Chapter 3.

She could here voices around her, she was trying to fight off sleep. She was hurting all over, she couldn't remeber anything. She tried to focus on the voices.

The first one she recognized was Cyborg.

"Everything seems ok, but her body has gone through one hell of a shock"

"Do we know what happened?" it was Robin.

"Dude! I don't care what happened! I just want to know if she is going to be ok!" This was Beastboy voice, and it made her jump little to realize he was standing right next to her.

"Friend Raven?" it was Starfire.

She felt a rush of air as Starfire came to float next to her. She opened her eyes.

Beastboy and Star were the closist to her, Robin and Cyborg standing not to much further away.

"Friend Raven, are you ok?" She tried to nod, but even to move hurt. She winced. Beastboy pushed Starfire out of the way.

"Raven, what happened, how did this?" She thought for a minute, and then suddenly all the memories came rushing back to her. The machine managing her heart started going crazy. The more she remberd the more Rage was fighting to take over.

"Raven!" They all flooded around her.

"NO!" She screamed she sat up and tried to run. Beastboy turned into a tiger and pounced on her. She was to weak to fight him. She looked him in the eyes, and the worry she saw there just made it worse. She burst into sobs. Something that even took Beastboy by surprise. He quickly backed off.

Cyborg picked her back up and put her back on the examining table.

"Raven." He said gently. "What happened?" Raven wouldn't talk, she just sat on the table, covering her face with her hands. They all stood and watched her for a while, Raven never showed any sign of emotion at all, ever. After they all came out of there shock, Cyborg started to clear the room. Beastboy refused to move.

"Come one BB, I'll play you a game of killer tofu 2" He didn't even blink, just stared at the now silent Raven.

"No man, I'm staying here" Raven whipped her head around.

"No Beastboy, you have to leave, now, please" her look was so pleading that Beastboy couldn't turn her down. Part of Raven screamed for him to stay, but she squashed that part, she didn't think she could take seeing his face that not to long ago she had murdered.

He looked hurt, but his worry for Raven ruled over everything else, he started to walk towards the door with Cyborg, but stopped at the door. "Call me if you need me Rae" She turned her head away from him, he winced, but then followed Cyborg out the door.

Over the next few days Raven mostly slept, but her sleep was always fitful and short.

Beastboy spent most of the time she was asleep next to her. When she woke, he left at her request.

On the forth day of her recovery, she called all the Titans in to the livening room.

She stood in front of the TV, Beastboy sat on the couch in front of her, Cyborg next to him, Starfire and Robin were standing behind the couch watching her worriedly.

"I have asked you all to come here because I think I am ready to tell you all what happened"

And with that she jumped into her story. When she got to the part about Beastboy, she shifted her eyes to the ground. But even then she could feel him flinch, and it made her flinch.

After she told her story, there was a long quiet akward pause. She shifted uncomfortably. Starfire was the first to act.

She flew over to Raven and embraced her.

"Oh friend Raven, we would never kick you out of the tower!" "You are our friend!" Beastboy was the next to talk.

"Rae, it was just a nightmare, and it was from Slade, none of that is probley true"

Raven stiffened. "But how did he make my powers stop like that?!" "And how did he know what I was dreaming?"

"Raven" Said Robin. "You didn't even remeber what you were dreaming till Slade "reminded" you"

She looked at the floor, she wished she could believe them. But there was something wrong, she felt it.

Beastboy stood up and walked over to her.

"Rae, we would never ditch you like that, no matter how cranky you got" She looked at him, he violet eyes filled with sorrow.

"But that's what I'm afraid of" without saying anything else she flew to her room and left all the Titans staring at the place were she was standing.

Raven closed her door. She stood there looking around her room, it still had a Slade feeling about it, and she hated it.

She went over to her bed. She thought that maybe if she meditated it would take her mind off things.

"Azerath, Metrion, Zinthos. Azerath, Metrion-" A image of a dead Beastboy flashed through her mind. She fell a few feet from were she was levitating. She stared at the floor angrily. She growled. She tried again, but again, she saw a image of Beastboy trying to put up his hands in some form of defense. and she fell again. She felt Rage trying to brake though. She scrunched her eyes shut.

"No, your not winning. Your NOT!" she tried again, but the last cry of Beastboy ripped through her mind, and she fell once again. She screamed and Rage got to her. She started tarring pictures off her walls, ripping up book, tearing her bed to shreds, breaking hr windows. She didn't even realize what she was doing, and by then, she was to far gone to care.

The Titans heard from the livening room were they were talking about what to do.

They rushed in to find shreds of papers, cloth, and feathers from pillows and broken glass flying every were. Raven was standing with her back turned to them.

"Friend Raven?" said Starfire starting to walk towards her. Raven turned, and all the Titans jumped back.

Four red slits we in place of were Ravens violet eyes used to be.

"Raven!" Cried Beastboy. he pushed everyone else aside.

"Raven looked confused for a minute, and then her normal eyes reappeared, she fell to the ground. Beastboy rushed over to her.

"Raven, let me help you" Raven looked up with a look or horror, the familiar words ringing through her head.

"NO! "Get out! All of you! get out now!" she stood up and pushed them out of the room. They tried fighting them, but they were into much shock to do anything. she closed her door and put a lock back on it. After that she fell to the floor beating her fist against it till there were to fist shaped dents in the floor.