I finally got an idea for something! YAY! I wanted to cry as I wrote this...I cried THINKING about it....my first yaoi, but I think it's pretty good...angst/romance....very angst at that and it may be *slightly* OOC, but not much. This *is* a songfic. Oh...and this is fully Yami's PoV. PG-13 for language...
Yami Bakura is Bakura
Normal Bakura is Ryou
Yami Yugi is Yami
/Yugi to Yami/
//Yami to Yugi/
Yami Bakura has taken his own life for unexplained reasons, and the most unexpected person is the only one who is truly broken over it. Yami/Bakura
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh or the song "If Only Tears Could Bring You Back To Me" by Midnight Sons.
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There they are. All of them (minus Mai), outside in the rain. Me? I'm in my soul room. Joey's making witty remarks, Kaiba only speaking up with his Chihuahua comments to the blonde. Mokuba wants to go home, Tristan and Tea are muttering things like "good riddance". Ryou....he's half happy and half depressed and my aibou just is silent. But all of their sadness that they scratch together cannot match mine. My aibou figures I'm in my soul room because he thinks I'll fall over laughing cruelly if I came out. I can't laugh.
This funeral is painful. It pains every part of me...every part! Am I the only one that cares he's dead? Am I? No one else seems to.....
Why did he do it? Why did he have to take his life?! Ryou is the only one who knows....how and why...but he won't tell us. I don't know if I want to know....
In the last week he had been trying so hard it seemed just to be....almost normal. But no one excepted him........I tried! I really did....but whenever I did, just a harsh remark was thrown from my mouth to him. Damn....
******
Three days after Bakura's funeral....Aibou is worrying because I haven't spoken a single word. He doesn't understand, no one does or ever will. Hell! I don't even understand!
Sure, I've always accused Bakura of everything, blamed him for his past and many times attempting to steal the puzzle....but...it was a damn cover! A veil! He tried to change, he *tried* and.....and look what he got in return....nothing........
How will I start..
Tomorrow with out you here?
Who's heart will guide me..
When all the answers disappear?
I wish........maybe I should have....just said something....
But would you have just laughed? If I told the others...would they just laugh too? I can hear Joey now... "Nice one Yami! You really had me believe a minute there, Pharaoh and tomb-robber...heh..." So damn what?! So. What.
Why.....do I bother?
/Hey Yami! We're all heading to the park! You wanna come...?/
Aibou....don't you get it? I don't want to do ANYTHING! Can't you just leave me alone?
I would say that...I can't be cruel to my hikari though, it's not his fault this happened. But why is he so cheerful about it? Honestly, I was ready to respond nicely...but....I can't believe what he just said...
/Yami? Are you ok? You've been really out of it the last few days....you should be happy! Bakura is dead! All your troubles and everyone's at that are gone now!/
My eyes widen in pain from my soul room, but my light can't tell....I hope that's a good thing. His voice seems to ring through my head over and over again...Why won't it stop?! Why.....?
//Just leave me alone....//
/But Yami I-/
//Leave me alone, Yugi.// He drops silent and I separate into his room as he leaves the house without a word. Yugi? I hardly ever call him that anymore.....my voice was so sharp...probably scared him into silence...but dammit what he said! I should be HAPPY?! How the hell can I be happy?!
Is it too late?
Are you too far gone to stay?
There is something I can do though...with Yugi gone from the house....I wish I had done it earlier but I was too depressed. I still am actually.....when will I get over it? Ever? I....I just don't know what to do.......I've never felt this much pain.....I've never felt this way PERIOD! Guess I should get going though....just need to stop at the florist.
******
I'm on my knees. In tears. Infront of Bakura's grave. No flowers, but there are already cobwebs...or something at least. A chilling breeze snaps over my face, it shouldn't be that cold....it's summer....it shouldn't be cold! Maybe it's my tears...?
.......The tears........they won't stop flowing....and it's darkening out, clouds rolling in and becoming colder....how long have I been just kneeling here?
A faint smile creases over my lips, my shaking hands placing a bouquet of an assortment of flowers by the grave...black and red roses. Black for Bakura.......red for me. It's probably crazy...I've probably sulked too much over this......
You know....I really did think highly of you, Bakura....
....Even in Egypt, as Pharaoh. So I was completely cold and heartless back then...but I did respect you enough, you always tended to outsmart me....until that last time when you were caught. And sealed into the ring. I remember your screams of pain.......I laughed then....I cry now as they haunt me.
Best friends forever
But you never have to go away...
/Yami...? Where are you...? I thought you'd be home....it's late Yami....where are you....?/
Yugi....
I don't answer him. But I do put up a mental block as I find myself curled on the cold ground. Crying to sleep.
******
Morning comes and I swear there is a vulture standing on Bakura's grave staring at me thinking I'm its next meal. Oh wait...it's a crow.
"Get the hell off that!" I find myself shouting, scrambling up to shoo the black bird away. Damn thing. Damn, damn thing.
Next thing to register my mind. My clothes are wet. Great...just great....it rained last night, and silly me I was asleep out here. I slept in the rain? Man...I must be more out of it then I thought. Yugi! What's he going to say?! What am *I* going to say? Oh, sorry aibou I fell asleep by Bakura's grave stone crying because my love is dead. Yeah. That would work. Anyone asks...I fell asleep in some part of the park. Away from where they were.
I'm never going to survive this.
What will I do, you know, I'm only half without you.
How will I, make it through?
******
I enter the game shop, mostly dry for the fact I walked around awhile to get this way. And the first thing I feel (not register) is someone nearly tackling me over. My eyes fall down to the figure hugging me. Yugi.
"Yami! Where have you been? I was so worried! Why did you close off the mental link? Ohhh I was so worried what happened to you!"
I fake a smile. "Sorry aibou, I just had to think about something."
"Uh....ok....about what?" I feel the tears begin to form a layer over my eyes and I summon my power to hold them back. A hand of mine pats down on my light's head, ruffling that multi-colored toned hair that is similar to mine.
"Nothing aibou....don't....worry about it..." That's all I say before escaping to my soul room. I had to be there, not out here.
******
The Egyptian styled flooring breaks my fall, I wish I would keep falling. It would stop the warm water running from my duo faucet of eyes. -Nothing aibou...- Like hell nothing, sure, everything is PERFECTLY fine!
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, or give, if you returned to me
Someday, somehow, somewhere...
If my tears could bring you back...to me...
Perfectly....fine...........
Why can't I believe it?
Why the hell did you have to go and kill yourself?!
That's it. I'm going to go see Ryou.
//Aibou, I have to go out...I'll be back later..//
/Oh.......alright...promise?/
//Hai, I promise.// I hope.
******
In a matter of seconds I was out of my soul room and running through the streets, and now...a few small strides from Ryou's doormat. Calming myself, I stare at the white board of wood making up his door a moment before knocking on it. Hard.
Almost instantly, Ryou flings open the door and stares at me awkward. My eyes stare at him sharp, I can feel it. Without even being offered inside, I step in, forcing Ryou in with this motion. My voice matches the feeling in my eyes. Sharp. "How did Bakura kill himself?"
"I....uh.......see......I can't tell......." He stutters, fearing me, and I really could care less right now. Again, I advance forward and he falls back over the stairs, cringing even though they're carpeted.
"Tell me. NOW!" I snap with an added hiss and third eye glowering on my forehead. He shrivels, showing it by the look in his eyes and I can feel it from him....ok....so I am slightly guilty.
"A k-k-k-nif-e-e-e..........t-to........the.........h-h-heart........."
"Why didn't you STOP him?!"
"Y-Y-Yami....I f-found him.....when I g-got home............"
"Why would he do it...?" My voice softens, and he seems to calm more himself.
"I heard....through the mental link.......he said he tried........to be excepted......but it wouldn't work......because everyone followed your perspective..........and t-then he.....he......." Ryou's eyes watered, seemed he was depressed about Bakura's incident as well. "He said he was sorry." Those chocolate brown eyes look away from me, I can see he was crying and I abruptly leave his house...my own tears coursing down my pale face. Yes. It was pale. Probably got a cold from last night.....
I've cried you a notion
So please sail on home again
Wings of emotion, will carry you and all they can
Just like love guides you, and your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting, to the arms of your true north
It's.......my fault. My fault he's dead. If I only had told him that I loved him, would he still be alive? So he may have hated me, but he would have been alive!
Ryou said that it was because everyone followed MY perspective. And MY perspective on the outside was to yell at him 24/7. But MY true perspective was that I loved him....and look what MY damn perspective that I showed brought me. Stupid......how could I have been so stupid?!
******
I find myself in some woods, a creak running by a very tight clearing. My body tells me to sit down and I comply, leaning my body limply against the rough bark. Now that no one is around, the hundreds and millions of tears I forced in explode, my arms automatically wrapping around my legs and pulling them to my chest. Head buried and all, my voice muffles out between weeping and whimpers. "I-it's my f-fault...."
Look in my eyes, and you'll see, a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry...
"You can't be dead though.....it can't be true....someone a-anyone please just s-say it's just s-some kind of joke.....ONEGAI! Ra please.....this CANNOT be true!" I pause, my body freezing like someone turned off the switch. It feels as if blood is drawn and my skin turns a ghostly white and I cough painfully, my cold (if that's what it is) has worked its way badly into my system. Three words escape my mouth, only three........ "But it is." ........And then my world blackened.
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, or give, if you returned to me
Someday, somehow, somewhere...
If my tears could bring you back...to me...
******
I awoke in a bed, too weak to sit up. Both my ruby eyes, open as slits scanning around with a blurred vision. Foggy for use of a better word. Yugi is staring over me to my left side from a chair, infront of me I can see a TV set on the show Smurfs and about four hospital blankets on me. And a heart monitor to my right. Hospital? Am I here? Is that *possible*? But I was in the woods.....how did I.....how could I......-
"Yami! You're awake! I felt your body slip unconscious and somehow used the puzzle, I can't remember how now....but I found you in some weird woods! You're body seemed frozen too....so I got you here....." His voice drifted and violet eyes stared at the floor. I did try to talk, but all that came out was a puff of air. That's one thing good about a mental link.
//Thank you......Yugi....//
He smiled up at me, still talking in normal speech. "No problem! Get some rest, ok? You look like you need it..." I nod and roll over best I could. Least there were no tubes sticking through me.
I never thought I would fall asleep....but I did........
******
Again, I awake. But not in the hospital....
Wherever I am, the ground is dried and cracked, dead trees scattered yards apart from one another. How'd I get here anyway? No one is around...they couldn't of brought me here.
Maybe......maybe I escaped the hospital absent mindedly and slipped out here. But that can't be, Domino City has no place like THIS around. Everything is dead. Oh look....my eyes catch sight of something a brownish white. Great....a dead animal.
HOLY SHIT!
Maybe I'm dying in the hospital! And this is where I have to go between life and death! Where's Osiris? Isn't he supposed to be here? Maybe Anubis or any other god that feels like watching the Pharaoh, Yu-Gi-Oh, ME whoever I should be called nevertheless DIE. Rot. Decay. ARG!
Oh....but if I die........
......Could I find my love again.....?
Maybe so.
Because there he is now....
I rush over to a laying down figure, but stare down at it unpleasantly. A knife was "arranged" crimson colored by the figure. My mind races as I see the blood everywhere and the stillness....it's Bakura...no doubt about it........h-he's dead.......right.....before......my....eyes.... "N-no.."
My arms lift him into them as I sink to my knees, his own blood drenching over my hamstrings. "Y-you can't be.....t-this isn't real....Bakura wake up....please dammit wake up....." How I wanted to yell at him to move, open his eyes, ANYTHING! But my voice wouldn't escape above a whisper. It just wouldn't. "Bakura please...I love you.....don't die like this....I know it's my fault....but you can't die...I LOVE YOU!" I cry out, my voice charging high over that weak whisper I had before and I bury my head in his blood covered chest, his sweatshirt no longer white from the cut as my vision is dimming white....or maybe it isn't my vision...
I hold you close
And shout the words, I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last dance
Inside of me
That I would like, and love!
******
I snap my eyes open. The hospital. Again. Was it a dream? No. It wasn't. It was a freaking nightmare. If Yugi wasn't in the room I would be crying, again. But no matter how weak I am I somehow muster the last ounce of strength to hold back tears.
It all seemed so.....so real. Bakura was in my arms, dead, blood everywhere...on the knife...everything.....
Then time lapsed and faded and here I was...in the hospital bed with my back to Yugi. With the many blankets on me, I do my best to pull my legs so I curled in a ball, salvaging heat. Why the hell am I cold?! I have four freaking blankets on me! Still cold....ugh...I need another blanket....
/Oh, good you're awake. The doctors said you had a very mild case of Hypothermia......and it was a good thing I found you. Where were you last night? Maybe that's what caused it...../
What was my excuse again? I don't remember.....think Yami think.....um......I really wish Yugi wouldn't stare at me like that, I can FEEL it even though I'm not facing him. Ohhh....THE PARK! Right, right that was it....
//I wandered off to the park to think and ended up falling asleep.....//
/Through the rain?/
//Guess so...// He couldn't know the truth....he couldn't! And yet...I let it slip as I whisper in a frail voice, unable to stop. "No...I wasn't there...."
"Then where Yami....? Where were you....?" He stares worriedly and I look at the heart monitor, at least it seems to show I'm going to live.
"T-the graveyard.....Bakura's grave.........." I close my eyes as the line of wetness dampens the pillow slightly, Yugi can sense my sadness. And I really don't care anymore. I can't lie to my light forever.
"W-why were you there.....? I thought you hated Bakura..."
"I loved him aibou.....I really did....."
"Are you serious...?" He sounds pained...for me....at least he's not laughing.
"Y-yes..."
"I'm so sorry Yami...I didn't know...." I lose it then, start crying softly, but Yugi does his best to comfort me. He really is a good hikari, and slowly I slip into a sleep again. Not with that nightmare, a dream where Bakura was still here, but I have to get it through my head...that it can't happen like that. He can't return....
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, or give, if you returned to me
Someday, somehow, somewhere...
If my tears could bring you back.......
You don't know how much I miss you...and it's only been a few days.
.......to me.
******
Poor Yami!! Ok, maybe it was more OOC then I thought it would be...I continuously played this song while I typed this. For those who *don't* know, which is probably a lot...this song is from the first Pokemon Movie soundtrack. But it's a good song, you should listen to it if you haven't before. That was a long fic though, ne? Please review! I honestly think these two could make a couple, anyone else agree...? Or am I alone on this thought? Oh well, sympathize for the dead.....while I TRY and think of ideas for my other fics o.O Erk....damn writer's block.....
Yami Bakura is Bakura
Normal Bakura is Ryou
Yami Yugi is Yami
/Yugi to Yami/
//Yami to Yugi/
Yami Bakura has taken his own life for unexplained reasons, and the most unexpected person is the only one who is truly broken over it. Yami/Bakura
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh or the song "If Only Tears Could Bring You Back To Me" by Midnight Sons.
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There they are. All of them (minus Mai), outside in the rain. Me? I'm in my soul room. Joey's making witty remarks, Kaiba only speaking up with his Chihuahua comments to the blonde. Mokuba wants to go home, Tristan and Tea are muttering things like "good riddance". Ryou....he's half happy and half depressed and my aibou just is silent. But all of their sadness that they scratch together cannot match mine. My aibou figures I'm in my soul room because he thinks I'll fall over laughing cruelly if I came out. I can't laugh.
This funeral is painful. It pains every part of me...every part! Am I the only one that cares he's dead? Am I? No one else seems to.....
Why did he do it? Why did he have to take his life?! Ryou is the only one who knows....how and why...but he won't tell us. I don't know if I want to know....
In the last week he had been trying so hard it seemed just to be....almost normal. But no one excepted him........I tried! I really did....but whenever I did, just a harsh remark was thrown from my mouth to him. Damn....
******
Three days after Bakura's funeral....Aibou is worrying because I haven't spoken a single word. He doesn't understand, no one does or ever will. Hell! I don't even understand!
Sure, I've always accused Bakura of everything, blamed him for his past and many times attempting to steal the puzzle....but...it was a damn cover! A veil! He tried to change, he *tried* and.....and look what he got in return....nothing........
How will I start..
Tomorrow with out you here?
Who's heart will guide me..
When all the answers disappear?
I wish........maybe I should have....just said something....
But would you have just laughed? If I told the others...would they just laugh too? I can hear Joey now... "Nice one Yami! You really had me believe a minute there, Pharaoh and tomb-robber...heh..." So damn what?! So. What.
Why.....do I bother?
/Hey Yami! We're all heading to the park! You wanna come...?/
Aibou....don't you get it? I don't want to do ANYTHING! Can't you just leave me alone?
I would say that...I can't be cruel to my hikari though, it's not his fault this happened. But why is he so cheerful about it? Honestly, I was ready to respond nicely...but....I can't believe what he just said...
/Yami? Are you ok? You've been really out of it the last few days....you should be happy! Bakura is dead! All your troubles and everyone's at that are gone now!/
My eyes widen in pain from my soul room, but my light can't tell....I hope that's a good thing. His voice seems to ring through my head over and over again...Why won't it stop?! Why.....?
//Just leave me alone....//
/But Yami I-/
//Leave me alone, Yugi.// He drops silent and I separate into his room as he leaves the house without a word. Yugi? I hardly ever call him that anymore.....my voice was so sharp...probably scared him into silence...but dammit what he said! I should be HAPPY?! How the hell can I be happy?!
Is it too late?
Are you too far gone to stay?
There is something I can do though...with Yugi gone from the house....I wish I had done it earlier but I was too depressed. I still am actually.....when will I get over it? Ever? I....I just don't know what to do.......I've never felt this much pain.....I've never felt this way PERIOD! Guess I should get going though....just need to stop at the florist.
******
I'm on my knees. In tears. Infront of Bakura's grave. No flowers, but there are already cobwebs...or something at least. A chilling breeze snaps over my face, it shouldn't be that cold....it's summer....it shouldn't be cold! Maybe it's my tears...?
.......The tears........they won't stop flowing....and it's darkening out, clouds rolling in and becoming colder....how long have I been just kneeling here?
A faint smile creases over my lips, my shaking hands placing a bouquet of an assortment of flowers by the grave...black and red roses. Black for Bakura.......red for me. It's probably crazy...I've probably sulked too much over this......
You know....I really did think highly of you, Bakura....
....Even in Egypt, as Pharaoh. So I was completely cold and heartless back then...but I did respect you enough, you always tended to outsmart me....until that last time when you were caught. And sealed into the ring. I remember your screams of pain.......I laughed then....I cry now as they haunt me.
Best friends forever
But you never have to go away...
/Yami...? Where are you...? I thought you'd be home....it's late Yami....where are you....?/
Yugi....
I don't answer him. But I do put up a mental block as I find myself curled on the cold ground. Crying to sleep.
******
Morning comes and I swear there is a vulture standing on Bakura's grave staring at me thinking I'm its next meal. Oh wait...it's a crow.
"Get the hell off that!" I find myself shouting, scrambling up to shoo the black bird away. Damn thing. Damn, damn thing.
Next thing to register my mind. My clothes are wet. Great...just great....it rained last night, and silly me I was asleep out here. I slept in the rain? Man...I must be more out of it then I thought. Yugi! What's he going to say?! What am *I* going to say? Oh, sorry aibou I fell asleep by Bakura's grave stone crying because my love is dead. Yeah. That would work. Anyone asks...I fell asleep in some part of the park. Away from where they were.
I'm never going to survive this.
What will I do, you know, I'm only half without you.
How will I, make it through?
******
I enter the game shop, mostly dry for the fact I walked around awhile to get this way. And the first thing I feel (not register) is someone nearly tackling me over. My eyes fall down to the figure hugging me. Yugi.
"Yami! Where have you been? I was so worried! Why did you close off the mental link? Ohhh I was so worried what happened to you!"
I fake a smile. "Sorry aibou, I just had to think about something."
"Uh....ok....about what?" I feel the tears begin to form a layer over my eyes and I summon my power to hold them back. A hand of mine pats down on my light's head, ruffling that multi-colored toned hair that is similar to mine.
"Nothing aibou....don't....worry about it..." That's all I say before escaping to my soul room. I had to be there, not out here.
******
The Egyptian styled flooring breaks my fall, I wish I would keep falling. It would stop the warm water running from my duo faucet of eyes. -Nothing aibou...- Like hell nothing, sure, everything is PERFECTLY fine!
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, or give, if you returned to me
Someday, somehow, somewhere...
If my tears could bring you back...to me...
Perfectly....fine...........
Why can't I believe it?
Why the hell did you have to go and kill yourself?!
That's it. I'm going to go see Ryou.
//Aibou, I have to go out...I'll be back later..//
/Oh.......alright...promise?/
//Hai, I promise.// I hope.
******
In a matter of seconds I was out of my soul room and running through the streets, and now...a few small strides from Ryou's doormat. Calming myself, I stare at the white board of wood making up his door a moment before knocking on it. Hard.
Almost instantly, Ryou flings open the door and stares at me awkward. My eyes stare at him sharp, I can feel it. Without even being offered inside, I step in, forcing Ryou in with this motion. My voice matches the feeling in my eyes. Sharp. "How did Bakura kill himself?"
"I....uh.......see......I can't tell......." He stutters, fearing me, and I really could care less right now. Again, I advance forward and he falls back over the stairs, cringing even though they're carpeted.
"Tell me. NOW!" I snap with an added hiss and third eye glowering on my forehead. He shrivels, showing it by the look in his eyes and I can feel it from him....ok....so I am slightly guilty.
"A k-k-k-nif-e-e-e..........t-to........the.........h-h-heart........."
"Why didn't you STOP him?!"
"Y-Y-Yami....I f-found him.....when I g-got home............"
"Why would he do it...?" My voice softens, and he seems to calm more himself.
"I heard....through the mental link.......he said he tried........to be excepted......but it wouldn't work......because everyone followed your perspective..........and t-then he.....he......." Ryou's eyes watered, seemed he was depressed about Bakura's incident as well. "He said he was sorry." Those chocolate brown eyes look away from me, I can see he was crying and I abruptly leave his house...my own tears coursing down my pale face. Yes. It was pale. Probably got a cold from last night.....
I've cried you a notion
So please sail on home again
Wings of emotion, will carry you and all they can
Just like love guides you, and your heart will chart the course
Soon you'll be drifting, to the arms of your true north
It's.......my fault. My fault he's dead. If I only had told him that I loved him, would he still be alive? So he may have hated me, but he would have been alive!
Ryou said that it was because everyone followed MY perspective. And MY perspective on the outside was to yell at him 24/7. But MY true perspective was that I loved him....and look what MY damn perspective that I showed brought me. Stupid......how could I have been so stupid?!
******
I find myself in some woods, a creak running by a very tight clearing. My body tells me to sit down and I comply, leaning my body limply against the rough bark. Now that no one is around, the hundreds and millions of tears I forced in explode, my arms automatically wrapping around my legs and pulling them to my chest. Head buried and all, my voice muffles out between weeping and whimpers. "I-it's my f-fault...."
Look in my eyes, and you'll see, a million tears have gone by
And still they're not dry...
"You can't be dead though.....it can't be true....someone a-anyone please just s-say it's just s-some kind of joke.....ONEGAI! Ra please.....this CANNOT be true!" I pause, my body freezing like someone turned off the switch. It feels as if blood is drawn and my skin turns a ghostly white and I cough painfully, my cold (if that's what it is) has worked its way badly into my system. Three words escape my mouth, only three........ "But it is." ........And then my world blackened.
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, or give, if you returned to me
Someday, somehow, somewhere...
If my tears could bring you back...to me...
******
I awoke in a bed, too weak to sit up. Both my ruby eyes, open as slits scanning around with a blurred vision. Foggy for use of a better word. Yugi is staring over me to my left side from a chair, infront of me I can see a TV set on the show Smurfs and about four hospital blankets on me. And a heart monitor to my right. Hospital? Am I here? Is that *possible*? But I was in the woods.....how did I.....how could I......-
"Yami! You're awake! I felt your body slip unconscious and somehow used the puzzle, I can't remember how now....but I found you in some weird woods! You're body seemed frozen too....so I got you here....." His voice drifted and violet eyes stared at the floor. I did try to talk, but all that came out was a puff of air. That's one thing good about a mental link.
//Thank you......Yugi....//
He smiled up at me, still talking in normal speech. "No problem! Get some rest, ok? You look like you need it..." I nod and roll over best I could. Least there were no tubes sticking through me.
I never thought I would fall asleep....but I did........
******
Again, I awake. But not in the hospital....
Wherever I am, the ground is dried and cracked, dead trees scattered yards apart from one another. How'd I get here anyway? No one is around...they couldn't of brought me here.
Maybe......maybe I escaped the hospital absent mindedly and slipped out here. But that can't be, Domino City has no place like THIS around. Everything is dead. Oh look....my eyes catch sight of something a brownish white. Great....a dead animal.
HOLY SHIT!
Maybe I'm dying in the hospital! And this is where I have to go between life and death! Where's Osiris? Isn't he supposed to be here? Maybe Anubis or any other god that feels like watching the Pharaoh, Yu-Gi-Oh, ME whoever I should be called nevertheless DIE. Rot. Decay. ARG!
Oh....but if I die........
......Could I find my love again.....?
Maybe so.
Because there he is now....
I rush over to a laying down figure, but stare down at it unpleasantly. A knife was "arranged" crimson colored by the figure. My mind races as I see the blood everywhere and the stillness....it's Bakura...no doubt about it........h-he's dead.......right.....before......my....eyes.... "N-no.."
My arms lift him into them as I sink to my knees, his own blood drenching over my hamstrings. "Y-you can't be.....t-this isn't real....Bakura wake up....please dammit wake up....." How I wanted to yell at him to move, open his eyes, ANYTHING! But my voice wouldn't escape above a whisper. It just wouldn't. "Bakura please...I love you.....don't die like this....I know it's my fault....but you can't die...I LOVE YOU!" I cry out, my voice charging high over that weak whisper I had before and I bury my head in his blood covered chest, his sweatshirt no longer white from the cut as my vision is dimming white....or maybe it isn't my vision...
I hold you close
And shout the words, I only whispered before
For one more chance, for one last dance
Inside of me
That I would like, and love!
******
I snap my eyes open. The hospital. Again. Was it a dream? No. It wasn't. It was a freaking nightmare. If Yugi wasn't in the room I would be crying, again. But no matter how weak I am I somehow muster the last ounce of strength to hold back tears.
It all seemed so.....so real. Bakura was in my arms, dead, blood everywhere...on the knife...everything.....
Then time lapsed and faded and here I was...in the hospital bed with my back to Yugi. With the many blankets on me, I do my best to pull my legs so I curled in a ball, salvaging heat. Why the hell am I cold?! I have four freaking blankets on me! Still cold....ugh...I need another blanket....
/Oh, good you're awake. The doctors said you had a very mild case of Hypothermia......and it was a good thing I found you. Where were you last night? Maybe that's what caused it...../
What was my excuse again? I don't remember.....think Yami think.....um......I really wish Yugi wouldn't stare at me like that, I can FEEL it even though I'm not facing him. Ohhh....THE PARK! Right, right that was it....
//I wandered off to the park to think and ended up falling asleep.....//
/Through the rain?/
//Guess so...// He couldn't know the truth....he couldn't! And yet...I let it slip as I whisper in a frail voice, unable to stop. "No...I wasn't there...."
"Then where Yami....? Where were you....?" He stares worriedly and I look at the heart monitor, at least it seems to show I'm going to live.
"T-the graveyard.....Bakura's grave.........." I close my eyes as the line of wetness dampens the pillow slightly, Yugi can sense my sadness. And I really don't care anymore. I can't lie to my light forever.
"W-why were you there.....? I thought you hated Bakura..."
"I loved him aibou.....I really did....."
"Are you serious...?" He sounds pained...for me....at least he's not laughing.
"Y-yes..."
"I'm so sorry Yami...I didn't know...." I lose it then, start crying softly, but Yugi does his best to comfort me. He really is a good hikari, and slowly I slip into a sleep again. Not with that nightmare, a dream where Bakura was still here, but I have to get it through my head...that it can't happen like that. He can't return....
If only tears could bring you back to me
If only love could find a way
What I would do, or give, if you returned to me
Someday, somehow, somewhere...
If my tears could bring you back.......
You don't know how much I miss you...and it's only been a few days.
.......to me.
******
Poor Yami!! Ok, maybe it was more OOC then I thought it would be...I continuously played this song while I typed this. For those who *don't* know, which is probably a lot...this song is from the first Pokemon Movie soundtrack. But it's a good song, you should listen to it if you haven't before. That was a long fic though, ne? Please review! I honestly think these two could make a couple, anyone else agree...? Or am I alone on this thought? Oh well, sympathize for the dead.....while I TRY and think of ideas for my other fics o.O Erk....damn writer's block.....
