This time Axel was ready for it and as the small blonde boy leapt to tackle him, he ducked and watched as he went sailing above his head.

"Ouch, how did you know I was here?" Roxas complained.

"I never fall for the same trick twice." Axel coolly replied. Axel strode up to Roxas and replaced a stray piece of hair. "Looks like you didn't use enough gel today."

"I don't use any gel!" Roxas looked away…why did Axel have to be so close to him

"Oh come on don't lie, I know you use gel, I found it in your room."

"Axel I don't use any gel, and what were you doing in my room!?"

"I had to get your report so you wouldn't get in trouble, I was just doing you a favor."

"Well don't do me anymore favors thank you very much. I don't use gel"

"I can prove you use gel Roxas, look lets go to your room and I'll show you where I saw it." Axel grabbed Roxas' hand to pull him towards the wing that his bedroom was on. Axel was really lying but he could think of no other way to get in a closed room alone with this boy. "What's wrong…you are the smallest boy in the organization, if you won't budge, I'll carry you."

Roxas could feel his temperature rising and his cheeks go pink. When Axel touched him like that, he got that sensation in his stomach, something like butterflies. He didn't understand, he wasn't supposed to have feelings but what he had for Axel was definitely more than an acquaintanceship. I dunno why I always feel like this whenever he is close to me but, I gottta get out of here.

"Sorry; I have to, uhm, go to the store to get some ice cream, we're all out." He blurted out, managing to stutter only a few times.

"Well I'll go with you then." Axel stated

"NO, I mean, no it's okay, you don't have to…I'll be back soon." Roxas yelled back as he was already on his way out of the dining room.

Axel walked into the kitchen and opened the freezer. Two packs of Roxas' favorite sea salt ice cream sat neatly nestled between two ice trays. I knew he was lying, why do I always scare him off like that. I just want to be close to him, but I don't know how to make him see that.

Axel put his face down in his hands. He couldn't feel, but right now he felt empty, unwhole, he wanted Roxas back here to make him feel better. Roxas always made him feel better, not that he was ever any fun because of his usual lack of enthusiasm and teenage angst. But Roxas was still the reason Axel usually woke up in the morning. He always looked forward to the time he could spend with Roxas. I just wish we could use our time more productively, I wish we could be more than friends. I guess I should go wait in the library, that's where he'll be when he comes back.

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I'm so stupid. I really need to stop running off on him like that.

Roxas stared at a book; on the same page he had been on twenty minutes ago. He had run off to the library and was hiding there. I can't concentrate! I keep thinking about him, I want to tell him how I really feel but how am I supposed to, and I don't even know where he is!

He got up and walked over to the large window that showed the heart-shaped moon. How can they say that I can't feel when I can't even concentrate on reading because I am thinking about that damned redhead again!

Roxas threw the book clear across the library. When he didn't hear the inevitable crash of the book hitting a shelf or desk, he turned to see what had happened to it. He turned to see Axel standing with the book in hand, looking at him with hurtful emerald eyes.

"I see that you're upset, and since your throwing books at me now, I'll just leave, I know when I'm not wanted." Axel turned to leave the library, setting the book down on a nearby chair.

Go after him you idiot…go after him! Roxas tried to speak but nothing would come out, he just stood and watched his best friend, his love, walk out on him.

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Knock, just knock…come on Roxas you can face assassins and all kinds of freaky creatures but you can't face your best friend. No, not best friend, it had to be more than that. I want it to be more than that. I have to tell him how I feel about him, I hope he doesn't hate me and never talk to me again. Okay on the count of three. One…Two…Three…

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"No ones home," came the smart-ass reply from the other side of the door. Roxas couldn't help but smile.

"Axel, please come out here I want to talk to you." Roxas pleaded.

"I can't I'm busy, it's unlocked though, come in if you have something important to say." Axel said, sounding for all the world not busy at all, just lazy.

Roxas stepped back. He really didn't want to go in there but if he didn't it would only make Axel more upset with him. He still hadn't apologized for running out on him or throwing the book at him. Technically he hadn't been throwing the book at Axel, it wasn't like he was aiming for him, and he hadn't even known he was there. Excuse, I need an excuse…

"Are you sure it's clean, maybe I won't be able to find you in that mess." Roxas joked, hoping that Axel's room was honestly dirty.

"Actually, had you been in my room before, you would know that my room is semi neat, unlike your dirty room, you don't even make the bed in the morning do you?" Axel teased. If you would just let me spend the night there would be no way you could ever find the sheets to attempt to make it again anyways.

"Axel, I told you to stay out of my room, it is clean anyways." Roxas defended.

"Well are you coming in or not, because believe it or not, I have better things to do then argue through a door." Axel said, sounding upset. Roxas bit his bottom lip. Ahh, I can never make good decisions quickly like this. Uhm, seeing as I can think of no other way, here goes…

Roxas reached for the handle, turned and swung the door inward. He stepped into a not overly clean but tidy room. Axel was right; he wasn't the slob he appeared to be. Axel was lying on a slightly ruffled bed looking at long papers that matched a set Roxas had: paperwork. As Roxas watched, he saw one tiny corner of the paper Axel was holding ignite into flames. He laughed out loud.

"Well I didn't think you were going to come in here kiddo." Axel said not looking up from his papers. Oh he's mad at me; I can tell…he won't even look at me. Okay just tell him, say, 'Axel I wasn't trying to hit you and I am sorry for running out on you, it's just that you make me feel so much different than anyone else, I've never felt this way about anyone.' It sounded good in his head but when he went to say it, the words got a little messed up.

"Look I'm sorry okay?" Roxas shot at Axel, sticking his bottom lip out. Wow way to go ace. That will definitely make him forgive you. Why do I suck so much? Axel finally looked up. Seeing the sincerity in Roxas' eyes, even though it wasn't evident in his voice made it hard for Axel to stay mad at him.

"Okay fine, I'll let this one go, but only because you're my best friend." But I wish we could be way more than that. Axel silently brooded.

"Thanks, and you're my best friend too, I mean I really don't have that many anyways." Roxas said uncertainly.

"Well now that you're here, why don't you sit down, stay awhile?" Axel asked hopefully, trying to sound as nonchalant and casual as ever.

"Uhm…"

Don't say no…please don't say no

"Why not."

Great.

"You know we have a surplus of sea salt ice cream, and if you keep running off every time we talk we'll soon be buried in the stuff." Axel said, staring into Roxas' sapphire blue eyes. Gods he is so beautiful.

"Well I dunno why I do that, I just get cravings you know." He lied. Axel gave him an unbelieving look. "Okay, it's just weird because I have never been as close to someone as I am to you. I get nervous I guess."

Oh man, I know I sounded stupid, and now he probably knows how I feel. That was so dumb. Why is he staring at me like that, oh I could get lost in those emerald eyes forever. Look at that red hair, I love it; I want to touch it, run my fingers through it, pull on it while he slowly kisses my neck…


Before he could stop himself, Roxas was reaching out and touching Axel's hair, running his fingers through the delicate red locks. Half way to the tip of his hair and back up to Axles scalp, he realized what he was doing. Catching the quizzical look on Axel's face, he quickly changed tactics.

"Uhm you had some paper in your hair," Roxas pretended to flick a piece of imaginary paper from his hand. "Just getting it out for you."

"Uh, thanks?" Axel said, surprised by Roxas actions and not knowing what to think.

"No problem." Roxas replied looking at the wall behind Axel and feeling thoroughly stupid. Roxas you big screw up, what were you thinking?

Whoa what was that about? He wasn't getting something out, I felt him tugging and playing in my hair, running his nails along my scalp. Oh I loved it so much, just the touch made me tingle. I want him to do it again, but he's so scared, scared that I don't love him, or maybe that I do love him, I don't know which. I don't want him to leave me, but I want to do this. Look at those sad eyes; I want to make him feel so much better. I want to kiss away his fears and problems. Please Roxas, please be okay with this…


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