A/N: Okay so I thought I would write this about Season 5. We know that Deeks went through some pretty bad things in the Season 4 Finale. We also know that in Season 5 we start to learn more about his past and growing up. So I figured I would write something about it. Obviously this won't be what happens in the show, but it was fun to write anyways. We really only know a handful of things that happened to Deeks growing up. He was abused by his drunk dad, he shot him when he was eleven and then after that we know nothing. We don't know anything about his mother or if Deeks is her maiden name or not. Also the writers had his father die, but they also said that at a thanksgiving dinner six years ago his father shot a shotgun at him, but missed. Which, doesn't add up to the fact that his father was in prison and died, before Deeks ever saw him again.
So my story is about Deeks getting a call that his mother and step-father are in jail. He has to get them out and of course there is always a twist to bring the team into a new case. Deeks' step-father has vital information about a cartel that is pushing military grade weapons overseas. The team learns some very disturbing pieces of information regarding Deeks' past.
WARNINGS: MENTIONS OF PAST CHILD ABUSE, VIOLENCE AND BAD WORDS.
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Chapter 1
The sounds of screaming and the drill could be heard throughout the room. Sam wanted to tear his eyes away and not watch as a man that had saved his life gets tortured. Sam couldn't though, he couldn't get his body to listen to him and close his eyes so he wouldn't have to see this. This was a man that he had insulted his character. Sam didn't want Deeks to watch his back. He had thought less of him, because of how he acted during the day. Deeks wasn't serious and professional all day at work. He joked around and the banter he had between Kensi was annoying at times to the Navy Seal. Yet here he was alive, because Deeks had saved his life and now he was being tortured so his wife wouldn't be made. Deeks didn't deserve the shit that he put him through during the day. Sam always thought that he wasn't going to be good enough to be an Agent. That he didn't have his trust, because of the way he acted. What Sam never realized before was that when it mattered Deeks was serious and he could shot just as good as the rest of them. Deeks had more than earned Sam's trust before all of this happened and yet Sam had refused to look at Deeks as an equal. He was never going to make that mistake again.
The drilling and screaming stopped and Sam was praying that this was going to be over. Sam knew otherwise though, these men were sadistic and they weren't going to stop until they were both dead. He could hear Isaac's voice asking Deeks once again if Quinn was an undercover agent. Deeks didn't talk he just shook his head no and Sam knew that more pain was going to be coming his way. One of the muscle man that was helping Isaac torture the information out of them grabbed a knife. He cut the front of Deeks' jacket and shirt so his chest and stomach were bare. The man took the short knife and then slowly pushed it into the Deeks' side. Deeks didn't scream he just made a groan sound as the knife went into his skin. Isaac asked him once again and again Deeks shook his head no. The man holding the knife slowly slide the knife into another part of Deeks' stomach. The knife was short so it wouldn't kill him right away. It would make him bleed and if they were here too long Deeks would die from blood loss. They did this four more times and by the end of it Deeks had six shallow stab wounds to his stomach and sides. Isaac was getting pissed off that they couldn't break Deeks. He decided that he was going to take this to a whole new level.
"Hand me the drill." Isaac said.
The one muscle man handed over the drill and the other one went to hold Deeks' head still. Isaac turned the drill on and started to drill on the inside of Deeks' jaw. Deeks started to scream again as Isaac drilled through his jaw bone.
"You don't want to talk then I'll make it so you can't." Isaac said.
Sam was close to tears from just watching this. Deeks was younger than him and the Seal in Sam had made him want to protect Deeks. He was annoying, but he didn't deserve this. Deeks was going through this, because of his wife. It wasn't Deeks' job to protect his wife and part of Sam wanted to scream out that Quinn was an Agent just to make this end for Deeks. Sam didn't know how long it was before the drilling had stopped once again. Sam could tell that Isaac was pissed off and that wasn't going to end well for Deeks.
"Let's see if some time will make him come to his senses." Isaac said as he ripped off the metal device in Deeks' mouth.
The three men left the room and Sam could hear them leaving down the hall somewhere. He heard a door closed and he took the risk in speaking. His own body was still screaming in pain at him, but it was nothing compared to Deeks. Sam could see the blood running down Deeks' face from the drill and Sam knew that his jaw was easily broken in multiple places.
"Deeks" Sam whispered. "I'm so sorry"
Sam watched in horror as Deeks' head dropped forward and Sam knew that he had passed out. Sam wished he knew how long they had been here for. He wished he had some way of getting out of this chair so he could get them out of here. Sam knew that Deeks should be awake, but he didn't have it in him to try and get him to stay conscious. Sam didn't know how long it was before the men came back into Deeks' room. Deeks hadn't moved the whole time and Sam was starting to get scared for the younger man's health. The two muscle men didn't even say anything they just started to punch Deeks on the head and in the body. The first blow woke Deeks up and his mind couldn't even register what was happening. It was all just getting to be too much for Deeks to handle. He could feel his body getting weaker as the blood from the stab wounds still bleed. They finally stopped and Isaac asked once again about Quinn, but Deeks continued to shake his head no. Isaac grabbed a metal bar that was lying on the ground and he slammed it into Deeks' wrist multiple times. Sam could hear the snapping of bones from each blow. Deeks' body was shaking from the level of pain that he was in. Blood was dripping down his face from the beating. His stomach was covered in blood from the stab wounds and Sam could already see some bruising from the blows. Isaac asked again and Sam felt his heart drop with each time Deeks was asked that question. Sam knew that Deeks wouldn't break; he would have done it by now. Deeks was prepared to be tortured to death just to protect Sam's wife. Isaac threw the metal pole at the wall and Sam knew that he was getting to the point where he could just kill Deeks. Isaac grabbed a pair of pliers and grabbed Deeks' right hand. He held Deeks' hand still while he started to pull out his finger nails one by one. Deeks was too weak to even scream from the pain. His mind was going fuzzy and he honestly didn't know how much longer he was going to last.
Once Isaac was done with his right hand he moved to Deeks' left hand. Isaac was reaching the end of his line and with all ten fingernails removed Isaac still wasn't calm. The banging caught everyone's attention and Sam turned to see Callen, Kensi, Michelle and a few other Agents storming the place. Relief flooded through Sam's entire body at the fact that it was over now. The banging also got the attention of Isaac and his two men. They turned just in time for them to be shot. Isaac took one to the leg and his two men took one to their heads. Callen, Kensi and Michelle checked on Sam while the other Agents handcuffed Isaac and dragged him out. Kensi didn't even waste any time before she went over to Deeks who was barely conscious. She couldn't believe all of the blood that was covering his body.
"You alright baby?" Michelle asked Sam as Callen worked on his bindings.
"Eric we need those ambulances." Callen said into his ear wig.
"They're two minutes out Callen." Eric replied.
"Status update Mr. Callen." Hetty said.
"Isaac has been shot in the leg and his two men were shot in the head. Sam appears to be fine I'm not sure about Deeks."
"We'll meet you at the hospital." Hetty said.
"Sam, are you alright?" Callen asked.
"I'm fine you need to help Deeks. He's in bad shape G." Came Sam's shaky reply.
Callen gave a nod and headed into the other room where Kensi was with Deeks. Callen couldn't believe how bad of shape Deeks was in. He was covered in blood and it was clear to the Ex-CIA Agent that he had been tortured. Kensi had her hands on the side of Deeks' face trying to get him to talk. He was awake, but barely and Callen could see him fighting to stay awake.
"Deeks talk to me. Come on stay with me." Kensi said pleadingly.
Callen went and cut the ropes that were keeping Deeks to the chair.
"Come on Deeks say something." Kensi pleaded again.
"I don't think he can. His jaw looks broken." Callen said.
"Where the hell are the medics?" Kensi asked with some anger in her voice.
"Eric said they are two minutes out. We need to get him on the ground and put pressure on the stab wounds." Callen said.
Kensi got up and Callen very gently placed his one hand under Deeks' arm and the other around Deeks' shoulders so he could turn him. Deeks screamed at the movement and Callen instantly stopped.
"I'm sorry Deeks, but we need you on the ground to help stop the bleeding. You're losing too much blood." Callen said.
Callen did his best to be gentle as he moved Deeks off the chair and down on the floor. Deeks' body was shaking from the pain that he was in and they could tell he was having a hard time breathing. Callen figured that he must be bleeding internally into his lungs. Both Kensi and Callen put their hands on the two stab wounds that were bleeding the most. Deeks groaned at the contact and Kensi and Callen tried to keep Deeks calm.
"Hang on Deeks the medics will be here any minute." Callen said.
"How is he G?"
Kensi and Callen looked up to see Sam standing up with Michelle holding him up.
"You need to sit down Sam. The medics need to check you out." Callen said.
"He's right baby you need to sit down." Michelle said.
Sam slowly sat down onto the ground with his back against the wall.
"How is he?" Sam asked.
"He's in bad shape. He needs to get to a hospital." Callen said.
The paramedics came into the room and two went to Sam and the other two went to Deeks. They asked Sam a bunch of questions, but his eyes and attention was fixed on Deeks. He had passed out and the medics were rushing to get him onto a backboard and out of the building. They didn't even hook up an IV to him. Sam knew that was a bad sign and Kensi ran out with them. Callen helped Sam outside and into an ambulance. Michelle went with him and Callen instructed the agents to take Isaac to a hospital for his bullet wound to the leg and not to leave him alone. Callen gave them strict instructions not to let him out of their sight regardless of what anyone at the hospital said. Isaac was holding two nuclear bombs and they still didn't have the location of where they were being held. Once the Agents told Callen they understood, Callen got into his car and took off to the hospital after his two injured teammates.
At the hospital everyone was there, even Granger. They had been waiting close to five hours before a doctor came out to them.
"Sam Hannah?" The Doctor asked.
Michelle went over to him and the others stood off to the side and behind her. They didn't want to crowd, but they did want to hear what the doctor had to say.
"Yes I'm his wife Michelle. These are the people he works with."
"I'm under the impression that Mr. Hannah is an agent with NCIS is that correct?"
"He is one of my Agents." Hetty said.
"And you are alright with them hearing about his condition?" The doctor asked Michelle.
"Yes that's fine."
"Very well, my name is Doctor Richmond I am the attending physician for Mr. Hannah. From what my tests have been able to tell and from what Mr. Hannah has told me he was electrocuted multiple times. Somewhere around the neighborhood of five. Obviously with electrocution it is a serious matter and there are many unknowns involved. There have been people who got electrocuted from a light socket and have died. On the other-side there have been people struck by lightning and have been able to live like it never happened. We ran extensive tests on Mr. Hannah and from what we can tell he will make a full recovery. With that being said he does have a few second degree burns on his skin from the entry and exit wounds from the electrical currant. His heart is beating irregularly and we need to monitor his heart for the next twenty-four hours. If it does not go back into a normal rhythm then we will need to insert a pacemaker to correct the problem. His limbs may still twitch randomly for the next few days, but all of it will go back to normal. I want to keep him here for at least five days to make sure that there are no complications. Do you have any questions?"
"So there's no mental damage done or permanent damage?" Michelle asked.
"From the tests that I have run I don't see any. Mr. Hannah never lost consciousness which is a very good sign. He's awake right now and is talking and is alert. He remembers everything that happened all of which are good signs. He has not suffered any complications from the drowning other than some bruising on his chest from the CPR."
"Drowning?" Michelle asked.
"You weren't aware that Mr. Hannah drowned?" The doctor asked with confusion in his voice.
"We were on an operation and we lost contact with Mr. Hannah and Mr. Deeks. We know nothing about him drowning." Hetty said.
"I don't know the whole story. What I can tell you is that Mr. Hannah told me that he had drowned. Someone gave him CPR I can only speculate, but my best guess would be that Mr. Deeks revived him. You would have to ask them about the situation."
"We will. Sam's going to make a full recovery though?" Callen asked.
"He will. Physically he will be able to be back at work in two weeks. Mentally you would need to speak with a therapist for that answer. I'm not sure what happened to either of these men, but I think it would be good for him to speak to a professional about it."
"Mr. Hannah and Mr. Deeks will be going through many hours of therapy over this before they return to duty." Hetty said.
"Do you know anything about Deeks?" Kensi asked.
"I'm not his doctor so I don't have any information for you. I did see his condition when he came in and they took him to surgery right away. I know it's frustrating, but no news is good news right now. I'll see what I can do about having someone come and update you once they can."
"Thank-you doctor." Hetty said.
"This isn't the normal protocol, but based on the situation you all can wait in Mr. Hannah's room if you wish. He is awake and asking about his wife. I can let Mr. Deeks' doctor know that you will be there."
"Thank-you doctor I think we will take you up on that." Hetty said.
"He is in room 304."
The doctor left them in the waiting room so he could try and get information about Deeks' condition. They all made their way to Sam's room and when they went in Michelle went right to Sam's bedside. She hugged him and Sam held onto her for his dear life.
"I was so worried that you had been made." Sam said.
"I was made, but Kensi saved me. How are you feeling?"
"I'm fine. How's Deeks?"
"We don't know yet. Now how are you really feeling Sam?" Callen asked.
"I don't know what went wrong G."
"You did nothing wrong. It was Janvier who made you. This is all my fault, I should have seen this coming. He blames me for everything that Iran did to him. He took the first chance he had to betray us and get to you."
"Agent Hannah I know that you've been through something traumatic, but can you tell us what you remember." Granger said.
"Everything was fine. Michelle left and we were going to take the gold to a safe location. Sidorov had one of his men carry the one case and I was to carry the other. He had both of us handcuff the case to ourselves so we couldn't steal it. He had the other man hold onto the keys for when we reached the location. I had my back turned on Sidorov as his other man spoke to me. He hit me over the head with something and I fell into the pool. I remember trying to get out, but the case was too heavy so I was fighting with it. I felt them using something to hold me down into the water. The next thing I know I'm tied up to some chair in a bright room."
"Mr. Deeks radioed in saying that you were in trouble and he had to go in. I think it's safe to assume that he got you out of the pool and performed CPR based on what the doctor said." Hetty said.
"Deeks must have traded his gun for the keys." Kensi said.
"How long were we gone for?"
"You've been missing for two days Sam." Callen said.
"I was mean to him G. I told him I didn't trust him and that it was because of his character. I could tell that he was hurt by it, but he didn't say anything. He saved my life and then he refused to give up Michelle as an Agent. They spent at least a day torturing him and he wouldn't do it no matter what they did to him. He refused to give her up. They put this metal thing in his mouth and drilled into his teeth and into his jaw. They stabbed him, beat him, they pulled his fingernails out of his hands and he still wouldn't do it. Yet there I was just a few days before all of this telling him that his character made me not trust him. I was so stupid not to see that he hides behind his humor."
"Mr. Deeks is a very talented undercover cop. He's one of L.A's best undercover operators. Mr. Deeks can hide behind an alias at a drop of a hat and on many occasions he hides who he truly is. As you all know he came from a horrible childhood and was always told he wasn't good enough or worth anything. Part of him still and will always believe that. However, he has been able to see the positive things in life and he knows how it feels to be in a life or death situation. As such he tends to rely on humor to lighten the mood. He's done it many times while you all are out on a mission." Hetty said.
"It helps. The humor and the horrible jokes it lightens the mood and helps keep at least me grounded." Kensi said.
"We might never know who Deeks truly is. We see parts of him here and there, but who Deeks is at the core we probably will never know." Callen said.
"He always thought you didn't like him or trust him because he's a cop." Eric said.
Eric and Nell had been quiet this whole time. They were a part of the team, but they did something completely different then everyone else. They were techs and almost never in the field. They did what they did and they loved doing it, but that didn't mean they understood what to do in this type of situation.
"That had a lot to do with it. He doesn't have the same type of training that we do. Sure he can shoot, but that didn't mean much to me. He doesn't think the same way the rest of us do and just because he can change who he is wasn't enough for me. I judged him and I underestimated him." Sam said.
"Detective Deeks never went to the federal academy; however, he does have more than enough training for this job. Deeks is a lot smarter than he lets everyone believe. Deeks passed the bar exam on the first try and has the record highest score still to this day. He has survived eight years as an undercover detective and in those eight years he has been on over two hundred operations. Totally over sixteen hundred arrests. Deeks is one of the best cops L.A has. Those experiences from being undercover, has given him the training for this job. If I didn't think he was good enough I wouldn't have let him stay on." Granger said.
"Sixteen hundred people?" Kensi was shocked that the number was that high.
"Mr. Deeks has been on mostly long term undercovers with white supremacist, gangs, drug lords and human traffickers. When he takes down an organization they arrest everyone involved. Mr. Deeks is very good at getting the whole organization together for the take down. Resulting in large number arrests." Hetty explained.
"Wow" Nell said.
"Mr. Deeks has a very impressive resume. That should be more than enough for you to trust him Mr. Hannah." Hetty said.
"I know and believe me I do now. He could have broken during any of that torture and I wouldn't have blamed him. I almost broke down and told them just to get them to stop and leave him alone. I couldn't watch it anymore, but I couldn't look away. Every time I looked away I felt like I was betraying him. Like by me looking at him I was being supportive which makes no sense."
"It only has to make sense to you baby." Michelle said.
"I didn't trust Deeks right away either Sam and he saved me from getting shot." Callen said.
"When did you trust him G?"
"When he saved Kensi's life at the hospital that day. He had taken two bullets to the chest and he still ran down four flights of stairs and got to her before hospital security did. He saved her life and he did it through all that pain. A lot of Agents that I have worked with wouldn't have done that. Deeks did. From that moment on I trusted him, because if he could do that to save Kensi's life then there really was no telling what he was capable of. He proved that he would do whatever it takes to protect her and I believe he would have done the same for either one of us." Callen said.
"I can't believe I underestimated him." Sam said.
"Everyone makes mistakes Sam. Deeks takes a little while to get used to and there are many times he is annoying. He's a good man though and he would have been more than happy to die in that room if it meant that Michelle was safe. It's the same for your kids. You didn't want him anywhere near them, but he was amazing with them. Kids love Deeks and he would do anything to keep them safe." Kensi said.
"I know they did. That's all they would talk about for days afterwards. They kept asking when he would be back over to play with them. I've been so stupid."
Sam shook his head. He was a Navy Seal and he couldn't believe he didn't see through Deeks. He had judged him and that wasn't fair to Deeks at all. Sam knew that he would have to make it up to him and Sam found himself hoping for that chance. It was another five hours before the doctor knocked on Sam's door and came into the very full room.
"Family of Detective Deeks?"
"Yes that is us." Hetty said.
"My name is Doctor Andrews I am the primary doctor on Detective Deeks' case. Let me start by saying that Detective Deeks is alive. He is incredibly injured though. I'll start at the top and work my way down."
Doctor Andrews went over to the X-Ray display that was in the room and he put up Deeks' films.
"This is Detective Deeks' brain as you can see there are some darker spots on his brain those are bruises. This line right here is the fracture in his skull. His brain is what concerns me the most. The bruising and the skull fracture are very severe and brain damage is a serious issue."
"What kind of brain damage?" Kensi asked.
"It's hard to say from what I can see he already has an old injury that has sustained a small amount of brain damage. Does he have a speech impediment?"
"He has a drawl." Kensi said.
"Are you saying his drawl is from brain damage?" Callen asked.
"It is yes. The injury is old he would have been around seven or eight. It's not in his records as to what happened for him to obtain the injury, but you can still see the result on his scans."
"Seven or eight?" Kensi couldn't believe that Deeks had brain damage. She could clearly remember all the times she had made fun of his drawl.
"I'll explain later." Hetty said. "Please continue doctor."
"It's not clear that there will be any brain damage. We won't know until he is awake and aware to do more neurological testing. However, while the skull fracture and the bruising heal he will have some problems. His hands will shake, he will have dizzy spells, be exhausted, uncoordinated, he could have short term memory problems. So he might ask you a question and five minutes later ask you again without even remembering he asked you once before. Again once the skull fracture and bruising heals these problems should go away. Are there any questions about that?"
"How long will it take to heal?" Sam asked.
"Four to six weeks. Until his skull fracture is healed it is very important that he doesn't obtain a further head injury. It's best for him to be inside and in a car for as little as possible for roughly six weeks. At least until a doctor can confirm that the skull fracture is healed. Now his face has some deep bruising and his left cheek took ten stitches. His jaw was the worst. Multiple holes were drilled through his teeth and into his jaw bone. His jaw was broken in six different places. As such we had to insert metal plates to structure and hold his jaw in place until the bones heal. He'll need to see a dental surgeon about his teeth and see what is salvageable and what isn't. His jaw will be very painful for a good six weeks. With pain medication the pain can be managed and kept to a bearable level. Once his jaw is no longer broken the pain will decrease until he will no longer need pain medication however, that could take months before the pain is completely gone. Your jaw bone is strong, but it can take the longest to heal and is the most painful while it is healing. Once his jaw bone is healed then the metal plates can be removed. Are there any questions about that?"
No one said anything so the doctor continued on.
"Next we have the stab wounds. There were six in total and all of which were shallow wounds. He was lucky that the knife was not very long otherwise he would have bleed out long before he arrived here. I was able to repair the damage as well as the internal bleeding from the stabbing and the beating his torso took. We had to remove his spleen due to the level of damage done to it. His right wrist is broken we have placed it in a cast. It will take at least six weeks to heal. There are a total of two hundred stitches on his torso and he will be in a lot of pain until his wounds have healed. He needs to be careful about getting the stitches wet and no salt water. He looks like a surfer to me."
"He lives at the beach." Kensi said.
"He can still be at the beach just not in the water until the stitches come out. The salt water is great for preventing infection, but it will irritate his wounds and skin from the stitches. Obviously his chest is covered in bruising he has two broken ribs and three cracked ribs. He's in for a long recovery physically. He will though make a full recovery as long as his brain doesn't experience anymore trauma. I don't expect him to be waking up within the next three days so don't worry if he doesn't. His body went through a lot and is in a great deal of pain it needs to heal and sleep is the best thing for him right now. We do have him on pain medication for when he does wake up he won't be in a lot of pain, but it might make him out of it and confused so be patient with him."
"He's going to be okay though eventually?" Kensi asked.
"Physically he will be alright pending any complications. Mentally that is a whole other ball game. He's a detective and has seen some horrible things and based on past X-Rays and scans that I have seen he's been through a lot before this. That doesn't change that he was tortured for at least a day. He will be traumatized by this and the sooner he can talk to a professional the better for him. I'm not a practising therapist I can tell you that he could experience panic attacks, flashbacks, insomnia, phantom pain, nightmares, he might be able to still hear the drilling, paranoia, and irritability. Even going to the dentist and being in that chair, if the dentist needs to use a drill he might not be able to physically do it. I would suggest that once he wakes up and is conscious enough to talk that he sees a professional right away. He needs his parents and any siblings if he has them. He needs his family to help support him in this recovery, because there will be times when he just wants to give up and quit. He might need help financially. LAPD insurance only covers sixty percent in medical bills and they don't cover dental. Based on what I've seen he needs at least eight thousand in dental work. He's going to need the support of his family to try and survive this."
"We are his family. We're all he has." Callen said.
"Detective Deeks will also be under NCIS insurance. This happened while he was on our time doing an operation for us. His medical and dental will be fully covered." Granger said.
"Good that's one less thing for him to worry about. Do you have any questions about his health physically or mentally?"
"When can he surfer again?" Kensi asked.
"Mentally speaking I think if he is like most surfers they find it therapeutic so I would suggest as soon as he physically can. Now physically speaking at last eight weeks and then that depends on his wrist. I would suggest he doesn't do it alone just in case something happens."
"So he'll be healed physically in eight weeks." Eric asked.
"Assuming he doesn't do anything to reinjure his injures, between six to eight weeks he'll be healed."
"Can we see him?" Kensi asked.
"You can one at a time. He's in the ICU right now in room 509."
"Thank-you doctor." Hetty said.
"If you have any further questions you can have a nurse page me."
The doctor said as he made his way out of the room. The room was silent for a few minutes as everyone let their minds absorb what they had just heard. Deeks was alive, but he was far from okay. Mentally it was going to take Deeks a long time before he was able to recover from this.
"That was very nice of you to offer to pay under NCIS insurance Owen." Hetty said.
"He went through enough he shouldn't have to worry about medical bills to go with it. I'm going to check in with the other agents and see if Sidorov is talking."
"Let me know if he is awake." Hetty said.
"Will do. Feel better Agent Hannah."
Sam didn't say anything as Granger went outside to contact the agents that were with Sidorov. The room was silent once again and no one knew what to say. To find out that Deeks went through so much in such a short time was unbearable. Deeks was always the one they could count on to make them laugh and un-tense a situation. Now it seemed like that part of him would no longer exist.
"I need to go and see him. I need to be there for when he wakes up." Kensi said.
"I'll go with you." Callen said.
"Hold on for a few minutes. Mr. Deeks won't be waking up for a few days so you can stay here for a few more minutes while I explain what happened growing up. Mr. Deeks won't ever tell you, but I think now you deserve to know. When Mr. Deeks was seven his father had attacked him one night. His father was a horrible monster especially when he drank and Mr. Deeks and his mother were always to ones on the receiving end. Unfortunately Mr. Deeks' mother was not very supportive of him or protective. She would often direct his father's anger towards him so she wouldn't be beaten. One night his father had taken the abuse to a different level. He beat Mr. Deeks for hours and with anything he could get his hands on. He even used his belt to whip him. Once he was done he left Mr. Deeks in the room and he was there for two days unconscious until his mother went into the room. They brought him to the hospital and claimed that he was attacked by a babysitter; that they had been away for three days. He was beaten into a coma and spent three months in the coma before he gained consciousness. His parents never visited him. When he woke up that was when the doctors first discovered the brain damage. Mr. Deeks had to learn how to write, read and talk all over again. The brain damage gave him his speech impediment and made it impossible for him to spell words. If Mr. Deeks is asked to spell a word he's never seen before he can't. He can spell based on memory, he memorised the spelling of words from reading them and writing them out over and over again. It took him a very long time before he was able to recover from the brain damage and he did it on his own."
"How was this man never arrested?" Callen asked.
"When Mr. Deeks woke up from the coma he couldn't talk or write. So when the detective asked him about what happened all Mr. Deeks could do was shake his head no. He was just seven years old and terrified of his father. Even if he could have talked he wouldn't have. It didn't stop there he was in the hospital multiple times until he was eleven. Always a different hospital so they didn't have any records of previous visits and there was always a legitimate excuse for the injuries. When he was eleven his father had beaten his mother and him very badly. He had a loaded shotgun aimed at his head and Mr. Deeks grabbed the thirty-eight revolver; that Ray had given him a few months before. He shot just as his father's finger went to squeeze the trigger. Neighbors heard the gunshot and called 9-1-1. When the police and ambulance got there Mr. Deeks was unconscious and his father was shot in the stomach. It was ruled as self-defence and his father received a seven year sentence."
"Seven years for child abuse and attempted murder?" Sam said angrily.
"His mother refused to testify against him and Mr. Deeks wasn't mentally and emotionally able to do it. They had tried, but he couldn't get the words out on the stand, he had a panic attack and the case was settled outside of the court. His mother agreed to the seven year sentence for domestic abuse and it was over."
"So, because he was too traumatised to talk they just let the man off basically." Kensi said.
"Unfortunately they did. Although, it's a moot point now considering he is dead."
"They let him stay with his mother?" Nell asked.
"They did. They felt that she was a victim just like he was and with his father gone she would raise him better." Hetty said.
"That wasn't true though was it?" Eric asked.
"No it wasn't. She was a wreck from everything that happened. She blamed Mr. Deeks for her husband going to jail. She got heavily into drugs and drinking and often took her anger out on him. There were many times Mr. Deeks would be locked out of the house for weeks. He would have to live on the streets until she let him back into the house. He would stay at Ray's, but Ray's father was abusive as well so it was never a safe place to be either." Hetty answered.
"He didn't have anywhere to go to feel safe. That's really sad for a child to go through." Michelle said.
"It is sad, but he doesn't have to go through that anymore. He has a family now and we will be there for him through this." Hetty said.
"I should go see him. I need to see him." Kensi said.
"I'll come with you and then I'll go back to Ops and see if I can find these nukes." Callen said.
"Miss. Jones and Mr. Beale you two should go back as well and try to locate these nuclear weapons. We have Sidorov is custody, but he most likely won't talk. We need to find any location that might be in his name that he could have these nukes being stored." Hetty said.
"Got it." Eric said.
"As for you Mr. Hannah rest and take it easy. We will worry about everything else. I will call and check in later to make sure you are doing alright. "
"Yes ma'am."
"Don't worry I'll make sure he doesn't get out of this bed." Michelle said.
"Come on now everyone let Mr. Hannah rest we all have work to do." Hetty said.
"Take care Sam. I'll come see you later." Kensi said.
"See ya Sam." Eric said.
"Bye" Nell said.
"I'll come by later partner."
"Be safe G."
Everyone, but Michelle left the room and they headed off in different directions. Hetty, Nell and Eric went to leave the hospital as Kensi and Callen went to Deeks' room. They both stood at the door to Deeks' hospital room and they both couldn't believe how horrible he looked. He was covered in bruising and wires. There was a steady beeping sound from the heart monitor and Kensi took comfort in that. They made their way over to Deeks' bed and they didn't say anything. They could see the bruising and his chest was covered in gauze from the stab wounds. He had an oxygen mask on his face to help him breathe. Kensi sat down in the one chair that was by the bed and she took his hand into hers. She could see the tip of his fingers were red with some dried blood on them. His fingernails were pulled out and Kensi knew that when he woke up he would be in a great deal of pain.
"He'll be okay Kensi. Deeks is strong, a lot stronger than people give him credit for. He survived his childhood and he'll survive this. We'll get him through this."
"I can't imagine what he went through. What if there is more brain damage. I didn't even know he had any. He knows about my father and my mother and my childhood, but I know nothing about his. How is that possible? I've been working beside him for three years and I know nothing about him."
"You know a lot more about Deeks then you think. Sure you don't know what his childhood was like. You don't know about his past, but you know the man that he is today. At the end of the day does his past really matter?"
"It doesn't matter to me what his past is, but I should know about it. I told Monica that what he has done in his past doesn't matter to me. That everything he did was to keep his alias, an alias that has saved a lot of innocent live and I meant everything I said. He's a good man and I trust him with everything in me, but it seems like he doesn't trust me. He could have told me about growing up, but he didn't. He didn't trust me with that information."
"It's not an easy topic Kensi. He probably can't talk about a lot of it and he probably didn't want you looking at him differently. Don't take it personal it really isn't you. It's Deeks and how his mind works. It wouldn't surprise me if he can still hear his father yelling at him. During the day Deeks is always full of humor and jokes. He can be a completely different person at a drop of a hat, but at the end of the day when he is at home all alone. That's when the issues hit. Deeks hides it well, but I'm willing to bet my life that he has self-esteem issues, nightmares from it still and still a lot of hurt from it all. Give him time and when he wakes up talk to him about it. It might do him some good to talk about it for a change."
"I will and hopefully he'll talk to me about it."
"I'm sure he will just give him some time. I should get going we need to still find these nukes. Call me if something happens or if you need anything."
"Ya, good luck."
Callen left Kensi in the hospital room alone with her sleeping partner. Kensi kept his hand in hers as she sat back and waited for him to wake up.
