~You're The Voice - John Farnham~
[ We're Not Gonna Sit In Silence, We're Not Gonna Live With Fear]
Another bruise to try and hide, another cut to cover up, another alibi to write. The same reasons to hate him.
"Craig! you fucking idiot! are you even listning to me?"
I try to think of what he had said, but i wasnt listening, no matter how long i could sit here thinking i wouldnt be able to get the anwer.
"No sir."
"An idiot, thats what i have as a son"
He kicks me in the balls and walks out the front door. I collapse to the floor with my hands between my legs, crying.
Ruby runs to me crying too. She bites her lip and hugs me.
Once the pain subsides as much as it was going to for now, i walk up the stairs to look at the damage he does THIS time. I walk into the bathroom, locking it behind me. I look in the mirror to see a red mark on my face, a black eye, a busted lip and what i exspect is a broken nose, its fat, black and oddly out of shape. I crack my nose into place with extreme pain. I sigh and deside to have a shower.
When i get out of the bathroom i go see if Ruby is alright. I knock on her bedroom door and she opens it up revieling her Emo-like room.
"You alright, Be?"
saying the nickname i gave her, to make her feel more confortable.
She smiles weakly and hugs me.
Ruby went mute after all the years of dad beating us up so much. I blame mum for all this. If she didnt leave us all those years ago non of this would have happened.
I wake up the next morning by the alarm clock. Ruby hits the off button and pulls on my shirt trying to get me out of bed. Ruby sleeps in my room, we're both scared that dad will beat the shit out of us when we're asleep.
I eventually roll out of bed and stand up, taking Ruby's hand in mine and leading us to the kitchen. The good things about mornings is that HE is at work already.
I walk up to the school and look at the gates, not wanting to open it and walk in, but i did anyway. I walk through all the people that are crowding the hallways, before all this shit happened at home, everyone was scared of me, if they saw me walking down the hallway they all parted like 'The Red Sea', cause if they didn't they answered to a fist in the face. I was the school bully. But then one day someone caught on and relised how many people were in my way, and i didn't do anything about it, then everyone else caught on.
I got out of my locker, the book i need for first period, only to be pushed onto the floor. Giggles and hysterical laughing reached my ears. I look up and see Kenny with a shit eating grin. I stand up, shut my locker and turn around. I have no need to fight anyone. Kenny draggs me back by my wrist and turns me around so i am facing him.
Out of habbit i cover my face with my hands.
"Oi Kenny! stop being a friggan asshole!" I hear Stan's voice coming closer towards me.
Stan became my best friend after him and Kyle ended their friendship, over something pathetic. Cartman.
Kenny raises his hands in surender, he backs up and walks away smiling. I bite my lip and look at Stan whos giving me a worried look.
"Did kenny do that to your face?"
I hesatently nod. I know for a fact thats a lie.
As close as Stan and i have become over the past years he still doesnt know about my home life. I'd rather it stay that way. He always accumes its Kenny's doing, so why not just let him believe that?
Stan walks closer to me, dragging and protecting me away from the giggles and whispers that are coming from the students. He takes me outside to the court yard.
"Ohh right, hey dude i was thinking, Token is having this, super, super, awesome, rich party on friday and i was wondering if you wanted to come its gonna be epic!"
I look at Stan a second then shake my head.
"I can't i have to look after Ruby."
It wasn't a lie, friday nights means payday and no work for 2 days therefore more reason to drink. And if Ruby is home without me who will get the beatings? when im home dad beats me up instad for an unknown reason.
"Aww man, she can come too?"
"Narr its okay, i think i'll just spend the weekend with her."
"Dude, you spend EVERY weekend with her!"
" Er..yeah..well she's my sister, what do you exspect?"
"Sibling rivalry."
"Not in my family."
He smirks at me. Then punches me in the arm, coursing me to flinch and bury my head in my hands. Its a force of habit, i do it everytime Dad hits me, but he always ends up ripping my arms away from my face anyway.
"Uhh, dude, i didn't mean to scare you. Shit are you okay?"
Stan tries movies my arms but i lash out and scratch his arm. I'm shaking, feeling like i can't stand anymore, i sit down on a near by bench.
"Dude, something tells me Kenny has nothing to do with this. why don't you tell me?"
Tell you? why on earth would i do that!
"Bu-but it is from Kenny, i promis!"
Shit that sounded fake! i mean like REALLY fake...
"Okay i know its been a few years since you've been acting like this, what happened to the old Criag? your attitude changed and not in a small way, i'm talking about being king of the world to...shit. I mean everyone feared you and now your scared of the world. You were loud and out going, now i'm lucky to even get a whole sentence from you. Please just tell me, i can help"
I look at him with hope, then it changes to depression and fear. Fear. What if he DID find out what was going on, then Dad found out i told? then what if everyone found out? i couldn't live with the humiliation and the sympathy. I bite the inside of my lip, making it bleed. As Stan was about to say something, the bell rang. I quickly run off before he can say anything.