Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.

Warnings: Angst, OOC.

Pairings: L/Raito

Summary: Only if things were different, L and Raito could have a perfect relationship. What will be their choices when they only want to be together?

Notes: Well a new fic from me. This has only three parts. The other two parts are different endings. So here is the first part. I will post the other two parts (alter endings) in a day or two. Hope you enjoy it. Please tell me what you and what kind of ending you would want to see.

There was something between the two geniuses. Matsuda could see it but never said a word out loud. After all, he over heard the chief and Aizawa make remarks on same sex relationships. It would do no one good to have a huge scandal brought up in the middle of hunting down the real Kira. Part of him wanted to speak up against L and Raito for doing things that would be very unethical in their situation. But the other part was happy for them. He might be known for being an idiot but there are many things he can tell. First is the fact Raito is lonely even if the teenager doesn't show it to anyone. Second would be L needed someone on his own level which he found within Raito. True, it wasn't ethic for either of them being together; L being the lead detective in the Kira Case and Raito being the main suspect. But he kept his mouth shut, always giving a tiny smile to the two men he respected.

There was settle hints between the two brilliant minds. Mogi caught a few of them when he would hand over reports or other information needed for the case. He would be settled of giving them a look that told the two they were caught and it wouldn't take long for the others to follow along. This always got the two young men to keep their minds on work. Who was he to tell them they weren't allowed to be together? To his point, he saw they were perfect for each other. After all, they were equally matched in intelligence and they both had many other things in common. So, he decided to cover for them when the others asked questions out loud of their strange behavior.

Aizawa wanted to knock L down from his pedestal but never had anything to do so. Then again, he admitted they needed the odd ball of a detective. Even if Raito would lead them, he wasn't too sure if that would be a huge mistake. All the talk about Raito being Kira caught up to him. True, he believed the chief's son's innocence but L has repeated told them that Kira is equal match to him. The only person he has ever seen equal to L is Raito. Yes, he had his doubts and resigned himself of following the unethical detective's orders. Once in a while, he would notice some kind of spark between Raito and L but wrote it off as them being rivals even if Raito isn't Kira.

Yagami found himself respecting L even if the man repeatedly accused his son of being a mass murderer. Who couldn't respect someone so young that solved many cases alone? He saw his son fight for his innocence every single time L tested him. But he also caught glimpses of hurt within Raito's eyes. He wondered why but never asked. Since he found Raito desiring a friend on his level and L seemed to fit the picture. So, he wrote it off that Raito was hurt by his friend accusing him of something he didn't do.

Raito would sit there, trying his hardest to focus on work, on proving his innocence to the man sitting beside him. It isn't easy to show the detective this. If the man had an idea, he was stubborn to admit he was wrong. Then again, he was the same way. So, he really couldn't blame L for being the same way. But it still hurt inside. Well, consider that L is his first real friend, not one of those fake ones that he has around all the time. Second for the fact L and he have a deep relationship. Every accusation set his way would bring pain to his heart. Still his pride refused to show that hurt to anyone else.

L would sit there, looking up information on Kira. What no one ever saw was he was trying in all his power to prove his first friend's innocence too. He didn't want his friend, his lover to be a mass murderer, his enemy. That hurt him more than anything alive. What would he do if he gained the proof to end Kira's reign if it really did turn out to be Raito? He would glance over at his young lover and realize this case might just be his last. The worst part about it is he doesn't care if it is. For the first time, he found someone like him in every single way. Truly he could die happy with that fact.

With a careful look, Watari saw everything. He was the one who did the monitoring all the time. At first he was surprised to find L encaging with the young Yagami. But after a few glances he caught coming from L, he smiled knowingly. There was no way he would bring an end to the most dangerous relationship. Yes, he worries for the one he raised but he knows when to take a step back, letting L handle his own business. But he notices the pain within both of the young men. It is hard to miss. He knows they both want to be together but this case just might end their happiness all together.

It takes only one little mistake and one day to crash every illusion built around everyone. One slip of the tongue and their world would crumble. Yes, it could have been beautiful. Yes, it would have worked if the circumstances were different. Maybe in a different life they would have been the greatest couple alive. But that can only happen in fairy tales and this is not a fairy tale. One phrase would end everything. And it happened.

"I think Ryuuzaki is right on his accusations." Raito tells the task force without expressing any emotions. "That I was the Original Kira, the mastermind behind everything."

Yes one little sentence could demise all the wonderful things that happened between the two geniuses. Only if Kira was never a factor then it would have been great. But if not for Kira, they might have never met. How could their relationship truly work? It was doomed from the start, but that doesn't mean either of them didn't feel pain.

Yagami smacks his son in the face which causes his men to stare shocked. How dare his child say this to everyone? It isn't true and it is full of lies. "Ryuuzaki has put these ridiculous ideas into your head. It isn't true." He hisses out.

The room is silent waiting for one of the two brilliant minds to say something in defense. Neither of them says a word or even glance at the other. Aizawa stares at Raito with anger in his eyes. Matsuda gives a pity look at their leader. While Mogi and Watari stand in the background, they both give a sigh of sorrow. It is true one of the two were going to crack under their secret relationship.

All the anger is directed at him but Raito doesn't even blink for fear he will lose his control over the emotions lurking underneath the surface. He looked for a reason. He looked for a way to prove his innocence. But all he came up with was the greatest detective being correct. The memory lapse even if he could explain them, it was just too perfect. Finally he speaks up in some kind of defense to his lover, "Ryuuzaki isn't the one who put these wild ideas into my head. I had to know. So, I looked over all the information and saw everything matched to how I would act."

No one moves. No one argues. It was over; the game that was played between the two greatest minds. But everyone in the room looked ready to kill him or scream at him. It left a void within the entire task force and no one knew what to do. The confession was straight out and volunteer.

"Arrest Yagami Raito on charges of being the mass-murderer Kira." L orders in a broken voice. For the first time, he can't control the pain in his voice. Nor could he control the tears gathering up in his eyes.

Not waiting for his father to argue, Raito turns to face the one man who meant everything to him. He gives a soft smile that meant to bring comfort. It only brings more sorrow, but he couldn't stop it.

Their world ended. And the final blow would be in front of everyone. Raito leaned forward, brushing his lips against the older man's. It was a silent confession for only them to know. But by one look the others in the room caught on or suspected it long ago. Tears were shed between the two lovers that were never meant to be. Only if it was a fairy tale they would be together.

That night, Matsuda stayed at the headquarters. He wasn't convinced that L would be alright alone. So, he decided to watch over the well known detective. It was horrible to hear the broken sobs that the other tried to hide from him. Earlier Raito did not fight or even struggle when he was taken away to a cell. One look told them all that he was being a man and was taking responsible for his crimes. Even if the chief or Aizawa refused to look at Raito unless in anger, he looked at the young man with respect.

Aizawa went home and hugged his wife and daughter. Glad that he isn't in the situation his boss is in. It stuck anger within his soul to hear those words coming from Raito. How could he do this to his own father? Only the thought of his own family stopped him from lashing out. Then the way Raito and L acted sicken him to no end. He had to leave before he did something horrible.

Yagami left without saying one word. He had to think. He had to decide what to do next. Part of him wanted to kill his son and take his life. But the thought of leaving his wife and daughter alone changed his mind. Now, he must figure rather being a father comes first or being a police officer. Doubts like never before enter his mind and the guilt of letting this happen drives him mad. When he came home, he let his silence tell the rest of his family that today was a bad one. Only if they knew the entire truth, he doubts they would be able to handle it.

Watari sighed for the tenth time and tried to figure if he should go to L or to the teenager. After a few hours, he headed down to the cell areas to find a sight no one would believe; Raito curled up sobbing loudly. It brought his loving nature out and he cough to inform the young man he was there. When Raito lifts his head, he sees red puffy eyes staring at him.

Gaining a soft gentle smile, Raito laughs out bitterly, "I confessed even though I don't remember any of it. I confessed." Why did he do it again? Was it to end the case? That's impossible since there is another Kira on the loose. Now, he knows why. He continues to reveal, "I was afraid. So I confessed. I thought back on everything and I realized that if I lost the power of being Kira, then it was by my own will. That would mean I would have a solid proof plan of gaining the power back. I couldn't let that happen."

A world of happiness doesn't exist. How could it when two lovers are millions apart? Their hearts and their minds might be linked together but their rivalry breaks them apart. Kira and L. Not Raito Yagami and L Lawliet. If they could have lived in a different place and a different time, maybe they would have just been themselves instead of detective and murderer.

"Then there is hope for you." Watari states in a gentle voice. "Any other person would have kept that information to themselves and let their plan continue. But you chose to stop yourself."

Raito responds, "Stopping myself meant letting everyone hate me. Even L."

A voice filled with emotions speaks up, "I don't hate Raito."

Peace eased within both of their souls when their eyes met. It showed the other there was no hatred but only love. Their deadly game was what brought them together but it also torn them apart.

Watari left them alone to talk out their problem but only silence lingers. It was peaceful but with tension. As the cell door opens, L steps through and lies next to the one who gave him the greatest gift alive; love.

Curling close to the older man, Raito whispers, "Remember this L. I love you more than anything. I hope you believe me."

"I trust Raito." L replies.

Those words meant the world to Raito and he couldn't stop the truest smile to appear on his face. Even though death is waiting for him, he lets go of everything; his emotions. Sobs escape his mouth and he buries his face into L's chest. "I… I… am… am sorry." Raito cries out.

Arms wrap around Raito's form and a monotone voice whispers back, "I know Raito is sorry. And so am I."

Only if L wasn't a detective. Only if Raito wasn't a murderer. It would have been perfect if there were no only ifs.

Notes: Here is the first part. I wrote it a little differently than I usually do, but hope it is good. Please tell me what you think.