I sat next to Kurt and our dog Max looking through files that the clinic had sent us the previous day. We were searching for egg donors to be the mother of our child.

'Kurt this one sounds good Blonde hair green eyes, non-smoker, no drugs she sounds like the perfect woman, I mean look at this picture' I said and shoved the picture under Kurt's tired eyes.

It had been two years since Blaine and Kurt decided to have a child together, which meant that it was coming up six years since Kurt had lost his memory in that horrible car crash.

'Yeah, she looks nice' Kurt agreed as he took the piece of paper from my hand and held it up to his nose, brushing it with the tip.

'Kurt baby are you OK, you look like you haven't slept in like five years' I said as I traced my thumb over the bags that Kurt forgot to conceal.

'Well I have been having nightmares for six years now Blaine. They won't go away' he said missilery. I remember the day those nightmares had started. It was the day after Kurt got his memories back, I had been snuggling close to Kurt in his old bedroom when he started to groan, then started to whisper things, then scream then flail around, hitting me in the jaw. They weren't all that bad but some were. The most severe ones occurred on the anniversary of the accident) as well as the day we proposed to each other)

I know these nightmares were frightening to Kurt but they were also frightening to me as well because I hated to see my husband like that.

'Baby, are you sure the doctor said they were nothing to worry about?'

'Yeah, he said that they would go away on their own' Kurt said and placed the sheet of paper down.

'But now is not the time to talk about my mental issues' he said brightly and looked me directly in the eye, my soul melted at once to flow along the same path of the perfect man sitting across from me.

'Well I wouldn't call them mental problems' I said while tickling Kurt under the arms 'but I agree we should keep on going with this' I gestured down at the many files sent over.

The phone rang shrilly after five minutes of silence.

'I'll get it' I said and stood up. I walked through into the kitchen and answered the phone.

'Hello?'

'Hey Blainey' Came the voice of my brother Cooper Anderson.

'Hey Coop, how are you and Missy?' I asked referring to his wife

'Good, good. Are we still on for the whole "bun in the oven" thing?' Cooper asked with concern. Last month Missy and Cooper said that it was alright to use Missy as the surrogate, but we thought it was too weird, but they insisted that they wanted to do it so we caved in.

'Yeah we are just going through egg donors; I think we have found the right one to be the mother of our child'

'Well could you please let us know when it is set in stone?'

'Yeah, of course Coop. Well I should go back to Kurt and the donors' I said sighing a little.

'Yeah little bro, the old ball and chain is calling is he?

Well I will hopefully hear from you in three days' and with that he hung up. I sighed and put the phone back onto its holder.

I walked back into the living room and sat down next to Kurt.

'How's Cooper?' he asked looking at me in the eye

'How did you know I spoke to Coop?'

'You get this look on your face when you talk to him, it is sort of a sext moping look' he said absently, turning back to the file I gave him.

'Yeah, well he is fine, so Is Missy but he does want us to get our act together and choose one so we can implant' I said and pulled out a random file.

'Blaine I really do like this one' Kurt said without listening to be before.

I looked over to see the same woman I chose

'Yeah I think she is nice' I said and looked over the file again.

'Blaine this is a big choice' Kurt said seriously

'I know baby' I said and stroked his arm soothingly 'but she is the best option for us' I said.

'Yeah, let's contact the clinic and say this is the one'.

A smile slowly stretched over my face.

'Are you serious?' I asked looking at my baby

'Of course I am' he said. A little squeal escaped from Kurt's lips when I placed my on top of them. We sat there for a few minutes before the doorbell rang through our little apartment. Max immediately bounded up to the door, barking his head off.

I sighed and walked over to the door, I grabbed Max by the collar and held him tight as I opened the door. In the doorway stood Finn, Rachel, Lucy and their new baby twins Harry and Molly.

'Oh hey you guys' I said, still struggling to keep a hold onto Max so he wouldn't attack Lucy with licks again. When Lucy turned five we got Max and when we introduced them he immediately licked her until she was soaking.

'Is this a bad time' Finn said with the little grin sliding off his face

'No, come in' I said and pulled Max away from the door to let the little family in.

'Oh hey you guys' Kurt squealed and ran over to embrace his niece

'Hey Uncle Kurt' Lucy squealed as well, kissing him on the cheek.

I walked into the living room, opened up the sliding doors that lead to a small balcony and shoved Max outside and closed the door in his face.

'So guys what brings you here?' I asked, clearing room for them to sit down on.

'Well you guys are the closest family that lives here' Rachel said as she unbuckled Harry and Molly from the stroller and pulled them onto her lap.

'Yeah we know that' Kurt said as he pulled Lucy onto his lap, even though she was seven, she still loved being treated like a baby from her uncle's.

'Well' Rachel began while looking at us 'I am pregnant, again' she said quietly.

'WHAT' Kurt screeched, making Lucy laugh her head off.

'I am pregnant' Rachel said again, smiling this time.

'Oh my god, congrats' I said and pulled Rachel into a hug, avoiding the two sleeping baby's in her lap.

After a few minutes of congratulations and questions the place fell silent again.

'Are you two still looking for donors?' Finn asked as he picked up a folder.

'Yeah but we found one just as you two came over' I said and picked up a folder to show them. They both leaned in to look at the picture.

'She is cute' Finn said without thinking.

'Finn' Rachel said angrily

'I-I mean as my brothers baby's mother' he said lamely. Lucy giggled at her father and snuggled closer into my Kurt.

I laughed at the expression on Rachel's face until she turned and looked at us

'Congratulations you two, you deserve this' she said and lightly punched Finn in the arm and he cleared his throat

'Yeah, congrats you guys' he said and held out his hand. I took it, shaking slightly uncomfortable at the gesture.

After a few more minutes of conversation Lucy gave a huge yawn which told her parents that it was time to leave.

'We will call you guys next week to see how things go' Rachel said after strapping the twins into their chair and kissing Kurt on the cheek.

'Yeah, I am so excited' Kurt squealed. I gripped my man around the waist and squeezed slightly to make him calm down a little bit.

'See you guys later' I said and basically pushed them out into the hall.

I turned back to my Kurt and pulled him into a kiss. After that we went to the phone and rang the clinic, saying we made our choice.

We made an appointment for the next week and I called Cooper back and told him. He was ecstatic and told me it was about time before hanging up.

I walked over to Kurt and sat down next to him.

'Baby, what's wrong?' I asked and stroked his angelic face with my palm.

'Blaine, we are going to be fathers' he sighed into my palm. I felt the moist breath hit me but I did not care.

'I know baby, haven't you wanted this since like forever?' I asked him, adding my other hand to the other side of his face.

'Yeah' he said and kissed my right hand

'Then what's wrong' I asked and brushed a single tear from his eye

'Do you want this?' he asked me again.

'Kurt you ask me this like fifteen times a day, I am positive that I want to have a child with you' I said and kissed him passionately.

I let Max in before going to bed with Kurt. When we got there I stripped off my clothes and put on my pyjamas.

Kurt went into the bathroom and did not emerge for half an hour during which I worried about tonight. Kurt said he was fine with the nightmares but I knew he wasn't, he was absolutely miserable. I found it a bit strange that he had not told me what the nightmares were about at all, but his father Burt Hummel told me not to push him. That advice was a couple years old now but I still followed it.

Kurt came back into the room, ready for bed. He climbed into the bed next to me and put his head on my shoulder. I placed my arms around him in silence and cuddled close to my husband. I loved these times it was just the two of us, nothing to distract me from Kurt who was silently going to sleep.

I still held onto Kurt as if my life depended on it and fell asleep.

I woke up at midnight to Kurt mumbling softly in his sleep. I gently pulled away from Kurt and watched him in the pale half-light of the moon shining through our curtains. I lay back down in bed and closed my eyes. That was when the thrashing started again. I quickly sat bolt-upright and tried to wake Kurt up.

After a few minutes Kurt finally woke up, gasping for breath as if he had been running a thousand miles during his sleep.

'Kurt honey-'

'Blaine it is nothing' he said and pulled me closer to me. I held him silently as gently patted him on the head until he fell back to sleep. I knew that he would not remember this when he woke up in the morning.