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Everyone please read and review! Um ... kinda angsy and suicidal thoughts! I swear it gets better so just hang in there!

Chapter 1: Emotional Wounds

I lay in my bed, tired and pissed. I had been like this for the past week. A week. That was when it all started. I had seen it.

She chose him over me, figures, really, because Akito was right: The cat was not meant to be loved. Everyone has always favored that damned rat over me. Including her.

Tohru.

My thoughts have been clouding all over her. (Flashback)

F. U. R. U. B. A.

I walked out from the school building, I waited for Tohru to accompany me, like she always did. Usually that damned rat wouldn't be here because he had various student council things to attend to. Like I could care any less! That just meant more time for me to spend with Tohru Honda: The girl who had stolen my heart, accepted me for what I really am.

I waited for a good couple of minutes because it's not like her to just ditch me. That's way out of her character. Finally I gave up. She obviously already left. Damn this … I thought helplessly. I was going to tell her how I felt today … Well, OK, I tried before and it didn't work out well. I just choked on my words and told her never mind.

And so, I started to head towards the path that led me to my house. Er—well Shigure's house, but … well … he acts anything but like an adult. More like a 6-year-old perv.

The next thing I saw caught me off guard.

Left me speechless.

I was lost for words.

I bit my bottom lip very hard, despite the enormous pain I was feeling because there I saw Tohru with Yuki. They were talking about something that was probably not above a whisper. Whatever the nezumi told Tohru, she blushed.

Then it happened.

They kissed. And what was more was the fact the Tohru looked like she was actually enjoying it. She probably was. I could feel a lump in my throat and my hands all sweaty. My eyes began to sting. My feet were nailed to the ground, I couldn't move! I was paralyzed.

Suddenly the movement in my legs returned and I ran. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me. I didn't know where I was going, but as long as it was away from them … I would be happy … right?

I ended up finding my way home much later and went straight to my room. I would have gone to my usual sanctuary—the roof—but I feared that she would come after me. I couldn't face her. Not now. Maybe later. Maybe …(End Flashback)

F. U. R.U. B. A.

I stayed in my room and buried my face in my pillow. The only times I would come out would be to go to school. But school was out for a couple of weeks. So I only left to go to the bathroom. Usually that stupid dog would leave food outside my room and expect me to eat it.

Not when she made it.

So to make them quit asking me question from the other side of the locked door I would pretend I ate it and leave an empty plate outside. In reality, I just dumped the food out the window.

"Kyo-kun?" Tohru's timid voice asked from the other side of the door. "Please Kyo-kun! I'm really worried; you have been in there for 2 days now. Please …" She dropped to her knees and her vision became blurry.

"Honda-san!" Yuki came running to the fallen girl. "Honda-san, are you alright? You look a little pale …" He observed, lifting her head up with his index finger. "That baka neko will …" He looked away. "Be fine. OK? Honda-san, don't worry yourself over that useless cat."

Tohru shook her head. "Yuki-kun … I'm sorry to have worried you like this." Their conversation went on, and I could feel that they kissed again.

My heart tore to pieces. I feel so … rejected. Is this how Kagura feels? Every time I tell her I hate her? I suddenly felt silent tears running down my cheeks. I hate this. I hate life. I thought angrily.

F. U. R. U. B. A.

Shigure sighed the next morning. He was in his office, of course not writing. But surprisingly he wasn't teasing his editor, Mii. Shigure looked over at the phone, which was in his office.

He picked it up and dialed some random numbers. There was a pretty sleepy voice on the other end of the line. Well … it was 5:47am!

"Hello?" The person asked, drowsy.

"Haa-san!" Shigure sang.

"What, Shigure! It's not even 6:00am, what do you want?" Hatori asked, a hint of annoyance in his voice. He was about to hang up.

"Well …" Shigure became a little more serious. "It's about Kyo. He hasn't been himself for the past couple of days. He has locked himself in his room. We leave him food but I'm sure he doesn't eat it. He won't open the door, Haa-san!"

"Not even to Honda-kun?"

"Nope."

"Then this is serious." Hatori let out a little sigh. "I'll be over at 7:00am, OK? I have to go and check up on Akito first. He seems to have come down with something … again." Hatori said.

"Ooh! Haa-san, do you know what this reminds me of? Remember the time we were in grade 3 and you—"

Click.

"Heeelloo?" Shigure sang into the phone.

No response.

"Aaw, he hung up! You're sooo mean, Ha'ri!"

F. U. R. U. B. A.

I curled up into a ball on my bed. Another day … I thought to myself. Myself. That's all I have now. Me, myself and I. The cat. "Why was I born the cat?" I asked the question which had no answer. "Why am I hated?" My voice was weak; I hadn't even drunk any water. 13 Days without water and the human dies. Just 10 more days. I thought hopefully. "Wait … I'm not even a human."

A shiny metal object caught my attention. "Hmm?" I asked, my voice hoarse and low. My throat was sore and I was drenched in cold sweat. I had another dream … about them … they got married. They were happy. Everyone was happy. Everyone but me. Am I even someone?

I picked up the small little pocketknife and started to peel away at the left wrist.The crimson fluid came rushing out like a dam that had just exploded. But it was a welcome change from all the emotional pain I usually feel.

I could feel my tears running faster down my cheeks. Not because I was cutting myself, because I couldn't keep my mind off of Tohru. The more that I thought about her, the harder I peeled myself.

There was a knock at the door.

I didn't answer. As usual.

"Kyo! Kyo, this is Hatori. Now … you will either open that door or I will break it down." He said in a calm but threatening tone. "You have until the count of 10."

"Noo! Hatoooori! You can't break my poor innocent house! It takes enough abuse as it is! Noo!" Shigure cried, crocodile tears.

A lazy, still half asleep Yuki came in front of Kyo's door, to see what the hell all the commotion was about so early in the morning. "What's going on?" He asked, sleepily.

"10 …" Hatori warned.

"Hatori-san! I didn't know you were coming! I'm sorry, if I had known I would of made extra breakfast!" A flustered Tohru came running to the scene.

"9 …" The countdown continued.

So did Shigure's crying.

Yuki growled and grabbed Tohru's hand. "Tohru, let's go … um … it might not be pretty." Baka, baka neko! Why are you making Tohru worry so much? Just because you like her! Yuki narrowed his eyes at the door.

"Oh! OK Yuki-kun!"

F. U .R. U. B. A.

Hatori successfully managed to get into Kyo's room with having to deal with a crazy Shigure. OK … everyone always has to deal with a crazy Shigure. Hatori examined the teenager.

"So, what did you find?" Shigure asked—suddenly turning serious—while closing the door.

"It seems that he has been peeling himself."

Shigure was temporarily shocked. Kyo had peeled himself? Kyo! As in "I'm going to beat you today you damned rat" Kyo? Why in the world … unless …

Click.

Click.

Shigure had—finally—put 2 and 2 together. Tohru and Yuki spending much more time with each other for the past few days, and Kyo locking himself up.

"I see!" Shigure said, rubbing his chin.

Hatori felt confused, what the hell could Shigure of possibly noticed? Like come on! It's Shigure!

"Shigure, what are you talking about?"

Shigure just pressed his index finger on his lips. "It's a secret."

Hatori just rolled his eyes and grabbed Kyo for another examination. About 5 minutes later, Doctor Hatori Sohma, read out his discoveries.

"Well, it seems that you were right, Shigure." I never thought I'd ever say that … "It does seem that Kyo hasn't been eating any food at all. He is currently dehydrated, just force him to drink plenty of water and he'll be alright." Hatori rubbed his temples as he looked over at me. I just narrowed my eyes at him. "I advise you to take the lock off this room."

What! My mind screamed. How dare he come and tell me what I can and can't have! I rolled over and groaned. I had all sorts of pains, and not just from my wrist, which Hatori bandaged.

"You see, I'm not so sure as to why he would just isolate himself from the world, but what ever the reason is, it's nothing to die over. And you never know when he'll just decide to pull another stunt like this one." Hatori finished.

"Weeelly, well, well then! It looks like Kyon will not be having a lock on his room any further! And just to slice the cost of that horrendous carpentry bill, I'll do it myself!" The novelist said, quite proudly.

I couldn't help but moan as that damned doctor had finally left. Shigure had gone too, and left my door wide open. I didn't bother to lock it. Or close it for that matter. Shigure came back a few minutes later with a huge gallon jug of water.

"Open wide!" He grinned.

Great. Just great.

F. U. R. U. B. A.

Tohru flipped the eggs she was making for breakfast, as Yuki watched her. He had offered to help, but politely she had rejected.

"Yuki … Yuki-kun, why do you think Kyo-kun would do that? Have I done something to offend him? Should I go and apologize! Oh no—"

"Honda-san, don't worry. That stupid cat got what was coming to him. And you heard Hatori (A/N: Hatori just left a few seconds ago and told them about Kyo's condition.) that baka neko will be fine." Yuki cut her off.

"I hope so."

Yuki couldn't help but smirk. Once again, the rat has beaten the cat.

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