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TJ: I got this idea from that one Staind song 'It's Been A while.' READ AND REVIEW DAGNABIT!
"Talking"
'Thinking'
Flashbacks
(Lyrics)
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Kagome couldn't breath. Three years... No word. He just left. And now... He was on stage, singing... Right before her very eyes.
(And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I first saw you
And it's been awhile
Since I could stand on my own two feet again
And it's been awhile
Since I could call you)
Standing there, shocked... Kagome began to cry.
"Kagome, what's wrong?" Her best friend, Sango asked.
"I.. It's. Oh God." Kagome passed out, right into Sango's arms.
Miroku looked at Sango and pointed to the black clad figure on stage.
(And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've stretched myself beyond my means
And it's been awhile
Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
And it's been awhile
Since I can say I love myself as well
And it's been awhile
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been awhile
But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you)
"That stupid son of a bitch!" Sango yelled, fighting to keep her anger under control.
"Exactly." Miroku mumbled, putting a cold wash cloth on Kag's face. Five seconds later, Kagome came to.
"Was it a dream? He can't be here after all that time..." Kagome said, still shocked.
(And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem
The consequences that I've rendered
I've gone and fucked things up again
Why must I feel this way?
Just make this go away
Just one more peaceful day!)
Kagome looked back at the stage. Standing there, the guy that left her heartbroken. Long silver hair, beautiful amber eyes. He looked the same... After all those years. Black wife beater, loose baggy black jeans... He was still gorgeous.
"THAT ASSHOLE!" Kagome screamed, earning looks from everyone in the audience.
Inuyasha looked directly at her, golden eyes shining. He looked so sad, but she didn't care. After all. HE left HER. Not the other way around.
(And it's been awhile
Since I could look at myself straight
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry
And it's been awhile
Since I've seen the way the candle lights your face
And it's been awhile
But I can still remember just the way you taste
And everything I can't remember
As fucked up as it all may seem to be I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
He did the best he could for me)
Kagome could barley contain the tears that threatened to fall again. 'Why?' She asked herself over and over again.
"Kagome-chan, let's just leave." Sango pleaded with her.
"NO! I mean, I got all dressed up to go out, and it's been the first time I've been out in months. Let's stay." Kagome decided.
"Are you going to tell him?" Miroku asked.
"No."
(And it's been awhile
Since I could hold my head up high
And it's been awhile
Since I said I'm sorry)
After the song ended, Inuyasha jumped off stage and headed towards Kagome. He looked over her body. She had grown in the three years he'd been away. She was wearing a short, V-neck dress, and black pumps. Her mid-length black hair lightly curled, only makeup on her was her lip gloss and smoky eye makeup. Her body was now completely full. Nice ass, Nice chest... A total hottie.
"What. Do. You. Want?" She growled at him.
"A second chance." Inuyasha said sincerely, looking into her eyes.
"Too late."
"You gotta understand Kagome, I had to leave!"
"And not call, write or visit for three God damned years! I still don't know why you 'had' to leave." Kagome shouted in Inuyasha's face.
"You can't barge in my life after three years and expect me to be the same sixteen year old girl you knew when you left." Kagome spat at him, before stomping out of the small club.
Inuyasha sunk to his knees, and held his head in his hands.
"You hurt her so fucking bad Inuyasha. You deserve everything you get." Sango said, before following her friend.
"I messed up. Bad."
"Yea... Inuyasha, Kagome wasn't gonna tell you... But as your best friend, I think you should know... You have a daughter together. She's three. Her name's Sky." Miroku said.
Inuyasha looked at Miroku.
"You've got to be shitting me! How is it my kid!" Inuyasha yelled.
"Well, my guess is... YOU SCREWED KAGOME." Miroku said slowly, as if Inuyasha was the dumbest person alive.
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Kagome sat in her apartment with Sango.
"I can't believe him. Three fucking years. I had to build a life for myself. Alone. With Sky. How could he think that I'd..." Kagome sobbed.
"Kagome, men are dogs. The only reason why I keep Miroku around, is cause he's good in bed!"
"Don't lie. You love him. You've been with him since we were fourteen." Kagome sniffed.
"Mummy! Mummy!" A black haired child yelled happily.
"Yes baby-cakes?" Kagome asked as Ayumi and Sky ran through the door.
"Grandma got me ice creem!" Sky said, although Kagome and Sango could barley understand the three year olds words.
"What flavor, angel?" Kagome cooed.
"Chocolate!"
Just then, they all heard a frantic pounding at the door.
Kagome rushed to the door. There stood Miroku with a passed out Inuyasha.
"What the fuck is he doing here!" Ayumi yelled.
"Good question." Kagome scowled at Miroku.
"Just let me in!"
"Why!" Ayumi shouted.
"Please?" Miroku begged.
"Fine. Sit the dick head on the couch." Kagome said, moving out of their way.
"Im gonna go lay Sky down." Kagome said quietly.
Five minutes later, Kagome returned to the living room. Inuyasha was sprawled across the couch, Ayumi sitting on a chair in the corner, and Miroku and Sango were sharing a love seat.
"What now?" Kagome wondered aloud.
"Well, you can't just shut him out of his child's life..." Miroku stated.
"Well he shut me out of his!" Kagome whispered harshly.
"Am I supposed to pretend that the last three years didn't happen! Am I supposed to forget the three years I've spent crying over his ass?" Kagome asked, scowling at Miroku.
"No! He doesn't have to be your guy Kags. He need's to be here for his fucking child."
"He should have been here from the beginning." Ayumi said.
"Miroku, you have a point... But so do they. He left, without a word to any of us. And now he's back. What was he doing for three damn years? Was he so busy, that he couldn't even take five minutes out of the day to let us know he was alright!" Sango said angrily.
Miroku kept quiet. He knew everything. But being Inuyasha's best friend... He kept his mouth shut. Even if it did hurt everyone. He could still remember that cold October day, when Inuyasha told him...
'Miroku... I have to leave...' Inuyasha said, pacing around his living room floor.
'Why? How long?' Miroku inquired.
'I have a bad problem. Kag knows only to some extent. I need to go to a rehabilitation place. You all know I have this drug thing going on... It's out of control. I can't start my band, and be good for Kagome if I have this addiction... Im only seventeen years old... I can't let Kag down.'
'So... Why are you telling me all of this?'
'Because... You're my best friend. The only people that know are you and Sess. I don't want Kagome to worry. Promise me. Promise that know one else will find out.'
'But Inuyasha, Kagome will---'
'PROMISE ME DAMMIT! I have to do this. For me.'
'Okay Inuyasha. I promise I won't say anything... But if she's angry with you, and hates you because of this. Don't blame me.'
"It's late. Kag, can he crash here?" Miroku asked.
"Fine." Kagome grumbled, as she walked down the hall. Finding extra sheets in the linen closet, Kagome covered Inuyasha up.
"I'll see you guys tomorrow." Kagome said, slamming the door behind them.
Kagome walked to her bathroom, closing the door behind her. Thinking a shower would be good, she stripped down and turned the hot shower on. Immediately, she started to cry.
Singing a song she knew by heart, Kagome sat on the shower floor.
"I don't care anymore if I let you down
I believe that I need to be free
I'm so used to my life with you around
I don't know anymore the real me."
Totally unaware of the now awake hanyou that listened to her singing.
"And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you"
Kagome stood up again, Washing her hair. She looked blankly at the wall ahead of her. The song she was singing... She had listened to it for months straight... After he left.
Sixteen, pregnant, alone... The things that she feared the most. Were her reality. She was lucky though... She had her mother and friends to help her.
"All these tears that I've cried you must be tired of
Taking care of me but
It's what you do best and I'm a liar cuz
Release what I need
Someone like you
Someone like me
Maybe it's change
That sets you free
Free..."
Inuyasha wiped the tears from his eyes. Closing the bathroom door quietly, he retreated to the couch.
'Why did I throw it all away? To better myself... How could I be any better? No nasty drug habit...'
Inuyasha heard Kagome step out of the bathroom. She sat at the edge of the couch, looking at his 'sleeping' form.
"I love you... Stupid fucking no good hanyou." Kagome said, running her hand threw his hair. She gasped when he grabbed her writs.
"I love you too..." He whispered.
"Don't. Yasha, please don't." Kagome sighed. Inuyasha looked at her, hair put up in a towel, her body wrapped in a robe... She was an angel.
"What color are her eyes?" He asked.
"Who's eyes? Oh... Her eyes are amber... Just like her daddy's... She has my hair color... No little puppy ears... But other than that... She looks like her daddy." Kagome said, staring at her hands.
"Im sorry... God Im so fucking sorry." Inuyasha whispered.
"Sorry doesn't help."
"How did you guys make a living?" He asked.
"Well... With the help of my mother, I finished high school... Im taking college night classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and my mother helped me open up 'Sky's Place'"
"What's 'Sky's Place'?"
"A children's store. Cloths, toys, stuff of that nature."
"Are you happy now... Without me?"
"No. But Im not happy with you here... You never even let me know that you were alive... God, I thought countless times of all the horrible things that could have happened..." Kagome said.
Inuyasha sat up. "Im sorry. I'll tell you why I left... But not until we figure things out. Baby, I love you. I want you. I need you. And I missed you... How do I get my girl back?" Inuyasha asked, holding her hands in his own.
"Im not sure you do..."
TJ: I was gunna make it longer... Ehh. Anywho. The song's in this chapter were 'It's Been A While' By Staind and 'Finding Myself' By Smile Empty Soul.
