The air hung heavy as we stared at each other. Brown clashing with topaz. I had no idea how to react. Mixed feelings shown clear in my eyes.
I could hear the rain. It dribbled down the window pane slowly. The soft pitter pat was loud in the room. I held my breath as I counted the number of raindrops hitting the window. I lost count as soon as he stepped forward.
I felt betrayed. Betrayed by my own body as it refused to move. Betrayed by him and everything we used to stand for. He took my family away from me. No, not my family, not anymore.
His family.
"Bella?"
And just like that the spell he had me under disappeared. My stomach did flip flops and sang an unknown tune.
"Ten years," was my only reply. Ten fucking years of waiting, of wanting, of not knowing. And finally I understood. He loved me. In some sick, twisted way, he was trying to protect me.
In my eyes, once finally the rose tinted glasses where removed, I could see him. He was clear as day to me now. All I could see was a boy pretending to be a man. Afraid to swallow his pride, to take a chance.
God, did I really love that?
Before I could see in time to pull away, he was hugging me. On his knees, with his face pushed into my stomach.
"I'm so sorry."
That unknown tune? Suddenly it was clear.
Anger
I nursed it in my belly. Grew it and molded it to my liking.
Don't let him see it. Stay calm, you can do this. You have to do this. No more risks. Your life isn't yours anymore. Stand up straight!
And I did. Putting as much room between us as I could despite his arms holding me. Acid burned my tongue.
"Don't touch me."
"Oh God, Bella, please don't say that. Please I beg you, just let me hold you. Give me another chance. I'll never leave again. I'll do anything you ask, be anybody you want me to be, but please let me hold you."
"Did you know?"
What a stupid question. Of course he didn't.
"Did I know? You mean about Victoria? Of course I didn't know, I would have never left -"
"No! Not about Victoria. About me."
"I knew you loved me-"
"Not about that either. God where you really that blind?" And he was suppose to have two medical degrees. Obviously he didn't pay attention in class. Probably used his mind reading to cheat off other students. I almost giggled, but swallowed it. Was this hysteria? "About Angela."
He didn't say anything, just preceded to hold me tighter.
"I'm sorry to hear about her passing, but-"
"I was pregnant Edward.I was pregnant and you left me alone."
All alone.
All alone at death's door step, I had no choice but to pull through. It wasn't about me anymore. It was about her, it was always going to be about her.
