After reading 'Poison' this popped up in my head and wouldn't let me go. Thanks to Nellie for letting me write this. It is not been beta read so I'm sorry for any mistake. I Don't own it and I hope you all like it. You can find her original story in my favourites.
A possible sequel to Poison by NellietheMarvelous
Once again she lay in an empty bed, the sheets no longer wore the scent of another person then herself since there were none in her life anymore. It hadn't worked out with Connor, but that didn't really matter. She should have seen this coming but somehow she missed it. How, she didn't know, but she had. Connor left, apparently he wasn't that good for her after all.
She should feel sad that he left but she wasn't, at least not because of the fact that he left, if she was honest to herself she didn't really care. Why would she care? The sex had been good but she hadn't been in love with him, yes, there had been the potential of falling in love with him over time and he had been good to her as long as it lasted but she had never been in love with him.
She was sad though because she was feeling lonely, it meant she was still alone and she was tired of being on her own. She had wanted to be with Connor to fill up that emptiness, even though always when she and Connor had been together, and when not, her mind had been on Jane. Connor hadn't really succeeded to fill that emptiness. She was very good at deceiving herself, she had made herself believe she had loved him, but the sad truth was she didn't love him as anything more but a friend.
The man she was in love with was actually never far from her mind nevertheless he had never been a real option. He wouldn't ever see her as more than a substitute for his deceased wife, and she would never fully trust him. He was always trying to get under her skin, trying to figure her out, she would always be second guessing his motives when he would do something, even when he would do something nice.
Still if this hadn't been the case she had screwed things up between the two of them by being with Connor. No, they would never be together and she shouldn't dwell, she should just try to find someone else who was good for her. Someone she could love and who would love her. She should just go to sleep and not think about all of this, continue with her life and shouldn't look back or wonder about what if's.