest throbbing. By the time I reached my house, I parked and put my head down on the drivers wheel. I was breathing deeply as a memory came at me faster than I could stop it. It from when we were at the prom last year. It would have been a happy memory if wasn't for the current situation.

I took a deep uneven breath. I needed to stop mourning, he was never coming back. He didn't want me, he said so himself. I needed to move on to the future if I even had a chance of getting over the past.

I lifted my head from the driver's wheel and pulled my keys out of the ignition. I sling my bag around my shoulder and step out of the truck.

Of course, my clumsiness had to interfere because I slipped on the pavement as soon as my two feet touched the ground. I knew that no one would be there to catch me this time so I put my arms out in front of me as I watched the ground come closer and closer. But I never felt my hands come in contact with the ground. Instead I felt two cold arms wrap themselves around my waist to stop my fall. I gasped.

The person set me on my feet and I turned to look at them. I caught a glimpse of honey blonde hair before he disappeared from my sight.

I thought I heard him say something like "Be safe," or something before he ran off but I wasn't sure.

I was stunned. At least one of them had come back even if it was the one I knew the least.

"Jasper?" I whispered brokenly.

A/N: Short I know but its just basically and intro almost anyway I hope you liked it. So click that button below and tell me what you think!

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