You wonder if the regeneration feels like dying.
Part of you hopes it does just so he knows what he did to you.
But mostly you just want to save the Doctor from more pain.
Why is this taking so long? Yes Rose I know his entire body's reforming itself.
How must that feel; to always come back as a new person with a different face, with different likes and dislikes?
Does it hurt, having to start from scratch? Can he feel anything while it's happening?
Does he head, just for a second, into Oblivion?
Does he feel them? The ones he's put there. Do they reach for him as they do for you?
No it wasn't your fault Rose and neither is this.
Part of you wants to reach out and touch the fire coming off him. Maybe that would cure you. Or kill you, not that there's any difference between the two.
You don't of course because you've got Gwen and Ianto waiting back at the Hub and you can't abandon them again.
They're you're team now but when you hear his voice it gets difficult to remember that you are no longer in the TARDIS.
You do wish you could die but you aren't ready for it, not yet.
Ianto says there are worse things than eternal life and you try not to listen.
Eternal death. (But even that didn't last forever.)
Dying before you get a chance to live. (That's hardly going to happen in this job is it?)
Stuck in a room for the rest of your life, staring at the same four walls. ("Walls crumble and prisons fall") That one reminds you of Tosh, just as the one before was meant for Owen.
Being dissected and torn apart to find how you work. (You've already lived through that.)
Then he finds one you can't argue with.
"Living forever and watching everyone you care about die until your heart hardens and you can't feel anymore." (Isn't it the same thing though?)
Then the Doctor comes back and he's the same person and you wonder if, maybe this time, he did die. But then he explains that it was the hand and that ruins the illusion.
