It was in the middle of a meeting when I realized that I am in love. Who you might ask? Well I can hardly believe it myself that I am in love with Grimmjow…yes Grimmjow. I still can't believe it but as I sit here and stare at his beautiful face my love for him grows stronger. I would confess to him but im to scared, ya that's right; the ruthless 4th espada is scared.

I mean who wouldn't be scared to admit that you love someone like Grimmjow, and then he hates my guts so it's kind of hard to tell him without him trying to fight me.

I just sighed for the 5th time today making Grimmjow look over at me with those blue eyes of his. Our eyes met for a second blue clashing with green. I decided to give a small smile (a real small one), he raised an eyebrow in confusion but then he mouthed the words fuck off.

Ya that one hurt just a little, he looked away leaving me there thinking what I did wrong. Maybe I should just give up on him, there's no way that Grimmjow could like me back anyway….right?

"With that meeting dismissed", Aizen said.

Everybody got up pushing their chairs back and walking out. I made sure I was the last one out; I was heading to the door when Gin grabbed my shoulder.

"What do you want Gin? I asked irritated, I honestly wanted to go to my room and sulk.

~oooo Ulqi-chan you don't have to be like that ya know~ Gin whined "I only came over to help ya out", he said again.

"Help me with what", I asked curiously what could he possibly help with other than my love problem.

"I know who ya like Ulqi", Gin said with a sly grin on his face.

I could feel my face getting hot, how does he I know I like Grimmjow. "I don't like anybody", I lied looking down to my feet.

"It's Grimmjow isn't", Gin said; he laughed when he saw my face red as a tomato.

"I knew it, but I can help ya", Gin said.

"Help me with what"? I asked looking at Gin confusion written all over my face.

"Jeez and I thought Grimmjow was dense"…"Help you get with Grimmjow", he said

"Really and how are you going to do that", I asked. "Because it seems to me that he hates my guts", I said, remembering what he said during the meeting.

"Well you never know until you try, but I heard he going hunting today maybe you should ask him if you could tag along", Gin said

I thought about it for a moment, maybe he would let me go if asked nicely I mean he doesn't hate me that much.

"I guess I could try", I said with little hope in my voice. I started to walk out the door but Gin said something else.

Before Gin walked out he said one more thing…"Oh and Ulqi-Chan remember you can't get everything you want", he said before leaving.

While I was walking to Grimmjow's room, I was thinking about what Gin told me. It was like he was trying to warn me or something, but where just going hunting; I just shook it off; when I reached the door I knocked twice. I was starting to get nervous what if he tells me no, or tells me to fuck off like he said during the meeting. You know what forget it; I turned to walk away when the door opened revealing Grimmjow with just his hakama on.

"What do you want", he asked, clearly annoyed that Ulquiorra was the one knocking on his door.

"A…Are you going hunting", I asked my voice cracking, I was so nervous.

Grimmjow raised an eyebrow, what with him today; 1st he smiles at me during the meeting, 2nd he's blushes every time I talk to him and 3 he was stuttering like he was nervous or something. Oh and why does he want to know if im going hunting?

"Ya im about to leave, why"? I asked

Ulquiorra shuffled his feet before he answered…"I was just wondering if I could go with you", he asked with his head down, his face red.

Did he just ask me to if he could go, seriously what is up with him, and there he goes his face was red. I thought about it before I answered. His real plan was to meet Ichigo, but I guess I can let him come it's not like he's going to interfere with me and Ichigo.

"Sure, but I only hunt in, my release form", I said. Knowing how Ichigo likes to play with my hair.

W…What I thought to myself did he really just said yes. I lifted my head up to look him in the eyes, god he was amazing. I could stare at his face for hours and not get bored at all. I was so busy looking at him that I didn't hear what he said.

"Sorry, what did you say", I asked trying to compose myself.

Grimmjow came out and closed the door behind him…"I said come on", and with that we headed down the hallways and out the door.

When we were outside I asked him where he usually hunts; he pointed over to the forest on the south side of the building.

I watched him as he pulled Pantera out, I don't know why but I love seeing Grimmjow in his release form. That beautiful long hair was so pretty, and the way his ears prick up to the slightest sound. I heard him say Grind Pantera, then I watched as he transformed when he was done he looked back at me.

"Arnt'cha gonna change I don't want you slowin me down", Grimmjow said with a smirk.

I was laughing on the inside, did he honestly think that I was slow…please. But on the outside I was kind of self-conscious of my resurrection well the 2nd one that is. No one as seen it, not even Aizen.

"Are you sure"? I asked him; I will change but only for Grimmjow, he would be the 1st person to see this.

"Will ya just hurry up, it can't be that bad anyway", Grimmjow said.

I pulled out my sword pointing it in the direction Grimmjow was standing; he looked at me with curiosity on his face, his ears up listening.

"Enclose Murcielago", I said

I backed up a bit the pressure was too much for me, for a minute I couldn't even see Ulquiorra it was just a huge green and black blur; then it started to rain (green rain)….wait a minute it doesn't rain in Hueco Mundo. I looked over at Ulquiorra there where 2 horns on his head, and wings black as night; and the tears on his face got bigger; what got me the most was the color of his eyes…there were no longer green there where yellow.

Once the rain stopped I didn't know what to say, it was like a complete different person standing in front of me.

"Is this really your release form", I asked cautiously

Ulquiorra turned his gaze to me, and my instinct told me to run like hell but it was like I was in a trance.

"No, this is my second", Ulquiorra said blushing. Grimmjow watched him, his black tail going back in forth in nervous manner.

"Wait, you have a second? I asked….wonder what his 1st looks like.

"Y...Ya I do", Ulquiorra said looking back Grimmjow with those eyes.

Grimmjow looked away…"Well come on", he said; he got on all fours and started to run towards the forest.

I was kind of surprised that Grimmjow wasn't as scared as I thought he would be. I jumped from the ground stretching out my wings; I can't remember the last time I took this form it felt good though to be in my true form. I flew above Grimmjow as he ran, he was indeed fast in his release form; it's kind of surprising. When we reached the forest Grimmjow stopped to look up at me. I flew down landing on my feet gently, "What", I asked.

I heard him sigh "I didn't really come out here to hunt", Grimmjow confessed.

I was taken aback, if we didn't come here to hunt then….wait did he finally realize I love him and he wants to confess to me to. My tail whipped back and forth in excitement, and my chest was feeling all tingly…but everything stopped when Grimmjow said he came here to meet somebody.

"T…To meet somebody…who"? I asked who could he possibly be meeting out here in the middle of the forest. That's when I felt his spiritual pressure…..Ichigo Kurosaki, why was he here?

Grimmjow turned to his Ichigo his lover; he looked back at Ulquiorra who was staring death glares at Ichigo.

"Why is he here"? I said coldly, I can feel myself getting angrier by the minute. This person caused me so much pain and agony; I promised myself if I ever see him again I WOULD kill him. But realizing what was going on I was in no position to kill anybody.

Grimmjow stood in front of Ichigo protectively; he saw the way Ulquiorra was looking at Ichigo. Grimmjow knew what happened between them and kind of knew what Ulquiorra was feeling…revenge.

"Ulquiorra", I said calmly I took a step forward to him, but he took a step back.

"Why is here", Ulquiorra said again.

"Ulquiorra you can't tell anybody that I come here okay, it's more of like a secret meeting", I said. I looked back at Ichigo who staring intently at Ulquiorra. "You have to understand, he's my..." I hesitated at that part unsure if I should tell him or not.

"Go ahead tell him", Ichigo said from behind me. He was looking dead into Ulquiorra's yellow eyes.

I sighed…"He's my lover"; I said….I saw the shocked look in Ulquiorra's eyes, and the way his tail stopped swinging.

"L…Lover's", I said quietly…I took a step back again. Im such an idiot why would I ever think that Grimmjow could love me back of course he wouldn't. Another thing popped in my mind, why would Grimmjow want me to come with him if he knew that Ichigo was going to be here….

"Why", I asked

"Why what", Grimmjow asked.

"Why would you want me to meet him, did you think I would make up with him or something", I said.

"No, I thought you wanted go hunting so that's why I stopped so you could go ahead", Grimmjow said…."Im confused if you didn't come here to hunt then why did you want to go", he asked again.

"I came here to….you know what just forget", I said. I turned away spreading my wings, jumping from the ground I left not looking back at the person that I loved dearly. A tear falling from my eyes and down my cheek, then I remembered what Gin told me before I left.

"Oh and Ulqi-Chan remember you can't get everything you want",

I guess I can't get whatever I want…

Once my feet hit the ground in front of the entrance I didn't bother changing back, I just didn't have the energy. As I walked to my room I passed a lot of the espada, I could hear them gasping at my true form. I saw the scared look on their faces. This is the downfall of my resurrection people see me as a monster, there all scared and I hate it.

I finally got to my room when I opened the door I found Gin sitting there on my bed waiting for me.

~Ulqi-Chan~ Gin said "How did it go hmmm", he asked.

I don't know why but seeing Gin here and him asking me these questions was pissing me off greatly. It's like he was doing this on purpose…knowing Gin he probably is.

"Get out", I said walking up to him my eyes filled with anger.

~But I want to know what happened~ Gin whined.

"GIN GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY ROOM NOW", I yelled, I was just too pissed off at the moment to be interrogated by him.

Gin flinched back a bit, he never heard Ulquiorra raise his voice let alone curse at all. So he did what I said. He wasn't in the mood to die yet.

I watched as Gin left my room and then I completely lost I started to throw things against the wall to let the anger and sadness out. I just couldn't take it… all these emotions. I hate feeling like this, I slid down the wall; my head laying against my knees I covered my body with my wings shutting myself out from the world as cried the rest of the night.

BACK AT THE FOREST

"Ichigo", I said breaking the kiss we just shared.

"What, why'd you stop", he said as he played with my hair.

"I have to go back", I said. I started to get up; I was kind of worried about Ulquiorra actually. The way he acted was completely different and I didn't like it. I also wanted to know why he came out here what his REAL reason was.

Ichigo grabbed my arm brutally "You better not be thinking about him", he hissed.

I know this sounds bad but Ichigo has been very abusive lately and I can't understand why though. I mean I would say something and he would get so offended by it, at one point I wanted to break up with him but I was too scared to. Besides he looks like the type to lash out on if you did that, so I kept quiet and just dealt with it.

"Im not im just tired that's all", I lied, and I smiled.

Ichigo stared at me to see if I was lying, he let go of my arm….im guess he was satisfied that I telling the truth.

Before I left Ichigo told me to meet him here again tomorrow I told him sure.

When I got back everyone was starting at me like I was crazy or something. I saw Gin in the hallway so went over and asked him what is up with everyone. He explained to me that Ulquiorra was throwing a fit about something. But since I was the only person he was with, everyone thinks I did something to him.

After Gin left I walked to Ulquiorra room to figure out what the hell was going on.

I knocked on the door, but it was open surprisingly…what? Ulquiorra door was never unlocked.

When I walked in there where stuff all over the place broken glass, furniture, and even the pictures on the wall was on the floor. He looked to the other side of the room and saw Ulquiorra there covered by his wings.

Ulquiorra?