A lonesome soldier
Pairing: Jasper/Bella
Rated: M
Summary: the night Edward and the rest of the Cullen's left, Jasper stayed behind to say sorry to Bella. The only things the Cullen's didn't know was that Jasper had other reasons to attack Bella than they thought. Bella & Jasper end up having a one night stand. Bella gets pregnant, moves and becomes an actress. The Cullen's watch her movie and soon find out about little Anna. How will Jasper react?
A/N: This was the first story I had ever written. So it means a lot to me. Anyway… I redid a few things and since so many people liked my other stories I thought I'd give this one a try and hope you like it too. I don't think you'll have to wait very long for updates on this story, since I already wrote it almost a year ago and it's almost finished. I just have to re-write a few things and find a good ending.
Bella POV
It was the most horrible night in my whole life. Charlie had thrown me out. He walked in on me in the bathroom and found me sitting on the floor with a pregnancy test. He said I was too young for a child and said that if I didn't "take care" of this situation I'd have to leave. Renee was no great help either. She wasn't ok with the child. Said I couldn't live with her. She send me 4000$ and said that was all I could get from her.
I took the money and left. I missed the sun and decided to move to LA. I soon got discovered. I started working on little movie production but than… JACKPOT…. I got a role in an action movie.
I was brought out of my thoughts when my daughter called for me. I got up und went into the house. A fucking big house. One that would suit the Cullen's. One that suited a celebrity. Like me. I didn't really like it here but I had to live here. It was a nice house. But it was big. To be for one grown person and a little one. But my manager said I had to live here. It was safer. People couldn't reach me so fast.
"Mommy" I heard Anna whisper.
"I'm here baby" she ran up to me and wrapped her little arms around me. I loved her more than life it self. She was my all. Everything a woman could dream of. She was a lot like me. Not very girly. But she loved dancing. Any kind of dancing. Ballet, classical, funky. Sometimes it seemed like she dance through her whole life.
Anna was 3 years now. Almost 4. She had blonde hair. Just like her daddy. Jasper. Her daddy. I would never forget the night we spend together.
The Cullen's had already left he told me. He came to apologize.
Flashback
There was a soft knock on my window. Jasper.
I went and opened it. "What are you doing here?" I whispered. Charlie was downstairs watching TV.
"I need to talk to you." I let him in but he shook his head. He turned around and I climbed on his back. He took off to the Cullen's home and set me down in the living room.
"What's wrong Jasper?" should I be afraid.
"Don't be afraid. I won't hut you. How could I? You're so beautiful. Everything I ever dreamed of."
"What are you talking about?"
"Bella I have to explain something to you. When Alice and I met we both knew it wouldn't last. We were so different. She tried to change me into something that I wasn't. A few years ago, we think after you were born, Alice had a vision. She saw a girl. Coming to Forks. My mate. She was supposed to be mine. But Alice saw something strange. She didn't know what it was. And than you appeared here in Forks. We knew it was you. But Edward got to you first. I respected your decision. But I grew more jealous every day. And than you cut yourself. And I lost control. I saw the chances for us. All I could think about was changing you, trying to make you see who really loves you. And now he left."
"Jasper I still don't understand this."
"How did you feel when we first met? Can you remember that?"
And than I dawned on me. I felt safe suddenly. I felt a pull towards Jasper the moment I saw him.
"I felt like… like I needed you."
"That's because you're my mate. You were meant to be with me. For me to love you and cherish you. I love you."
"Jasper…."
"You don't have to say it."
"But what if it was true? What if I truly love you?"
"Than you're free to say it" he smirked.
"I love you"
He sighed. "You will never know how much I love you, Bella."
"Than kiss me."
And he did. He let his tongue slip over my bottom lip and I opened my mouth. He quickly slipped he tongue inside my mouth.
Our lips moved in sync and it felt perfect. No one had every kissed me that way, not even Edward. He had always been so careful with me. He said was too afraid he would hurt me. But Jasper wasn't that careful. He was rough but not too much. He knew how much I could handle before breaking. But somehow that kiss was still gentle. He pulled away from me and looked down at me
"Darlin' are you sure you want this?" he asked in a sexy southern drawl he didn't use often.
I couldn't form any words and just shook my head 'yes'. And with that he put both of his hands around my waist and lifted me up again running to his bedroom. Arriving there he lay on the bed and hovered above me.
He leaned forward and with one quick motion he captured my lips in a searing kiss that I hoped would never have to end.
When his lips left mine it left me wanting more. I never wanted him to stop doing these wonderful things to me. His lips had moved to my neck. He found just the right spot and I moaned loudly. I could feel him smirk against me.
He started to kiss and suck on that spot, only to earn more moans from me. He flicked his tongue over that extremely sensitive spot one more time before moving once more to sit back up.
He lifted up the bottom of my shirt. I arched my back so he could get it off. With vampire speed, he reached behind me and unhooked my bra. He had bent back down, placing his lips at the base of my throat and worked his way down.
He kissed down in between my breasts and it sent a shiver through my entire body. He left wet open mouthed kisses down my stomach until he reached the waistband of my shorts. He looked up at me cautiously, silently asking permission. I shook my head yes and in less than a second my shorts and thong were ripped off. He moved back up and kissed my lips once more.
His hand had found its way between my legs. His fingers were cold but his touch felt good. He was toying with my entrance and I bucked my hips, letting him know I wanted more. Now. He understood what I wanted and pushed a finger in. I moaned and my breath hitched in my throat. He started moving his finger and soon added another one and pumped them in and out. Soon my breath only came out as moans.
He pumped harder until I was almost at a climax. I was almost there when he pulled his finger out of me. He licked my juices off his fingers. He took a deep breath in and I knew he could smell my arousal. He quickly stripped off and placed his cock at my entrance. He looked at me and I shook my head yes once again. And with one swift motion, he was inside of me. He stopped for a second, letting me adjust to the object that was now inside of me. My face had softened and he started moving again.
"JASPER!!!! Baby I'm gonna come…."
"That's good baby…let go for me…. I want to see you come…." He whispered.
And at that moment, we both lost it. He spilled his seed inside of me as mine were now on both of out thighs.
Flashback.
And after that night he had to go. We both agreed it was for the best. He promised to be back. But he promised to bring the family. He wouldn't be alone. When we would be united again.
Three months later I found out I was pregnant.
"Mommy can we go out to the playground?" she asked in her angle voice. I missed Jasper. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if he was here, if Anna had a father. She often asked be about him. And I told her the truth. I don't know how I even got pregnant but I knew she was Jaspers.
"Of course, baby. Go and get your shoes." I let her down and she ran off. I called Nick. My bodyguard. It was better to have him with us.
We went to Coldwater Canyon Park. Nick and I sat at the side.
"You still miss him don't you?" Nick asked. He knew everything about me and Jasper. He didn't look down on me. He understood the situation. Somehow. He was married to one girl and fell in love with her sister. Now they were married.
"Maybe you should search for him."
"I can't. If he truly wanted to be with me he would already be here. People look at me over the whole world. I'm on one million magazines. He would have seen me. He would have heard me talk about Anna. But he's not here and that's it."
It was true. My breakthrough movie was released 2 and half years ago. Anna was just born at the time. We shot the movie in 2 months and it was released very fast. I had lots of fun doing it. The payment was good. 3 Mio. $ . A lot for me.
I soon bought the house for 1.5 Mio. $ And now I lived a happy life with my daughter. And Nick somehow. He became a very good friend. Almost like a brother, sometimes when I look at him I see Emmett. Nick was just ass tall and bear-y as Emmett.
Someone to protect you. Someone who enjoyed life until you threatened his family. Once paparazzi called me a bitch and Nick almost broke his neck. He was very protective of me and Anna. Always making sure we would stay in line. That I would stay the same, that fame wouldn't tear me apart. He knew I was waiting for Jasper.
But now 3 years later I found myself waiting less. Maybe he didn't want a family. I would understand. I was a single mom and probably would stay that way. But a little bit of hope still stayed.
Jasper POV
Emmett was once again dragging me to a DVD store. I hated it. I didn't understand why he would spend his whole day sitting in front of a TV.
Sure sometimes we would play games on the Wii or guitar hero. But somehow these games revolved around sports and war o whatever. I never watched much TV. I loved watching movies with Bella.
Bella. Her name made chills run down my spine. I missed her. Me and the family had spent the last 3 years travelling around. We lived with the Volturi for a while. Or in France. Always away from humans and schools. It was like vacation.
Now we were back. I wondered how Bella was. Did she still in Forks with Charlie? Did she go to college? Did she find a job? Did she find a new love?
Alice and Edward soon left. I had told them about me and Bella. Edward was ok with it. He said if that was true it was his will to leave us alone. He explained to me why being with Bella could end badly. But I wouldn't listen. Now three years later o convinced the family to come back to Bella.
We stayed in Seattle. Carlisle found a job and Emmett and I decided we would soon start searching for Bella. Esme and Rosalie decorated the house and thought about starting a business. Decorating business. Now they only needed a business plan and… I don't really know.
I didn't really care. I wanted Bella and nothing else. My heart ached for her. My body called for her. I wanted to feel her again. I wanted to be in her arms again. We would be together soon. I kept my promise to come back and now I would keep the promise to cherish her.
Rosalie was ok with the idea of me and Bella. She said she always knew that Edward wasn't right for her. Rosalie had faith in me and when I told her about Bella and me she was happy for us. When we decided to come back she told me she would talk to Bella. Explain why she acted that way and try to find a sister in her. She never got along with Alice that well and hoped to find a true friend in Bella.
Bella. My Bella. What does she look like now? Probably more like a woman. She was 24 now. Or almost. Will she still have that beauty around her? Of course she would. But she probably looked different now. Like a woman. Ready to have a child. I bet there were one million men on her heels.
Would she still wait for me like she said?
"Jasper, come here!" Emmett screamed. I ran to him and he held a DVD up to me.
I almost didn't trust my eyes. There was my Bella. On the cover of a DVD. The man next to us look at the DVD as well.
"That's Isabella. One of the hottest actresses right now. Had her breakthrough with that movie and makes millions like other people breathe. But she's good. And damn hot."
I couldn't believe it. My Bella was an actress. She still looked the same somehow. Her hair was longer. Her body fuller. But she was my Bella.
When we got home Emmett showed the DVD to the others and they were talking like crazy. I went up and turned on my computer and stated googling her. 8 Mio. Hits! Holy shit.
I found an article on Wikipedia and a few fansites.
They listed her life. And a shock hit me.
Bella's daughter Anna Whitlock was born on June 26, 2007.
Anna. Was she mine? I calculated the date and it would fit. She could be.
On one of the sites I found a gallery with hundreds of pictures. And one of Anna. Well a lot but I clicked of on and Bella and Anna appeared over my whole screen.
She was beautiful. She had blonde long hair, a cute tine nose, full lips and big blue eyes. She looked like me. Anna was my daughter. I printed that picture and ran downstairs
"She's mine. Anna is mine." I said and they looked at me like I was crazy. I showed them the picture and they all gasped. "How can that be?" Emmett asked.
Rosalie hit him. "It doesn't matter. Look at her. She's so tiny and small and adorable. Look at these eyes." Esme and Rosalie were looking at the picture and smiling like fools. "We have to find her. We have to find Bella" I said.
"No" Rosalie said. "First we will decorate a room for Anna. Come on mom lets go shopping." They were gone before I could say anything.
"Carlisle" I asked.
"This is a miracle. But you're right. She looks just like you. I mean this is not the first time that happened. A few women got pregnant from vampires. But I don't know that much about it since that barely happens. What do you want to do now Jasper? Will you accept the child as your own?"
"What? Of course. She's my daughter Carlisle. I always dreamed about it. Well ever since I fell in love with Bella I wanted to give her that. But I feel bad. She had to go though this alone. What if she didn't have money? What if…"
"She was alright I bet. Maybe she is sad you didn't call sooner but if you'll explain our situation she will understand. Go and look for her. An address or something. A number. Try to found out something. I will book a flight and tomorrow morning we'll leave. That gives the two crazy women enough time to decorate."
I went back to my computer and looked for anything about Bella. I found an interview with her talking about Anna. She loved dancing. I would teach her more. She would live like a princess from now on. Just like Bella would be my queen. They only had to ask and I'd gladly do anything. My family. I would marry Bella. She would never bee alone anymore.
Chapter 2
Jasper POV
I didn't find anything so I called my lawyer and he gave me an address. Now we were all sitting in a plane. Even Rosalie and Esme. They had worked the whole night. Painted and decorated. They were done 2 hours before the plane left.
I was still looking at the picture of Bella and Anna. I still couldn't believe it. I had a daughter. And soon I would hold her in my arms. And my mate. My love. My everything. She would be in my arms soon too. The plane landed and thank god it wasn't that sunny. We rented a car and drove to Bella's house. It lay in a security park. A lot of houses in a safe area. We had to announce ourselves and they asked us if we had been invited.
"I'm Dr. Carlisle Cullen. Bella called me this morning because something was wrong with Anna." Carlisle said.
"Please wait a minutes, sir." The officer said and grabbed his phone. He called someone. And than turned back to us.
"Miss Swan said you can drive to her house." The man said and handed us a "visitor" card that we had to keep in the car.
We found Bella's house and there she stood. She was dressed in a long black dress, her shoulders were free. Her hair was put together in a ponytail. And she cried. Even from far away I could see a tattoo on her right arm JW with a heart behind the initials. She had brand marked herself with my name.
On her arms she held Anna. She looked at us with big eyes. Dressed in a white summer dress and barefoot. And she wore a cowboy hat. She looked so cute.
As soon as the car stopped I jumped out of it and ran up to them "daddy" the little angle screamed and when I reached them she wrapped her arms around my neck. I held her close and looked at Bella.
"I knew you would be back Jasper. I missed you so much" Bella cried. She threw herself at me and I wrapped both of them into my arms. I kissed their heads.
Someone clearing his throats interrupted us and I looked behind me to see the whole family smiling. Anna looked up as well. "Grandma" she said and looked at Esme. "And grandpa and Uncle Emmett and Auntie Rosalie" she said totally excited. She wicked herself free form us and ran into Emmett's arms. I saw right than that they would get along quit well.
I turned my attention back to Bella and took her face into my arms. "I'm so sorry darlin. I didn't knew. I would've been here sooner. But I thought about you every day. We were travelling."
"Its ok. We'll talk later." She whispered and pressed her lips to mine. For so long I had dreamed of these lips and now feeling them again I wanted to burst. Nothing had every felt so good. Soon we were interrupted again. This time it was Anna. She giggled and whispered "they're kissing" into Emmett's ear and he giggled too. The whole family had smirked on her faces.
Bella looked at me and I told her what Anna had said. "Don't be so shocked missy. I know you gave Kingston a kiss!" Bella smiled. I was jealous. Anna was to young to be with a boy. He would only break her heart. But Anna's shocked face was priceless.
"How did you find out?" she said. "A mom always knows everything!" Bella answered and tickled her. Anna laughed and squirmed and I couldn't help but feel sad. So many years had past and I could have been a proud father. I didn't knew but I would get to know her.
But she recognised us. Us all. So Bella must have been talking about us. Maybe even showing pictures.
We went inside and Bella settled Emmett & Rosalie and Carlisle & Esme into their rooms. They wouldn't really need them for sleep but it was still nice. I would stay with Bella. She made some space for me in her closet and I hang up my clothes. When I came down Bella, Rosalie, Emmett and Anna were sitting by the pool. Emmett was teaching Anna how to swim.
They were sparkling and I wondered what Anna knew about us. "Bella" I called. She got up and walked over to me. She wore a white bikini and flip flops. She looked like a goddess to me. "Can we talk?" I asked her and she nodded. I held out my hand and she took it.
On our way into the kitchen we met Carlisle and Esme and told them were the others were.
"I have to explain where we were."
"OK. I'm all ears." She said and smiled at me. I wondered if she was mad.
"When I came back to the family I told them about us. Edward left with Alice, saying he was ok with this situation. We decided to go somewhere else. Like a vacation. We stayed with a few friend for a while, travelled to Italy and France and 2 weeks ago we came back. We stayed away from humans and I didn't know about you and Anna. Yesterday Emmett and I we went shopping for DVDs and we saw one from you. A man told us about you and when we got home again I goggled you. I found out abound Anna and well… we came down here. I called my lawyer … he gave me the address…. Bella I'm so sorry. If I had known I would have been here…I…" he placed her hand on mine and suddenly I felt too guilty. I dropped down to me knees and wrapped my arms around her waist burying my face into her stomach.
I felt her hands on my head as I whispered "I'm sorry" all over again. I felt Bella slip down to me.
"There is nothing to be sorry for. You did what you had to do Jasper. But you're back now. My daughter will have a father and I will maybe one day have a husband. I don't want to push you but I'm not willing to ever let you go. This little girl out there was all that kept me sane. Be a father Jasper. That's important now."
"You both are. I will be a father and soon a husband. I will ask you, properly." I kissed her lips gently. "Did you go through this alone?"
"Yes, Charlie threw me out after he saw the test I did. Renee was disappointed and send me 4000$ saying it was all she was gonna do. I moved down here got a flat and worked at a restaurant. A guy named Jack discovered me. I played small roles and than there was the big hit. A lonesome soldier. The movie. I guess you didn't see it but… it got me quit a lot money and since than I'm shooting 2 or 3 movies a year but now I decided to take it slow again. Because of Anna. I thought about ending this career. Before it gets out of hand. I don't know" she was babbling along. Nervous.
He held her close and we just sat in silence.
After a few minutes we went outside to the others. Esme and Carlisle had also but swimming clothes on. I wondered if Anna would be shocked by my appearance if I would come out shirtless. I decided to try. I excused myself and went to change.
When I came back Bella was playing with Anna while the other sat aside.
Bella and Anna joined us so Anna could drink something.
"Bella how much does she know about us?" Carlisle asked.
"I know that you are vampires. But I can never tell anybody. It would be bad. Mommy said that its our own little secret. I have to keep it safe so that you would never leave us." Anna said and looked at me. "Daddy?" she said.
"Yes angel?" she climbed onto my lap and traced one scar. "What happened to you?" she asked. "Some bad vampires bit me."
"Does it hurt?"
"No angel it doesn't hurt. And even if it would one look at you would make me forget all about it" she giggled and laid her head on my chest. Soon she hooped off of my lap and dragged me to the pool.
We played in the water and she tried to splash me but the water hit more of her than me.
Soon she was so exhausted that we went back inside. Rosalie and Esme dried and dressed Anna while the rest of us cooked diner.
Emmett went into Bella's living room and almost died because Bella's TV didn't work. He got to work and 2 minutes later Bella had a good working TV.
I walked up to him and saw a picture of Anna. She was holding a doll and smiling to something. But she didn't look into the camera. She had rosy cheeks and big blue eyes. She looked adorable. This day had been a blast and I wondered if it would become to much for her. When I felt two warm arms wrap around me I sighed.
"Is she ok with us being here?" I asked.
"Well… I always talked to her about you. I wanted her to know that she had a family. One that she could depend on us. At night we would pray for you to come back to us. I guess for her its just like she finally has a family. She is ok with this. We will have to have to learn to make her day as normal as usual. She can't always be so excited. I probably won't get her into bed tonight." She laughed lightly against my back and I smiled.
"I noticed that you have a guitar in your bedroom. May I use that?"
"Of course. Will you sing for her?"
"I would love that Bella." I turned around and kissed Bella gently. I still couldn't get enough. She was with me again. And I would never let her go again.
During diner Anna asked all the weird questions. She asked about us being vampires and the clichés. When she said that sparkling wasn't manly, Emmett pretend to pout and Anna got up and hooped on his lap giving him a kiss on the cheeks, making puppy-doe eyes, fluttered her eyelashes at him and stuck out he bottom lip. And that got him; he took her into a tight embrace and tickled her.
To me it felt like we were here for the last 3 years. When it was time for bed Anna protested saying she was already a big girl. Rosalie walked up to her and said: 2Thats right. And big girls need beauty sleep. You have to stay this pretty so that this Kingston boy will stay locked to your heels sweetie. Don't you want that?" she nodded her head and I muttered "I don't want that" and everyone laughed.
Bella and I brought Anna to bed. When Bella was done with brushing Anna's hair and teeth and Anna decided which pyjama she wanted to wear Bella tugged her in and I got the guitar.
I started to play a slow rhythm and started to sing.
Everything she sees, She says she wants
Everything she wants, I see she gets
That's my daughter in the water, Everything she owns I bought her
Everything she owns
That's my daughter in the water, Everything she knows I taught her
Everything she knows
Everything I say, She takes to heart
Every time she takes, She takes apart
That's my daughter in the water; Every time she fell I caught her
Every time she fell
That's my daughter in the water; I lost every time I fought her
Yeah I lost every time
Every time she blinks, She strikes somebody blind
Every time she thinks, Blows her tiny mind
That's my daughter in the water, Who'd've ever thought her
Who'd've ever thought
That's my daughter in the water; I lost every time I fought her
Yeah I lost everytime
By the end of the song Bella had tears in her eyes and Anna was smiling at me. We gave her a kiss and went into our bedroom.
"Thank you" Bella whispered.
"For what"
"For coming back"
"Bella I love you. I told you I would be back. We're a family now. We will stay together.2
"If this week will be good I'll end my career. We will move. If you want to. Jasper we can be a real family right?" she looked at me and I felt fear.
"We are a real family. I will always take care of both of you." I kissed her had and we lay down. Bella soon was asleep.
"Jasper" she whispered.
"Yes darlin?"
"I hope you don't mind but I gave Anna your last name and sometime we will have to go to court and make you accept her truly."
"So she's a Hale now?" I whispered.
"No a Whitlock" she whispered back. I was shocked. Anna had my true name. she was a Whitlock. Anna Whitlock. I smiled. My little angle had my name. how much better could this world be?
Somewhat during the night Anna came into the room and snuggled up to my right side. And we lay there as a family. And I couldn't wait for the next day to come.
That's it! For now. I put the first 2 chapters together. I already put pictures of Bella and Anna on my profile. So go and look them up.
I hope you all like this story. And I love reviews. The more I get the faster I'll work.
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Bayngirl03