Author's note: Hey guys, it's me again. Yes, I am still alive and still active. I have to apologize for the radio silence but I have been working on something for the past few weeks (it's still not done, shame on me) and I desperately want to share it with you, but I will only do that when it is completely ready. I promise to keep working on Mundane as well. I'll get back to that as soon as my other project is done. This right here, is just another side project that I wanted to do for a while now. I'll be posting drabbles and one-shots of Bonkai in this story, so please check it out every now and then. I hope you'll like what I have come up with. All the love for you guys. See you around.

Beware, English is not my first language.

Chapter One

It wasn't like she didn't want to see him but it seemed like the odds were really not in her favor when she ran into him again today. For the past three weeks she had constantly met him on the street or at the grocery store. It seemed like he was everywhere.

Their breakup had been civil, in comparison to their relationship at least. Kai Parker and Bonnie Bennett had been two souls with fire and strong views which sometimes didn't get along too well. They used to discuss nonstop, about topics concerning politics, religion or even how to pronounce potato. But they loved each other, like crazy. Bonnie would have never wanted to be with anyone else but him. She'd rather fight all day long with him then be bored with someone else. And if she were honest, she liked their little banters.

Their relationship wasn't all bad either. They had wonderful days, romantic and sweet. They cared deeply for the other and Bonnie thought that she had found the person she wanted to grow old with. What broke them up in the end was their contradicting views on the topic of 'children'. Kai was strictly against having kids and even though they were both young, Kai's determination hurt Bonnie. They started fighting more often about the topic until one day, they agreed that they should take a break. They never gotten back together after that.

That was about 2 years ago. She hadn't seen him once in those two years and in the past three weeks she had seen him thrice. The first time she met him was at the drug store. Bonnie had hugged him with a smile on her face. There wasn't any bad blood between them, so she was genuinely happy to see him. They only chatted shortly because Bonnie was in a rush but it had been a nice thing seeing him.

The second time she ran into him on the streets. She was strolling around, running some errands and he just popped up out of nowhere. They spent like half an hour talking about this and that, not even realizing how much time had passed. It was like they fell right back into their old behavior. Kai had been her partner and best friend, there was never a moment where they wouldn't know what to say to each other. Maybe that had been their downfall. In the end, Kai had to say goodbye because he had a business meeting soon and needed to prepare for it. When he told her goodbye, he pecked her cheek and smiled. There was this tiny squeeze in her stomach, she was vaguely familiar with but she ignored it and move on.

So today marked the third encounter. She had been standing at the baking aisle in the supermarket, trying to decide which cake mix she would use for her grams birthday, when she felt someone standing behind her and whispering in her ear.

"Three time's a charm.", Kai said, scaring her in the process. He stepped around while Bonnie held her hand to her chest.

"Jesus, do you want to kill me?", Bonnie let out breathlessly. Kai only chuckled. He had always enjoyed fooling with her.

"Hello to you too."

Bonnie couldn't help but smile when she saw him. He looked good, she hadn't dared to acknowledge that before. His usual light stubble was a little thicker now. He wore a fashionable suit, a sight that she had always enjoyed even though she only rarely got to see it. He was now leaning against the aisle watching her closely.

"Sure you wanna get into baking? I remember you once burned down the house while trying to make pancakes.", Kai teased as he watched her.

"That was only once.", Bonnie mock-glared at him, "And it is for my grams, so yes I am sure."

"Oh boy, maybe you should change your plan and buy a cake instead? Sheila won't mind, I'm sure."

Kai and her grandmother had always gotten along great. It may have hit her harder than Bonnie when they broke up two years ago.

"I'm doing this, Parker and there is nothing you can do to stop me.", Bonnie said and reached for the chocolate mix. Her hand didn't meet the box thought because Kai had grabbed it with his own.

"Not even with a coffee invitation?", Kai asked while looking down at their entwined hands. He then looked up and locked gazes with her. His grey-blue eyes were boring into hers and he looked so determined. Bonnie felt her knees wobble and her heartbeat rise. The bastard had done it again. Kai had always had this effect on her, that she seemed like she couldn't escape him. He was drawing her into is web once more and before she could fight it, she asked "When?"

Kai grinned his trademark grin that was to die for, and stepped a little closer to her. "How about tomorrow afternoon. Know this little coffeeshop around the corner. They serve the best bagels." Kai's voice was seductive, if intentionally or if he was just as affected by this meeting, Bonnie didn't know.

They agreed on meeting there the next day and Kai gave her another peck on the cheek before leaving her alone. Bonnie stood there like a fool for a few more minutes, trying to regain control of her brain. When she finally did she paid for her stuff, leaving the cake mix where it was, and headed home.

She was now leaning her head on the kitchen island, trying to figure out what she had just done. She had agreed to meet her ex-boyfriend. The one man she would always be hung up on. Why oh, why had she done that?

Some people might think there was nothing wrong with that. They had parted in a good way and they hadn't broken up because they didn't love each other anymore. They were more mature now and maybe that would mean that they had another shot. Unless they didn't.

Bonnie had broken up with her kind-of boyfriend Enzo a while ago. Enzo had assured her he wanted the commitment, but Bonnie needed her space. She needed to focus on herself right now. After the shocking news she had just received she had no time, and no energy, to invest in a new relationship. Besides, it wouldn't be fair to Enzo to involve him in her problems. He would only end up losing her anyways, so why not do it now.

Because Bonnie Bennett was sick. She had gotten the diagnosis a few month ago. Kidney failure, both of them. She was on the transplant list and her chances to actually get one weren't even that bad. But the surgery itself and the tendency of her body to reject foreign organisms made the whole thing risky. Her disease had been discovered pretty late, which only added to the complications. The chances that Bonnie would be around to actually celebrate her grams next birthday weren't that great. And that was the reason she shut everyone out that wasn't essential. She had her dad and her grams, Elena, Caroline and Matt. With some of her old colleagues she kept in touch every now and then but she didn't mind if they didn't write. She had the most important people with her and that was enough.

But now she agreed on letting one particular person back into her life. A person that once meant the world to her. It was risky because she knew that Kai had the ability to become one of the essential people in her life again without even trying. If she wasn't careful she would end up being his girlfriend again within a week. But how could she do that to him? Him? She wasn't even willing to let Enzo feel the pain that would eventually come with her demise, how could she want this for him then?

Despite all her worries, she still ended up on that coffee date. She wanted to cancel but she realized she didn't have a way to contact him and she didn't want to be rude. She would go to the coffee shop, tell him somethings came up and leave right away, at least that was the plan.

When she entered the small place though, she spotted him sitting at a table with two cups of coffee in front of him. He sensed her the minute she entered and waved at her with a breathtaking smile.

"Hello there." He got up while she came closer and kissed her on the cheek, making her redden. "Vanilla Cappuccino with two sugar and a shot of extra cream.", he said and pointed at the cup opposite him.

"You remembered?", Bonnie asked in awe.

"Of course. Do you know how many times you yelled at me for fucking up the order?" Kai chuckled as he sat down again. Bonnie hesitated shortly but went to sit down in front of him.

"Thank you.", Bonnie simply said and knew that with her sitting down, she had sealed her fate.

They talked forever. They laughed, debated like in the good old days, and she felt every single beat of her heart. His company was so pleasant that she didn't want to leave ever again. By the time evening came around, they had exchanged numbers and had set up another meeting in two days. This time, he was taking her out to dinner.

Dinner was a bad idea on so many levels. Bonnie had lost a lot of weight due to anorexia. The disease had done that to her. Being in a restaurant with him and pretending to eat as much as she would need to, so he wouldn't get suspicious. would be torture, if even possible. Not for the first time, she cursed Kai Parker for existing and for making her limp.

She dressed up for the date anyways. She decided for a classic black dress and just a touch of makeup. He had always said that he liked her better without it and for some stupid reason, even though she would never get back with him, she wanted to please him.

And she did. Kai's smile when he picked her up at home was prove enough. They went to the restaurant and ordered something to drink, even though Bonnie didn't order any alcohol. It was the middle of the week and Bonnie said she had important meetings tomorrow, so she couldn't drink. It was only half a lie. She stopped working due to her sickness a few weeks ago. But she did have a meeting with her doctor tomorrow.

Kai accepted that, and she was glad that she averted this obstacle. But when the food came around and Bonnie only ate a few slices, Kai got suspicious.

"Where is the very hungry caterpillar that I remember? You haven't even toughed your food properly. You alright?", Kai asked with honest concern.

Shit, he knew. "Yeah, I'm good. I'm just not that hungry.", Bonnie lied.

"No kidding.", Kai said sarcastically and let his fork drop in the plate. He sighed heavily. "Bonnie, I don't know how long we are going to pretend that I don't notice that something's off with you. I can see you lost weight. You don't drink, you don't eat. What's going on with you?"

Bonnie swallowed. She couldn't tell him the truth. She didn't want him to know. "Nothing. I'm fine.", she said and looked at her plate instead of him.

"Bonnie." Kai's tone was demanding and made her look at him. His expression was hard but his eyes were soft and caring. "Be honest with me. What's wrong with you?"

Bonnie's eyes started to water and she quickly looked away. She had never liked it when he saw her cry. "I'm sick.", Bonnie whispered. "I need a kidney transplant or I won't live to see another year. But the transplant isn't a guarantee that I'll get better. There are risks and I could still die."

There was silence, a kind of silence she had only ever experienced once and that was the day they had broken up. Bonnie didn't dare look at Kai because she didn't want to see the expression on his face. He would be shocked, afraid even and she would be the one telling him it was alright. She couldn't do that, not again. Not with him.

To her surprise Kai got up from his chair and went over to her. He didn't lean down, only extended his hand for her to grab. Bonnie finally looked up at him and saw a warm expression on his face, not what she expected. It irritated her.

Kai's hand remained outstretched. "Come on.", he urged her.

"Where are you taking me?", Bonnie asked still with tears in her eyes.

"Away from here, now let's go."

Bonnie hesitated for another few seconds but then let her hand slide into his and let him lead her outside. He took her to his car and they drove in silence. He didn't give her a clue to where they were headed and she only realized what their destination was when they were already there.

Bonnie turned and looked at Kai in surprise. He only grinned at her and got out of the car. Dumbstruck, Bonnie followed him like a lost puppy. He had taken her to the place they first met. It was a playground for six to ten years old. One day, she, Elena and Caroline had a girl's night out and got pretty drunk. In their foggy minds they had the great idea to have some fun on the playground but they weren't the only ones with that idea. A group of four boys were already there, drinking on the bench.

Bonnie wanted to turn around but Caroline was too exited already and headed straight in their direction. Elena and Caroline instantly fell into conversation with the guys and Bonnie felt uncomfortable. Until she noticed one guy, sitting next to the two guys who were busy flirting with Elena and Caroline.

Usually, all guys attentions were on Caroline and Elena when they were out. Bonnie didn't like the attention and frankly didn't need it. But something about that mysterious dark-haired boy with those steel-eyes made her skin tingle. He only looked at her and smiled. That was the first time Kai Parker's smile had affected Bonnie. When the others kept on drinking and decided to go clubbing together, none of them noticed Bonnie and Kai falling behind and talking. She instantly liked him and he seemed to like her back.

Contrary to her usual behavior she agreed to give him her number and they met a few days later at the exact same spot. This time neither of them was drunk on alcohol but just endorphins. They never left the playground that night and spent hours talking and behaving like little kids on the swings and slights.

Since that night, she hadn't returned to this place. It was like entering a time machine when she set foot on it. Everything seemed to be exactly the same as that night. That might not be good for all the kids in the area but for her it was like heaven. Kai had already gone for the swings and gestured to her to join him. It didn't take him much convincing and they were fooling around on the playground once more.

Bonnie laughed like she hadn't laughed in months. She was so carefree that she forgot, for just one moment, all of her problems. Kai chased her across the place and she could only escape him by giving up. She surrendered at the jungle gym. Kai stopped too and caught his breath. They were both smiling at each other before Bonnie returned to reality.

"Why are you doing this?", she asked in a more serious tone.

"Doing what?", he wanted to know.

"This." Bonnie gestured around the place. "I just told you that I am most likely going to die and your first move is to take me to the place we had our first date and fool around with me like nothing matters."

Kai's expression turned more serious now but his eyes held nothing but care. "Well, you aren't dead just yet, are you?"

That was when he leaned forward and placed his lips on hers. She hadn't seen it coming so she was surprised when it happened. For a few seconds she did nothing and that was her mistake. Because by now Kai was starting to deepen the kiss and there was no way for her to stop him now. Bonnie let him open her mouth easily until she finally kissed him back. Kai moved closer to her and Bonnie wrapped an arm around his neck. It was like riding a bike, the way they fell back into old habits. Kai remembered perfectly how to get her on her toes and how to kiss her properly. That was why she was now holding on to him for dear life, her hand wandering from his neck to his chest. She felt his arms around her waist and back, pulling her flush against his body.

There was no way of telling for her how long they had kept up this kiss because her brain was turned off. But something made it turn back on as she realized what she was doing. No, this could not be happening. In that moment, Bonnie pulled away and at the same time pushed Kai's body away from hers.

"No, I …I can't do this.", Bonnie said in a hasty way.

"Bon-", Kai groaned and tried to pull her back into his embrace but Bonnie pushed against his chest.

"No.", she said and took some steps to separate herself from him. She needed the space to think clearly.

She heard him sigh before he turned around to face her. Her back was turned to him and she didn't want to look at him right now.

"You're right this was rushed, maybe we should talk about this before-", Kai started but got interrupted by her.

"There is no need to talk, Kai. Take me home now, please.", she said with finality. She felt that it wasn't enough for him and that he was about to say something else, talk back at her like he always did, but Bonnie didn't give him a chance. "Now!", she yelled without facing him.

Another sigh reached her ears and Kai was rushing past her, without a second glance, towards the car. Slowly, with her arms wrapped around herself, she followed him and got into the car. Just like on the way they got here, they spent the ride in silence. But this time it felt way more uncomfortable.

What had she thought when she agreed to this date? There had been no chance that this wouldn't have turned into something bad. There was no way she wouldn't have mentioned her disease and no way that she wouldn't have ended up in his arms. She had sworn to herself to stay solo, for her sake and every potential partner's sake. For his sake.

When they reached her house, Bonnie was already trying to find the right words to send him off as soft as possible but her thoughts were interrupted by him speaking.

"I know what you're doing, Bon." It was a statement and if felt like he expected her to understand it, which she didn't. She finally faced him again. His eyes were stuck on the steering wheel, his gaze focusing on something far away. When she didn't react to his statement he turned his head and looked at her.

"I won't let you do this, I won't. You're not getting rid of me that easy, Bennett." He leaned over and kissed her cheek. "Good night, Bon. I had a nice time."

Bonnie blinked a few times, taken aback by the way Kai had reacted to her. If she were honest to herself she would admit that she was touched by it, by the fact that he wouldn't just give up. But she wanted him to give up. She couldn't have him and he wouldn't understand. She had a feeling that this would cost her some more nerves that she really didn't have.

"Goodnight, Kai.", Bonnie simply said and climbed out of his car. She went straight to the door, opened it and closed it behind her instantly. She could hear his car driving away and she closed her eyes because the longing and the hurt she felt for this guy were too present in that moment.

The next day she went to see the doctor. He told her that her condition was worse than he had hoped and that he would do anything in his power to move her up the transplant list. Bonnie was more than down when she got back home. She was trying to figure out how to break the bad news to her family and friends as she walked up to her door.

She abruptly stopped as she realized that Kai was sitting on her doorstep, waiting for her. He smiled brightly at her as he saw her approach.

"Hey there.", he greeted her like nothing ever happened.

"Hi?", Bonnie said hesitantly as she stepped closer to the door and Kai got up so she could open the it. "What are you doing here?"

"Well, I was in the area and I thought I could come by and see how you were doing."

Bonnie unlocked the door and went inside, leaving the it behind her open for him to follow her. She knew she should just lock him out, tell him to get lost or something, but she couldn't be that rude. He had done nothing wrong last night. She didn't even want him gone but his presence would only make everything harder for her.

"Why?", Bonnie asked not really buying it.

"Why not?", Kai retorted with a grin.

Bonnie had gone to the kitchen and Kai had followed, sitting down on a stool at the kitchen island.

"Nice place you got here.", Kai stated.

"Thanks.", Bonnie simply said, raising an eyebrow at him. Where the hell was he going with this?

"Listen, I was thinking.", Kai started. "I get that last night might not have gone the way that you wanted it to go. And I get that you don't want to be involved with me once again. But I am here, because I want to tell you that I am still going to be there for you. As a friend. I want to be your friend, Bonnie, and I hope that you will at least accept that."

His puppy-eyes were stuck on her and he looked adorable as she tried to hold on to any kind of connection with her. Bonnie wondered why he did it because it would only be stressful for both of them. But she couldn't deny the need to have him in her life as well. Over this short amount of time, Kai had stormed right back into her heart, making it impossible for her to live without him again. He was offering her friendship, maybe she could accept that. It would be hard, but not impossible.

"Okay, friends it is.", Bonnie finally agreed and had to fight a grin forming on her face when his expression started to brighten up like he was a five-year-old boy on Christmas morning.

Since that day, Kai and Bonnie spent almost every day together. As friends, that was, but still. He would come around and bring her something to eat. She would call him when she needed some maintenance done in the house or they would meet up and go on a walk. No matter how busy he was, he would always manage to come check how she was doing.

During all these visits, there had been multiple times where she wanted to kiss him. A few times, it almost happened, for example when they were cuddling on the sofa while watching 'Dead Poets Club' together. Over the time, it got increasingly harder to escape him. It seemed inevitable.

But Bonnie managed to have the upper hand and always pulled away before anything could happen. She had to constantly remind herself that she didn't want to drag Kai into all her problems and that he deserved better, but if she was honest to herself, she had already dragged him in.

One day when Kai was making Lasagna for her, they ended up having a flour-fight in the kitchen. Bonnie had thrown some flour in his face because she was mocking him for looking so professional in the kitchen. He had thrown flour back at her, telling her she was only jealous. That was when the fight had started. Kai chased her around the room and in the end, caged her in between the kitchen counter and his body.

They were only inches apart and both breathing heavily. Bonnie's gaze wandered to Kai's lips. She only had to lean in and she would feel his lips on hers. She nearly gave into the urge but quickly leaned back to put some space between them.

"I know what you're doing.", Kai had said.

"What do you mean?", Bonnie innocently said.

"You're trying to push me away but that is not working, Bonster. You're not the only one in this relationship, you know."

"This is not a relationship.", Bonnie stated, not feeling uncomfortable at all in his embrace.

"Sure it is. You just have to stop fighting so damn hard."

Bonnie sighed and looked to the floor. "Kai, you know why I can't." She managed to get out of his hold and walked away from him, facing her back to him.

"That means that you want to.", Kai figured behind her back, making her shake her head.

"That is not the point.", Bonnie said, her voice raised.

"Then tell me what is.", Kai answered in equal volume.

Bonnie turned around in a swift move and looked at him. "Look at me, Kai. I'm only a shell of myself. I am sick, I am dying. There is a 70% chance that I might not be here this time next year. What kind of future do we have when I am going to be feeling like shit in a few weeks and then be gone?", Bonnie yelled with tears in her eyes.

"A future that has a 30% chance that you will still be here this time next year.", was Kai's answer that made Bonnie speechless. Unlike her, Kai still had hope that everything would turn out for the best. He really expected to have a future with her but Bonnie knew better. She was starting to feel worse and the doctor said that it would only get worse. The possible surgery would still be risky, not giving her any hope that in the end she would be better.

Bonnie turned away from him because she felt tears in her eyes. But she also felt Kai approach her. He made her turn back to him as he enveloped her in his arms. Bonnie buried her face in his chest as he held her close and soothed her.

"It's not fair of me. I can't drag you into this.", Bonnie mumbled against his chest.

"Bonnie, I already am. There is no need to protect me, I can handle this."

"No, you can't. You can't." Now Bonnie was sobbing, letting out all of the emotions she had boxed away for weeks now. Kai had to pick her up and place her on the couch, still holding her in his arms. After what felt like an eternity, Bonnie stopped crying. She felt exhausted from her outburst and couldn't even keep her eyes open. Kai asked her if he should carry her to her bedroom and she only nodded. He tucked her in and sat next to her until she fell asleep. When she awoke, Kai was gone. What she hadn't noticed was that he sat next to her for hours longer before he finally left.

In the following days and weeks, Bonnie felt worse and worse. She had days when she couldn't leave the house. Her family was taking care of her to their best abilities and Elena and Caroline came by as often as they could. But Kai was the one that was by her side the most. They would mostly watch movies together or he would try to get her to eat something. His presence alone was helping her forget her pain.

She had stopped trying to stay physically apart from him, at least when hugs and cuddling was concerned. She would snuggle close to him because she needed the body heat to stay warm and because she needed to be close to him, the latter being the driving force.

Kai never tried anything else, he just lent her his shoulder to lean on and watched the movie in silence. He would always leave by the end of the movie but once.

While Bonnie was constantly falling asleep during their movie-nights, Kai had a very stressful day at work one day. He even came to her house in his work-suit which never happened before. But it seemed like he was completely worn out but he insisted that they had their usual routine, even though Bonnie tried to tell him to go home.

That night, Kai had fallen asleep right next to her. Neither of them had noticed that the film was over and only woke up at six in the morning. Kai stayed as long to make her breakfast and then left for work. Bonnie had to admit that it had been nice having him around in the morning but she couldn't let this become a usual.

Their whole dynamic was shaken up on the day Bonnie got a phone call from her doctor in the late evening, telling her that they had a matching kidney for her. The surgery would take place in two days and she should get ready. Bonnie had decided to do the surgery no matter what. If the surgery would be the thing killing her or the disease, it didn't really make a difference. In the morning, she called all the important people in her life and told them she would be operated on the next day. Her father and grams were devastated because they wouldn't be able to make it that fast to Seattle but Bonnie assured them it was alright. Elena and Caroline were willing to leave their work early and spend the rest of the day with her but Bonnie didn't want that. She needed to be alone that night. She agreed to meet them that afternoon in their favorite café. It was hard getting away from them, but they both let her have her will. She hugged both of them goodbye and went back home.

She had only texted Kai the news because she knew he had an important business meeting today and she didn't want to upset him. He hadn't texted back yet and that meant that he was still busy. It was better that way. She didn't know how she was supposed to deal with him.

Bonnie had just entered her house, changing into more comfortable clothes and packing her things for the hospital as someone ringed the doorbell. Bonnie frowned, not too pleased to have to deal with someone right now. She actually, for the first time in her life, hoped it would be some kind of sales rep that she could easily send away. But of course, it was not.

In front of her stood a dashing looking Kai Parker, his expression was caring but also a hint pissed.

"You really think a text saying 'Goona have the surgery tomorrow, doc just called to tell me the news. Want to be alone tonight, please understand' would actually keep me away?", Kai raised an eyebrow, not really expecting an answer from her and stepping inside without looking at her again.

Bonnie sighed. She should be pissed that Kai didn't respect her wishes like the others did but secretly she was glad to see him.

"I guess, I kind of knew that I would need more convincing with you.", Bonnie stated and followed him into the living room.

"No convincing necessary. I'm not going anywhere. You are not going to be alone tonight, capisce?"

Bonnie chuckled and went over to him to hug him. Kai seemed a little surprised by her hug because he had probably expected more reluctance on her part but it seemed like she wanted him to stay. After a few seconds he hugged her back though, leaning his cheek against the top of her head.

Suddenly Bonnie felt a panic rise inside her. The surgery could actually kill her, this could be her last day on earth. The last time she would ever see him or hug him and she didn't like that thought. Even though she had done everything in her power to keep him as far away as possible, the bastard had still managed to make his way into her heart again.

This was exactly what she had tried to prevent. Now, the prospect of dying was 100 times harder for her then it had been a few months before. She would leave someone behind now, she would leave the man that she loved behind.

"I'm scared.", Bonnie finally confessed and she felt him hug her even tighter in response.

"I know. Me too.", Kai said in a low voice.

"I don't want to die.", Bonnie sniffed and tried to fight the tears.

"You're not going to die, you hear me? You're going to live. You'll be okay, I'm sure of it."

"How can you be sure of it?", Bonnie tried to pull away from him but she was weak and Kai held her steady so she was still in his general vicinity but could see his face now.

Kai reached for her face and pulled her in for a kiss. It was not a heated one, it was just a kiss but it was laced with all the unsaid feelings they had for each other. When Kai pulled away he rested his forehead against hers. "Because you have someone to get back to, that's how.", he whispered and Bonnie couldn't hold back her tears.

Kai refused to leave her alone that night. He even offered to drive her to the hospital in the morning. Bonnie thankfully agreed and realized that she had been wrong all this time. She may not be returning to him but contrary to her believes a partner wouldn't have been a burden to her but a support. She realized that having Kai by her side made her feel stronger, more vulnerable in some way, but genuinely stronger. She secretly wished she hadn't pushed him away all these times.

The next morning Bonnie and Kai headed to the hospital. Kai had to promise her not to stay until the surgery was done. In return, she called her grams to tell her to inform Kai instantly when she heard anything about Bonnie's surgery. When Kai was about leave, Bonnie took his hands into hers once more, stopping him.

"Thank you.", Bonnie said because she couldn't say what she really wanted to say.

Kai seemed to understand though. He smiled and said "You're welcome." He kissed the top of her head and left her to prepare for the surgery.

When Bonnie woke up after the surgery, the first thing she saw was her grandmother smiling down at her. Her warm eyes and her smile greeted her back into the land of the living.

"Hello child, it is good to see you up again."

"Grams-", Bonnie managed to say but couldn't get anything else out. She felt tired and hurt and overall bad. But she was alive.

"Shhh, child. Don't talk. You need to rest. The surgery was exhausting but the doctors say that you've done really well. For now, everyone is really happy with the results."

"Hhow long?", Bonnie tried to get out.

"It's been five days now. Your father and I have arrived the night of your surgery.", Sheila smiled, something mischievous in her eyes. "Kai came by every day you know?"

Bonnie's eyes started to shine at the mention of his name. Her grandmother smiled at her knowingly. Even though she hadn't said anything about why Kai and her had contact again, her grandmother was a smart woman and had figured it out herself.

She now patted her head. "Go back to sleep, love. I'll tell your father that you have been up. You need to rest."

Bonnie didn't need to hear that twice. She had never in her life felt this tired. Within seconds she had fallen back asleep.

The next time she opened her eyes was to a rather beautiful sight. Kai was sitting next to her bed, watching her carefully and smiling brightly as he realized she was waking up. The sun was shining brightly and it made him look like an angel in Bonnie's dizzy mind.

"Heeeey.", he softy greeted her and squeezed her hand lightly.

"Hi.", Bonnie said with a voice that seemed way more stable than before.

"How are you feeling?"

Bonnie had to think about that first. She didn't feel as bad as before but she didn't feel good either. "I guess as good as one can feel after a kidney transplantation. Where is everybody?" Bonnie tried to sit up but Kai lightly kept her in place by pushing her shoulders down.

"They are at home, resting. I told them to take a break. Also I wanted to be alone with you for a while.", he explained.

"To do what exactly?", Bonne teased him.

"I don't know. Look at you? Hoping you'd be alright. Worrying. Stuff like that.", he babbled looking away from her.

"You mean stuff that a boyfriend would do?"

That got his attention back. He looked at her in surprise as he tried to understand what she was suggesting. Bonnie had just asked him to be her boyfriend. Indirectly of course but either way he had understood it. They had always had this way of understanding each other.

He then smiled at her and moved a little closer to her. "Only if you want that."

"I want that.", Bonnie whispered and smiled at him.

"You know, the doctor has forbidden me to kiss you. Risk of infection and stuff. But I want you to know, that if I could, I would be kissing you right now.", Kai said while leaning his head to the side. He looked adorable that way.

"I know.", Bonnie said while having trouble keeping her eyes open.

"Go back to sleep, Bon. You need to get well very quick because I don't think that I can take this 'no-kissing' rule forever."

Bonnie chuckled before she drifted off to sleep again.

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When she opened her eyes that morning, the sun shone brightly into her bedroom. She was feeling hot, not only due to the warm weather outside but also due to the warm body that was draped close to her. Kai's arms lay across her chest and his stomach was pressed into her side. He had her cornered and caged. In his sleep, he had managed to roll onto her again.

She used to like waking up to him so close to her. It made her feel safe and cared for because of the protectiveness of the position. But these days were over.

Because she was nearly dying from heat she picked his arm up and placed it to his side, moving away from him a little. Kai stirred and turned, facing the ceiling now. It wouldn't take long and he would try and envelope her in his arms again. She wouldn't let him do that.

Like on cue, he reached out for her blindly and she only hit his hand away. Kai groaned. "Why are you so mean?"

"Because it already feels like 100 degrees in here and you don't need to make me feel even hotter.", Bonnie complained.

All of a sudden, Kai had turned around and was now hovering above her. "I can make you feel even hotter that just that.", he teased and leaned down to kiss her but she pushed him away.

"Stop fooling around."

Kai lay on his back again and chuckled. He leaned over her belly now and kissed it. It was already the size of a melon but she still had two long pregnancy months to go.

"Youre momma is a little grumpy this morning.", Kai talked to the belly and earned a hit with a pillow.

"I'm not grumpy. Try carrying around two baby elephants 24/7. I wanna see you react to that."

"Babe, you know that I would swap positions with you any time if I only could.", he assured her.

"Liar.", Bonnie stated while sitting up and crossing her arms over her chest.

"May I remind you that you were the one wanting to have children." Kai evaded another hit of the pillow, raising his hands in defense. "I'm just saying."

"Stop being so mean to me.", Bonnie whined, trying to get out of bed but Kai reached out for her legs and pulled her back into the bed, making her lie down once more. He went back to hovering above her.

"I would never be mean to you."

Kai leaned down and placed a kiss on her lips. Bonnie answered that kiss, reassuring him that she wasn't actually mad at him.

For the last few years, Bonnie and Kai had been through sick and thin. She had needed some time to recover from the surgery but it seemed like her condition was a miracle. For the first six months she was still shaky and had to go to the doctors ever now and then to get a check up. In that time, Kai didn't dare to touch her any more then kissing her or hugging her.

It was when the doctor finally told her that she was going to be okay if she stuck to a healthy diet, that Kai and her finally had sex again. A year and a half into their relationship Kai had proposed and they had gotten married on a warm summer day just like this about a year ago.

Their old issue of dispute had come up shortly after they got married. Bonnie was now in her late twenties and the wish to have children remained just as strong as before. The doctor had assured her that there was nothing to be concerned about. She was still nervous when she told Kai about her wish but he had only watched her and said 'okay'.

And now here they were. Married , pregnant and desperately in love. Bonnie couldn't feel any more happy only when she would finally be able to hold her daughters in her arms.

She smiled at Kai when he pulled away from her.

"What?", he chuckled.

"Nothing, I just love you very much."

Kai smiled and pecked her lips once more. "I love you, too."