Prologue

It all started as a stupid fling. That's all it was ever supposed to be. No feelings attached, no problems, just a purely fucked up physical relationship. So why was it that Sousuke's feelings were wavering? He knew Makoto would never return his feelings. That's how it was supposed to be.

For Makoto, he was simply a placeholder to project his unrequited love for Haru. For Sousuke, it was for Rin. This affair was held under the pretense of loving the ones they could never have through each other. Nothing more, nothing less.

For a while it worked great. Sousuke was the one to initiate it in the first place after all. After being refused a chance at happiness with Rin, he found an outlet to relay his sexual frustrations through Makoto. Besides, it wasn't like he forced the him to say yes. In fact, despite their lack of knowledge of each other, he seemed rather calm about engaging in their odd relationship.

Sousuke hadn't known Makoto that well outside from the joint practices that Samezuka and Iwatobi, and the occasional outings both groups would engage in. For the most part, he was fairly indifferent towards the brunette. It wasn't until their encounter during the water gun fight when Sousuke even began noticing the man.

That interest, however, couldn't and wouldn't sway his stubborn heart away from Rin. Besides, Makoto was always around Haruka, his intentions for something more being as clear as day to anyone and everyone but the pair. It didn't mean a thing to Sousuke. None of it ever did. Sousuke's focus had tunnel visioned towards Rin those last few months, so when he began to lose sight of him, nothing else really began to matter to Sousuke.

Now struck with the realization that he may once again lose something precious (right when he only just began to truly understand the depth of his feelings), Sousuke wasn't sure if he'd find the strength to recover from this.

Honestly now that he began thinking about it, he realized that maybe he shouldn't have taken up his colleague's offer to his house party after all...