x kyoot x: I just wrote this fanfic because I felt like it. It's really bad but that's okay. ^_^ Hopefully all of my fanfics won't be like this. The one that I wrote before was a huge mistake to post! Anyways, I hope that you like my fanfic. Please Read and Review.
Why?
//Tomoyo's POV//
Why? Why did this all have to happen to me? I fell in love, that's why. I fell in love with people that I had no chance with. First, I loved Sakura-chan. But now I know that loving her was a mistake. Of course, she loved me back, but, not the way that I loved her. The day I was going to confess that I loved her, she told me how she fell in love with him, Li-kun. I can still remember the way she told me.
[*Flashback*]
"Tomoyo-chan! Tomoyo-chan!" I heard someone call my name. I would know that voice a mile away. It was the one that I loved, Sakura-chan. "Hai, Sakura-chan" I replied and stopped for her to catch up to me. We started walking ever so slowly. "Tomoyo-chan, guess what." My heart skipped a couple of beats. Would the news be good or bad? I didn't know what to expect. "Nani?" I said not knowing of what would hit me. "Tomoyo-chan, I'm in love." I could see her cheeks start to blush ten different shades of crimson after she told me. I was thinking to myself, could it be me? Could the one that Sakura-chan loves be me? I said, "That's great Sakura-chan." I couldn't let anyone see how I really felt. I put up a mask by forcing a smile. However, Sakura-chan didn't seem to notice at all. "Demo, who is it?" I knew it wasn't going to be me but my curiosity took the better of me. I knew that if she said someone else like I knew she would, I would be heartbroken. "Ano…" Sakura-chan started. "Watashi, Syao…" I knew what she was going to say. I knew who she was going to say. I couldn't bare it much longer. I knew that soon enough I would break. "…-kun skee." She finished. I just nodded. I was fighting back the many tears threatening to fall. However I wouldn't let anyone even my very kawaii Sakura-chan see how hurt I was. I quickly made up an excuse to get away from there, because I knew that any second I would burst into tears. "Gomen Sakura-chan…" I said. "Demo I have to go do something right now. Sayonara." I barely got to see the slightly confused look on her face because I started to run, run to wherever my skinny legs would take me. I was crying my heart out. I didn't care now if anyone saw me like this, a big mess. I didn't care about anything. I just wanted to cry and cry some more until I couldn't cry any longer. When I finally finished crying, which was like after a century, I looked up to see where I was. With my puffy eyes, I couldn't see much but the place was very familiar, it was Eriol-kun's mansion.
[*End of Flashback*]
//Tomoyo's POV//
So, that's the story. That's how it all went. Well, not the whole story because I didn't tell you what happened between Eriol-kun and I did I? I don't know how it happened. I began to fall for him slowly, piece by piece but then I realized that fell in love with him. However, I didn't tell anyone, not even Sakura. Great, I feel another memory coming.
[*Flashback*]
After much time passed, I finally got over Sakura-chan and Li-kun being together. I was starting all over again and doing pretty well too. That's when I found myself ever so slowly falling for the reincarnation of Clow Reed, Eriol Hiragizawa. Eriol-kun was so understanding about the whole Sakura-chan situation. I confessed my feelings to Eriol-kun when he was walking me home. "Eriol-kun, daiiskee" I said. "Aishiteru Tomoyo-chan." I was so relieved because he felt likewise. I couldn't believe it. All I could hear in my head at that moment replaying over and over was "Aishiteru Tomoyo-chan." I couldn't get enough of it. I was so happy. I suddenly just hugged him because I was so happy. He seemed relieved that I was moving on with my life and forgetting about what happened with Sakura-chan. I was proud of myself as well. Eriol-kun asked me to go to dinner with him tomorrow night. Since it was going to be a Saturday, I couldn't say no. "Hai." I replied. He seemed happy. He walked me home and I fell asleep exhausted after the long day.
It was the early next day and I was already fussing over what I should wear to the date. He was coming to pick me up later and I was so excited. I finally found some decent clothes that wouldn't hurt to wear. After driving myself nuts to kill time, it was an two hours before he was coming. I hopped in the shower and hopped out. I quickly got changed examining every inch of the light lavender spaghetti strapped dress I had on. I went to the bathroom to do my hair. It took a long time but I finally got it the way I wanted to get it. I was actually satisfied with how I looked. Now it was the worst time, when I had to wait for him to ring the doorbell. I was so anxious I didn't know if I would be able to wait. He told me that he was going to come at 7 o'clock and knowing him, he would never be late. I waited and waited. It was 7, 7:05, 7:15, 7:20, 7:23… The time continually passed however there was no sign of Eriol-kun. I was starting to get angry now. He was setting me up like this? Of all people the person that I love? Then I was very angry and I get un-changed and put on my pajamas. I was so upset I was going to cry. That's when at 8:17, I heard the phone ring. I pick it up and angrily snapped, "Moshi moshi Daidouji Residence!" However, I didn't hear Eriol-kun's voice. I heard a calm older man's voice. He said, "Yes, is Daidouji Tomoyo-san there?" I calmly replied confused, "Hai..?" "Ah yes Daidouji-san. I have some terrible news to deliver to you. Hiragizawa Eriol-san has just gotten into a car accident and is in the Tomoeda Emergency Hospital at this time." I couldn't believe what I just heard. I mean Eriol-kun getting into a car accident? That's impossible! I dropped the phone and quickly called for one of the bodyguards to take me to the hospital. The bodyguard questioned about me changing out of my pajamas first but I didn't care so I just told her to hurry it up. I got to the hospital and was told more about what happened. He got into this accident while he was on his way to my home. When I heard that I felt like I wanted to die. While he was getting his butt over to my house, I was getting angry because he wasn't there. How selfish of me, Tomoyo Daidouji. I waited in the waiting room for hours until the doctor finally came out. He had a sorrowful look on his face. Shaking his head no. That's when I realized what he meant. He meant that Eriol-kun was dead.
[*End of Flashback*]
//Tomoyo's POV//
How I don't want to have these memories. I wish that I could be able to forget about Eriol-kun but the truth is that I know I can't. He is just too big a part of my life. I love him. I love Eriol-kun. I just want to move on with my life but can I really do that? After all that has happened, can I forget about everything that happened in the past and start fresh? I can't. I'm not strong enough to. That's when I see an option to bring me out of all my misery, and that is to end my life itself. So that's when I get the idea of committing suicide. However, I know that I can't do that. Not after Eriol-kun. No, not after what happened with him. I couldn't just give up on life. He taught me not to. I will continue living on, for him, the one that I love. "Aishiteru Eriol-kun."
x kyoot x: How did you like it? I hope it was okay… I'm a beginner so please go easy on me! ^_^