This, my friends, is a SasuNaru two-shot that me and PunkRockFrog wrote a while back, like... January-ish. It's been lying around and we thought we'd post it now.
Enjoy!
Title: "A Thousand Tears"
Chapter Title: Don't Leave Me
Rating:M
Main Characters: Sasuke and Naruto
Warnings: Yaoi-ness. Boy love!!! There are some spoils in this so don't get mad. Also, it's kind of over dramatic, depressed crys easily Naruto, and implies rape.
Don't Leave Me
He wobbled as he walked. His eye lids were very heavy and he felt like he could pass out at any second. None of this was good since he had training right now.
Naruto was dog-dead-tired, and everyone could tell. He couldn't pay attention and he was quieter. Plus he didn't even notice a kunia fly past his head.
"Naruto! Wake up. Are you okay?" Sakura asked him. He rubbed an eye and nodded.
"Yeah, don't worry Sakura-chan. I just didn't get a lot of sleep last night." He put on a grin to reassure her.
"Naruto, you've been like this for the past week. Are you sure you're fine?" she got closer to him, making him take a step back. He put his hands up and with a small smile, he said,
"I'm fine. No worries." He looked over at Kakashi and Kakashi seemed to understand what he wantted.
"Okay, that's enough for today." Kakashi said, picking up a kunai. Sakura nodded and smiled gently at Naruto and put her arm around his shoulders. He tensed, but she didn't seem to notice.
"Oi, Naruto-kun. You wanna go get some ramen with me?" she asked him excitedly. Naruto smiled, trying to hide the sadness in his eyes when she mentioned going to get ramen, something Naruto always dragged him along to go do.
"Gomen, Sakura-chan, but I'm not that hungry. I'm just really tired. I'm going home, plus it's getting late." He sighed tiredly, nudging his head towards the setting sun.
"Oh..." Sakura said, disappointed. 'Naruto's always hungry. What's wrong with him? There was sadness in his eyes when I mentioned going to get ramen...Naruto...what's wrong with you?' Sakura thought, concerned.
Naruto frowned. He didn't want to disappoint Sakura, he wanted her to be happy. He wanted all his friends to feel happy, the opposite of what he felt most his life, especially lately. But he didn't feel like eating anything or doing anything that reminded him of him. All he wanted to do was sleep.
Sakura let him go and turned to leave. "I'll head home then. See you tomorrow Naruto, Kakashi-sensei!"
"See ya, Sakura-chan." Naruto called as she walked away. Naruto had lost his crush on Sakura long ago, after the battle with Haku and Zabuza on the Naruto Bridge. But the crush position was not left empty. Somehow, someone else found their way into that spot...He had taken it...Naruto just acted like he still like Sakura, to cover it up.
Naruto was snapped out of his thoughts when he felt a hand clamp down on his shoulder. He turned and looked at Kakashi. The one eye Naurto could see was soft and concerned.
"Naruto...is it really because of him?" he asked softly, as if someone was around to hear them.
Naruto looked at his feet, he knew Kakashi was going to say that. That's what everyone thought was his problem. Which most of it was, not all, but most. He just wished no one would mention him.
Kakashi sighed deeply, he didn't like Naruto like this. It didn't seem like the blonde, happy-go-lucky idiot that was assigned on his team long ago.
"Naruto, sulking and being depressed about it isn't going to make him come back any faster. Though, I'm sure he'll come back soon...eventually."
'That's what he said a year ago. Pufft!' Naruto heard Kyuubi grumble. Naruto agreed and looked back at Kakashi. He stared at him a minute, mute, and Kakashi got more concerned.
"That's why you haven't been getting a lot of sleep lately, isn't it?" Kakashi asked. "You've been acting like this since you came back from that four day mission a week ago..." Naruto mentally winced. "...Did something happen? Did you see him?" There was a pause, then Naruto shook his head.
"No, I haven't seen him in forever..." Naruto sighed. "Don't worry Kakashi-sensei, I'm fine and I'm sure I'll be able to sleep very soon." Kakashi stared at him for a second, then nodded.
"Alright, Naruto." Kakashi ruffled Naruto's hair and let him go.
Naruto began walking home and he raised his hand to say bye to Kakashi.
'No, Kakashi...Truly, that isn't totally the reason why I'm this way and can't sleep...' he thought as he walked into town.'Something did happen on that mission...Something I can't bear to tell anyone...' Naruto ignored all the mean looks and glares he got as he walked through the village. It was hard enough with everyone glaring at him his whole life, then having his first real and only best friend ever leave him like he was nothing. And then that man...
Naruto's fist clenched. That man was the main reason for all his misery in the last two years. That man had done so many things...First he put more of a burden on his shoulders, then he killed the man who was like a grandfather to Naruto. He took him away from Naruto. Then to top it all off...He took the one thing away from Naruto that no human being, if their's was taken, could ever get back...
Naruto closed his eyes, trying not to remember that awful night. But the more he tried, the angrier he got.
'Kit, calm down. It's over...chill.' Kyuubi said calmly. Naruto sighed deeply and shook his head to clear it.
'Gomen, Kyuubi.'
'It's okay, young one.'
Naruto walked on, watching his feet as he went. Naruto didn't wear his orange jacket anymore. Just his black shirt with the leaf symbol on it and his orange pants. He just couldn't wear it. Every time he looked at it, he remembered how many times he said one day that he'll burn it and get Naruto a new wardrobe. It just hurt Naruto so much like a lot of other things did lately.
Naruto never went to Ichiraku Ramen anymore because it reminded him of how he used to drag him there after missions or training to eat. He'd always sit there and watch Naruto devour bowl after bowl of ramen with a slightly annoyed and disgusted look on his face. Then his eyes would grow wide then he'd roll then after he paied for Naruto's ramen feasta.
Naruto didn't offten like to go to certain parts of the trainning grounds because parts of it reminded him of their many sparring matches or the spot where they both became genin and he was the one that handed Naruto his own lunch.
Naruto didn't go to these places because he didn't trust himself not to break down or do something to make others uncomfortable or do something he'd regret.
He turned to the left to go the long way home, glancing at the way he used to go.
When he was a little more then half way home, he noticed two boys, about the age of 12 by a flower shop. One boy had a arm around the others shoulders, smiling ear to ear. The other boy was glaring at the boy.
"Don't touch me." he growled, but he slightly smirk afterwards. Naruto quickly looked away, pushing back the memories coming forth by looking at the two.
He got half way home and again saw two more boys. The shorter one was jumping up and down pleaded for the other one to get something for him. The taller one had his arms folded and a annoyed look on his face.
"No, idiot. Get it yourself. I'm not spending my money on you." he said coolly.
"Awww! Come on!" the other one whined.
"No."
Naruto looked back down at his feet, picking up his pace trying to get away from the boys that reminded him so much of what used to be. 'Is the world against me today?' Naruto asked himself.
Only two minutes later and Naruto later cursed himself for looking up. There stood two boys, looking about 15 years old, one tall and dark and the other shorter and blond.
"Man, you don't have to be a prick." the shorter one said annoyed.
"I'm not, idiot." the taller one said, putting his hands on his hips. The other boy's arms when straight out and stiff at his sides.
"Errr! Jerk!" he growled.
"Dobe." the other one said, turning his head the other way, sporting a cocky/amused smirk that looked so famillar to Naruto.
"Teme!" the shorter one yelled.
Naruto froze. Those two names...how they often went between Naruto and him. It used to be like a tradition. Something they did everyday, every time they saw each other. At first they were insults and they soon became affectionate nicknames, at least Naruto thought it that way. Hearing them made Naruto's heart start racing, and his eyes start burning. His heart ached and his body started shaking.
'Kit...Naruto calm down...easy now...' Kyuubi said cautiously. Naruto didn't seem to hear him. Then suddenly, without any thought, Naruto turned and ran as fast as he could home, tears beginning to spill from his eyes.
'Hai, hai! The world is against me!' he cried in his mind. He ran without stopping till he got in his apartment. He tripped on his way into his room and fell on his hands and knees, taking deep breaths. Naruto closed his eyes tightly, trying to stop the tears to no avail. He rolled himself up tighter, his finger nails scrapping the wood floor.
"Damn it..." he growled, his voice shaking. 'Damn it...look what you've done to me...You've made me crush on you...then fall in love with you...Make it to where I dream of being with you forever...then you go and leave me...Leave me with this damn heart ache...'
"Damn you..." Naruto shook once and gritted his teeth, tears running down his cheeks. "Damn you Uchiha Sasuke!" he yelled. "Damn you..." he whimpered.
'Naruto! Calm down, please Kit! Try to stop crying...' Kyuubi said, trying to calm Naruto down. 'You know...a thousand tears wont make him come back.'
"I k-know Kyuubi...I know..." Naruto took deep breaths before opening his reddened eyes and standing up.
He looked around his room. His shelves were plain now, his room was plain. His ramen poster was gone and his calender was plain. He looked at his calender and noticed what the next day was.
"Tomorrows my birthday..." he muttered. "Great..." he said. His eyes casted down from the calender to the face down picture on his night table. He sighed. It was the picture of squad seven. One with Sasuke smirking and Naruto smiling happily along with Sakura. Kakashi's hands on top of both Sasuke's and Naruto's head.
Naruto had taken every picture with Sasuke in it and turned it face down. Even one with Sasuke and Naruto both soaking wet, Naruto's arm around Sasuke's shoulders. Sasuke was trying to look annoyed but wasn't doing to well. Naruto had tripped and started falling backwards into the river. He had reached out and grabbed the nearest person, who happened to be Sasuke, and pulled him in with him. Sakura thought it seemed "cute" when they got out of the water, and funny, and she took a picture of them.
Naruto turned them face down because he didn't want to feel heart ache when he saw the bishounen's perfect face.
Naruto walked over to his bed and took off his shoes along with his pants. He laid down in bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Man, life is unfair." Naruto looked at his arm and clenched and unclenched his fist. It still kind of hurt from that mission he had a week ago. From what happened. Naruto closed his eyes, trying to stop tears of emotional and mental pain. What that man did was the last thing he need. It was the worst thing someone could do to someone. Naruto curled up into a ball, taking deep breaths.
'Go to sleep, kit...' Kyuubi said softly. Naruto closed his eyes and sighed, letting sleep take him.
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He darted through the forest, his feet barely touching anything for a second. He had to get him. He's been worried sick about him and now couldn't stand not checking on him.
If only that stupid snake man didn't go and do that to him. He didn't think he's really do what he said he would.
"Stupid snake man...that bastard." he muttered. That snake man had warned him though.
'Damn it, if I had just follow orders...If I would have taken him seriously. This wouldn't have happened...He wouldn't have done that to him...' he thought. He grunted as his words came back.
"Listen boy, if you don't start following my orders exactly, I'm going to hurt your precious Kitsune. I'll take it from him as I tried with you. I'll put him in pain, I'll break him mentally. Hai I will Uchiha Sasuke, so do as I say!"
Sasuke growled. Stupid Orchimaru. If only he didn't know how much Sasuke cared for Naruto, his Kitsune. He sped up, wanting to get to Naruto as soon as he could. He missed his Kitsune and needed to see him again, he didn't have to talk to him, or Naruto didn't have to see him. He just wanted to see his kitsunes smiling face once more.
But if Orchimaru only didn't know of Sasuke's feelings...Sasuke wasn't sure how he'd come to feel this way towards Naruto. He just did. No one had made him before. It surprised Sasuke.
Stupid Orchimaru. Stupid Naruto.
He paused before he entered the village. Should he go though the village? Or should he teleaport to Naruto's apartment? He decided to teleaport to the tree right outside Naruto's window.
When he got there, to his relief, Naruto's window was open. He peaked inside to see Naruto asleep in bed. He sighed as he stared at his Kitsune. How much Sasuke longed to touch Naruto's tan skin...to feel his thick blond hair between his fingers again...to trace Naruto's perfect whisker like marks with his fingers...to look into those beautiful azure eyes he longed to see again...
Sasuke couldn't hold back and he stepped through the window. He slowly walked over to Naruto's bed side. He slowly reached forward and brush the back of his hand against Naruto's cheek. His heart picked up a little as he felt Naruto's warm, smooth skin against his hand. Sasuke slowly moved his hand to Naruto's hair and ran it through it. He kept his hand in his hair and moved Naruto's locks gently through his fingers. Sasuke closed his eyes and got a sudden chill, likeing the feeling of Naruto's hair between his fingers once more.
He opened his eyes and looked down at Naruto's face.
"Naruto..." he whispered. He leaned down, letting his breath tickle Naruto's ear. Suddenly, Naruto let out a painful whimper and Sasuke drew back. "Naruto?" he said quietly. Naruto started whimpering over and over again in pain and he started sweating.
'He's having a nightmare...' Sasuke thought. Naruto started moving around, shaking in what seemed like fear.
"Please...stop it...stop, it hurts...please..." Naruto cried softly. Sasuke reached forward and gently brush Naruto's cheek. He sat down on the edge of the bed, facing Naruto.
"Naruto...it's okay..." he said softly, running his fingers through Naruto's hair.
"Please...don't hurt me anymore...it hurts...make it stop!" Naruto cried. Sasuke looked at him worriedly.
'Gah! What do I do? I've never comforted someone before. I've never done this before! But...I can't stand to see Naruto like this. I have to help him.' Sasuke thought.
Sasuke reached forward and gently grabbed Naruto. He pulled him closer and held him in his arms. He gently rubbed Naruto's cheek, trying to calm him down.
"Naruto, calm down...it's okay. It's over." Sasuke cooed to him gently. Naruto tensed in his arms.
"No please...no...it's not true...It can't be..." Naruto muttered. Sasuke looked at him confused. "No...he isn't...he's not yours..." Naruto shook violently. "No...stop...your hurting me...No!...Stop...Sasuke..." Naruto pleaded his name, like he was calling out for help. "Sasuke...help me...make him stop..." Naruto cried. Sasuke held him tighter.
"Naruto it's okay, I'm right here. I'm here...Naruto..." Sasuke said softly. "It's me...Sasuke..." Naruto grabbed Sasuke's shirt tightly and he moaned, finally awakening,
Naruto's eyes fluttered open. He couldn't tell who was there but he knew someone was holding him. He liked the feeling but immediately thought it was someone bad. He pulled away quickly and scrabbled back to the head of the bed, turning to look at the intruder.
It took him a minute to get his vision clear, but he still didn't believe his eyes when he saw Sasuke sitting on the edge of his bed. He rubbed his eyes and looked again.
"S-S-Sasuke?" Naruto said in a small voice. Sasuke smirk at his kitsune. Naruto got on his knees and slowly lead towards Sasuke, his hand reaching up to Sasuke face. His fingers gently touched Sasuke's cheek. After a second of just his fingers bushing against Sasuke skin, his whole hand cupped Sasuke's cheek. His thumb rubbed gently against Sasuke cheek bone, then it slowly moved down to touch Sasuke nose.
Sasuke sat there, motionless, letting Naruto inspect his face, his heart racing.
Naruto's thumb moved across Sasuke chin brifely, then it slowly rubbed Sasuke lower lip. Naruto slowly got closer to Sasuke.
"Is it really you?" he asked. "Are you really here? Is it really you, Sasuke? Not some stupid illusion?" Naruto asked.
I thought you were gone forever!" Naruto cried. "You left me...here...alone..." Naruto buried his head into Sasuke's chest. Sasuke hesitantly brought his hand up and rest it in Naruto's hair.
"Gomen, Naruto. I really am sorry." he said sorrowfully. Naruto tensed, taking in Sasuke sent.
"You smell like him..." Naruto muttered. "You feel like him...you sound like him...But are you him or is this another dream?" Sasuke look at him confused.
"Dream?" he asked softly.
"Yeah...dream..." Naruto opened his eyes, head still resting against Sasuke's chest. "He comes in a lot of them. First it's okay...It's everything I've ever dreamed of...It's perfect...but then..." Naruto voice got shaky, "it turns to a nightmare..." Sasuke stared at his kitsunes blond hair.
"Nightmare?" Sasuke muttered. Naruto was quiet, not moving. Sasuke kept staring at him.
'A nightmare? With me in it?...Oh please don't tell me I'm the cause of the nightmare.' Sasuke pleaded in his mind. Sasuke slightly pulled back, wanting to look at Naruto's face. But when he tried, Naruto's grip tighten and he pulled Sasuke against him.
"No!" he cried out, barring his face back into Sasuke's chest. "Don't leave me...Not again!" he cried. Suddenly, Sasuke felt wetness touch his skin where Naruto's face was. "Please don't leave me Sasuke...like you do every time..." Naruto's voice was shaken, it sounded like he was crying, and since Sasuke felt his shirt becoming wet right where Naruto's face was, he was sure Naruto was crying.
'He's crying...He's crying because he doesn't want me to leave...' Sasuke thought, 'Oh, did he cry like this when I left?' Sasuke suddenly got a sharp pain in his heart. The thought of making Naruto cry pained him. He didn't want his kitsune to feel hurt because of him.
"I'm not going to." Sasuke said. Naruto shook his head.
"That's what you said in my last dream...But you lied! You left me again! You never stay, you fade away, walk away, or slip out of my fingers. You always leave me...just like everyone else..." That pain hit Sasuke again, making his mind race.
"Naruto..."
"...It hurt so much when you left...When we fought at The Vally of the End...my heart was breaking...Every time you hit me...it crack more...Then when our final blows hit...When I looked at you're face...Your cursed mark face...that evil look in your eye...It snapped...It shattered right then..." Naruto buried his face deeper into his chest, tears flowing freely. With Naruto's words, Sasuke felt his own heart slowly start breaking.
"Naruto...I'm-." he was cut off.
"You left me broken hearted...but I couldn't let others know that...So I went two years hiding it. Foolishly hoping you'd return to make me whole again. But you haven't...and I'm sure this is only a dream..." Naruto took a deep breath. "Sasuke I..." he paused. "I've...I've been in love with you since you through yourself in front of me on the Naruto Bridge to protect me from Haku when we were 12."
Shock filled Sasuke. For that long Naruto had been...in love with him? Not crushing...not puppy love...but...love? Naruto loved him?
Sasuke had always noticed he had some sort of attraction to Naruto ever since their "accidental" kiss in the Academy. But he was never quiet sure what it was. He knew he was in love with Naruto a little bit before Itachi came to kidnap Naruto. But still, Naruto had loved him longer then he had loved him and he knew Naruto was more emotional then him, plus, Naruto never had anybody through out his whole life. But he found Sasuke, fell in love with him, only to have Sasuke leave him for power...
Leave Naruto for power...
Someone would think he'd choose love over strength, but, even Sasuke admits, he was foolish and chose power.
Naruto or power?
Now it seemed wrong to him. To leave Naruto for something like that, and to top it all off, to go to a freakin gay perverted snake man Sasuke truly hates.
Sasuke suddenly hated himself, for making Naruto cry...for hurting him physically, mentally and emotionally...For breaking his heart...For choosing power over Naruto...Sasuke felt horrible, and he knew he deserved it.
'Is it truly me who is the bad guy over all? Am I the one who is evil...? Is it I who is the bad guy in the end?' Sasuke thought. 'Tsk...it's not Orochimaru who is the true bad guy through it all...' Sasuke's grip on Naruto tightened. 'It's me...' With out thought, Sasuke bent his head and buried it in Naruto golden locks. 'Oh Kami...I'm sorry Naruto...I truly am...'
"Gomen, gomen, gomen, gomen." Sasuke chanted softly into Naruto's hair. Naruto sighed, trying to calm down.
"Then...after you left...I fell into a semi-depression...everyone seemed worried...I doubt they truly were..." Naruto said slowly. "About a week ago...I got a mission to deliver a message...It was B-ranked. On my way home...I ran into someone...I thought you might be with him...but...to my own dismay...you weren't...He said you were back at the hide out...more then likely asleep. The last person I wanted to see was him..." Sasuke gritted his teeth.
"Orochimaru..." he growled, remembering why he came there in the first place. Naruto's grip tightened even more.
"Hai...Sasuke he...took it from me...With no regrets...He stole the one thing I can never get back from me...and it hurts to think about it..." his voice got shaky again. "He hurt me...bad...and he told me you were his. You would never leave and never love me back...You would never love a demon like me..." Naruto started crying once more, Sasuke getting angry and his heart in pain.
"That's not true, Naruto..." he whispered.
"I don't want to believe him!" Naruto cried. "But...I wont know the truth...till Sasuke tells me himself...not some illusion of him." Sasuke shifted and pulled Naruto up into his lap.
"Oh...Naru-chan..."he whispered. Naruto shook with his silent sobs as he clinged on to Sasuke.
"Just please...Don't leave me...Make this one good dream...Where Sasuke doesn't leave...and he returns the love I have for him...Just...please..." Naruto cried helplessly. Sasuke felt his eyes start to burn.
"Kami, Naruto, Kami. I'm so sorry. Gomen, gomen. I never meant to hurt you...I don't want to hurt you...You're not a demon and I do-."
"No!" Naruto barked. "Don't say it unless you truly mean it!"
"But...I do-."
"Just don't say it at all right now...Mean it or not...It'll just make my heart hurt in the end because this is only a dream and you'll leave at the end like all the others." he cried, closing his blue eyes. Sasuke started shaking a little. He started to find it hard to breath right and his vision was getting blurry. He pulled Naruto close, placing his forehead against Naruto's head and he bit his lower lip.
But he could control it...He couldn't hold it back any longer...
Taking in a deep breath, he held Naruto tightly.
"Oh Naru-chan this is all my fault! I'm so sorry!" his body shaking like crazy now. Then, slowly, a tear fell from Sasuke's eyes and landed on Naruto's cheek. Naruto looked up at Sasuke, surprised.
Uchiha Sasuke...crying?
Sasuke opened his eyes and their eyes met, both of their eyes were red.
"Sasuke...your-."
"Crying? Yeah...I haven't done this since I was seven or eight years old..." Sasuke paused. He grabbed Naruto's face gently, then he cupped his right cheek. "Naru-chan...Naruto I'm...gomen...I'm sorry. And I promise...I'll make this a good dream..." he whispered. Then, it seemed slower then it really was, Sasuke bent his head down father and caught Naruto's lips in his own. Naruto was surprised at first but not a second after Sasuke's lips touched his own, Naruto's eyes fluttered shut.
It was chaste kiss. Nothing more. But the two boys held it out as long as they could. Both of them savoring the taste of one another. There was a spark both boys felt as they kiss. Both their hearts pounded in their chests. And as they parted, their eyes slowly opened, locked on each others the whole time. Naruto's felt heavier then before...but a good heavy. Sasuke stared at his Kitsune, trying to get his heart to calm down. He licked his lips and let out a breath.
"Naruto...I do love you...More then anything in the world. You mean more to me then the world...I made a mistake leaving...I hurt you and I'm sorry...And I'll do anything to make it up to you...Anything, Naurto-koi."
Naruto smiled softly.
"I love you too Sasuke-koi...And you know...this is the best dream I've had for many years." he said softly, before his eye lids shut and his breathing went back to normal.
Sasuke sighed. He wanted to kiss Naruto again, liking the feeling he got, but he knew better not to.
He held Naruto carefully and moved to the head of the bed. He lay down on it, letting Naruto rest his head on his chest.
Sasuke waited, gently stroking Naruto's hair. He wanted Naruto to be almost completely asleep before he did anything.
Ten mintues later, Sasuke was sure Naruto was almost asleep and he carefully got up. He noticed his hitai-ate with the slash across it on Naruto's dresser. He picked it up and laid it next to Naruto.
"I'm going to lay my hitai-ate here, to show I was really here with you...Naru-chan don't worry..." Sasuke bent over Naruto and kissed his forehead. "I'll be back...I promise."
And with that, Sasuke darted out the window, Sharingan ablaze. He darted through the forest, ready to depose of the one who stole Naruto's virginity.