Hello Everyone! So this was actually my first idea that i made for a story. I was a little skeptical about actually writing it, but i hope you like it. It is kinda depressing and I can assure you now, that I am not a depressed person. I just have a bit of a twisted mind. I'll be uploading hopefully every other week. I'll be switching uploading between my Light and Dark story. I hope you enjoy and I shall see you soon!

-BloodyTeddyBear

(Lucy POV)

I choked and my eyes widen. Blood dripped down my shirt and pooled near my feet. The taste of metal filled my mouth.

I fell to my knees and looked down.

A dagger was plunged through my heart.

"I am sorry. I was too weak."

Tears dragged down my face as I collapsed onto the wooden floor. Blood dripped out of my mouth and through the crevices of the wood.

Black began to cloud my vision as I felt myself falling out of consciousness.

I coughed again and felt cold. Like I was frozen in ice. There was something warm nearby, but I couldn't reach it.

I finally felt the black fully embrace me as I fell limp.

Tears. Tears fall down my face.

I was covered in darkness. Floating in nothingness.

I was gone. Never to be found.

I cried. I am gone. Empty. Lifeless. A ghost. Dead.

Regret fills me as I cry harder.

The things I could have accomplished. The places I could have gone. The people I could have met. The experiences I could have had.

But I was weak.

I was unworthy.

I didn't deserve any of those things.

I am dead.

I am floating in the madness that is death. I grasp my throat.

What do I do?

Where do I go?

Who do I see?

How?

I clutch my head in frustration and scream.

A terrifying, painful, pitiful scream.

When nothing but my echo resounds, I cry.

I weep.

Until I hear voices.

Then light.

I am ecstatic.

The light fades to a forest.

I frown.

Why am I tortured with my imaginations of still living?

Something moves.

A squirrel? A mouse? A cat?

No. Too small.

A bear? Tiger? Wolf?

No. Too big.

A human?

Yes. A human.

Why must I be tortured so?

Pink. Pink hair.

No. I don't want- I mustn't see- it isn't-

But it is.

Tears march down my cheeks uncontrollably.

I don't want to see him.

I fall to my knees making a stick crack.

His ears twitch and he looks to me.

A pathetic, crying me.

But how? How can he see me? I am dead. A corpse.

He walks to me and offers his hand. I look up to his worried face.

Those onyx eyes that held so much fire. The teeth that could pierce through flesh. The pink ruffled hair. The white scaly scarf given to him by a dragon.

Natsu Dragneel.

One of the people who helped break my heart.

He is now staring at me, motioning for me to take his calloused hand. I refuse.

This isn't real.

Everything is fake.

My fingers grasp the grass and steal its life, making it grey.

"No." I choke.

"Get up." He says.

"This isn't real." I plea.

"It's all fake." I state.

"I shouldn't be here. I can't be here. Nothing is real!"

His eyes narrow and he grabs my arm, pulling me into a hug.

I realize that he is taller than me now. My height stops at his abdomen.

Am I shorter?

I pull out of his embrace an rush to a nearby pond. I fall to my knees to look at my reflection.

I am not me.

Blue eyes. Black hair. Black lace dress. Pale skin. Blue tinted lips. 8- year old body.

"I'm not me. This isn't me. Me is not this. I... I ... What is going on?" I shouted breaking into more tears.

"This isn't real. It can't be." I pulled my knees to my chest and buried my face in between.

"Excuse me. Are you alright?" I forgot he was there.

"You aren't real. I'm not real. Nothing is real. I'm not... I'm supposed to be..." I sobbed.

I felt his hand on my shoulder. I felt his sympathy. No I heard his sympathy. His thoughts. I could hear his thoughts? I could hear his thoughts!

What is wrong with me? I'm supposed to be dead. In that cold, dark world. Where I would pity myself. Where I could reflect on everything and accept being dead.

This isn't dead. I'm real. I'm not being crushed by madness. I'm not dead. At least. I think I'm not.

"Where am I, Natsu?" I whispered, knowing he would hear.

"You are in the East Forest. How did you not know? Why do you know my name?"

"Mind reading I think. I'm supposed to be somewhere else though. I don't know why I'm here. It was dark. I liked it. Now it's light and I'm reminded of... Sadness. The sadness I had." Why am I rambling?

"Get up." He demanded as he turned my head to look at him. "You said 'had'. Don't be sad anymore. Be happy. Staying in the dark isn't healthy. Especially for someone so small like you." He grabbed my arm and forced me up into another hug.

"The light isn't sad. So don't be sad." My face stayed emotionless. "Be happy." He commanded.

"I can't be happy." I said softly.

"Of course you can be happy."

"No. I can't. My face won't show happy." He pulled away from the hug and looked at my emotionless face. His eyebrows furrowed.

"We'll fix that."

"Who is we?"

"Fairy Tail." He said smiling that toothy grin that I used to find hope from. He started to pull me towards Fairy Tail.

"No."

"Huh?"

"I said no. I'm not supposed to be happy. If I was supposed to be happy, then I would be stuck with a happy face. But I'm not. I'm stuck with this face." I felt more tears fall.

"Just because you look one way, doesn't mean you have to act like it. Like Gajeel."

"Who?" I asked like I didn't know.

"Gajeel. He is a metal headed idiot, but he has a soft side. He almost killed my friend Lu-," he paused with a sad expression, "my old friend once because of money. Now, he is part of the guild though and is friends with a bookworm." He laughed.

"Who is your 'old friend'?" I asked hoping it was me.

"Her name was Lucy. She used to be my best friend." He said with teary eyes. He looked to the ground.

"Was?" I questioned.

"It's a long story." He frowned.

"I'm not busy."

He sighed "Well one of my other friends came back 'from the dead', she wasn't really dead, but that's a different story. Anyways, she came back and I was so excited to see her I forgot about Lucy. She asked me to go on missions with her, but I was too busy with my other friend," He looked away trying to hide tears, " I decided to go on a mission with her one day, but it went badly."

"What happened?" I asked wanting to know his point of view.

"The mission was to take down a dark guild. I decided that I would take the stronger mages and show off. She finished her part easily, I guess I underestimated her," He smiled a sad smile, "she got stronger after all that time that I ignored her," his frown returned, "So I was fighting and she decided that she would help me. They were stronger than I thought. We fought together for a while and I started to get tired. Next thing I know, she was shouting for me to look out. I heard her coughing and looked to her. She..." He coughed, "she had a dagger plunged through her heart." He looked away and started to cry, " I finished fighting all of the dark mages and I rushed to her side. She said she was sorry. Sorry for being too weak. I trued to tell her she wasn't weak. I tried to carry her to the guild and have Wendy help, but I got there too late. She was dead." He sobbed.

"Oh. I'm sorry."

"Don't be. I was rambling. You were just curious. I'm sorry for making you feel bad."

I tried to smile but it came out as more tears.

He sniffled and wiped his nose on his sleeve, "So you already know that I'm Natsu. What's your name?"

My name? I can't use my real name. It wouldn't sound right. I'm a different person, or I think I'm a person. It's like a new character in a story. This is where being a writer comes in handy. It's still difficult. I guess that will do.

"Hart. Elle Hart." I replied.

He smiled, "It is nice to meet you Elle. Are you a Mage?"

I don't know what I am, but I feel magic inside of me. "Yes."

"Do you want to come with me to Fairy Tail?"

"Your guild?"

"Yeah. Why not?"

"Sure."

He grabbed my hand and dragged my towards Fairy Tail.

Fairy Tail. Home. I inwardly smiled and felt light. I felt a picture of wings in my head. Next thing I knew my back became heavy.

I looked behind me and saw them. White wings.

I am dead.

But I am an angel.

No.

DONE

So this was chapter 1. I hope you enjoyed. Please review and all that good stuff. I shall see you soon!

-BloodyTeddyBear