A Thousand Miles

(italics means that it is a dream, bold italics are the lyrics to the song, Kanda's view and Allen's view)

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

I was walking back to the order with my white hair shadowing my silver eyes. I walked fast not wanting to talk to anyone. I weaved my way through exorcists and finders a like headed for my room for a while.

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

I stared blankly ahead as my thoughts drifted from where I was now. My thoughts wondered to Kanda who had been sent on a mission about a year and no one has heard from him since. The mission had been in Northern Russia and was dangerous but they still had sent him by himself.

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...

I would never admit that I missed the bad tempered man and he was the one thing that haunts my every thought. I almost felt like I can't breathe when I consider that he was dead. I went to Kanda's room instead of my own and laid on the bed that I had been sleeping in for months instead of my own.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

I closed my eyes and entered the world of dreams.

Kanda walked into the room and I jolted awake. He gave the normal smirk when something amused him. "Bean sprout what are you doing here?" I didn't reply, only running over and throwing them around him as tears made their way to my eyes. "You worry too much Allen. I am alright so you can stop crying now."

I jerked awake and found that it was a mind trick. If I had a choice I would walk a thousand miles just to be in Kanda's arms tonight.

It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever
Think of me

I knelt down gasping for air as the finder did a good impression of a chicken running around without its head. I looked at the snow thinking of Allen and wondered if he was thinking of me.

'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in your
Precious memories

I hissed as I stood up, cuts and bruises littered my skin; some worse than others. I was going to make it back so I wouldn't only be alive in memories. I sighed as I walked away from the finder who was not thinking of following at all.

'Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder...

I needed to get back soon so the sprout wouldn't worry too much more and there was also that I missed the white haired male.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
Tonight

I walked faster when the train station came into view and jumped on the next train to the cost before getting on a boat taking me back to the Order. From there I ran towards my destination.

And I, I
Don't want to let you know
I, I
Drown in your memory
I, I
Don't want to let this go
I, I
Don't...

I didn't ever plan to tell anyone that I missed Kanda or the fact that we had been together only a month before he left. At the moment I felt like I was drowning in my memories of Kanda. I didn't want to move on with my life, only wanting to hold tight to his memory.

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound

Linalee and Lavi had dragged me down to the cafeteria. After I escaped them, I once more was making my way back to Kanda's room.

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd

Thoughts of the samurai passed through my mind as I slipped back through the door. I lay down on the bed and I rolled on to my side away from the door.

And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder...

Tears gathered in my silver eyes as the ach in my chest grew. I needed Kanda here right now. I cried myself to sleep.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass us by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you...

I walked into my room and found the person I was looking for. I walked over to the bed and noticed the tear trails on his pale cheeks. I put my hand on his shoulder and shook him awake. "Wake up, bean sprout. I'm home." He looked up at me trying to decide if this was a dream or not. Without a second thought I bent forward and kissed him.

If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
'Cause you know I'd walk
A thousand miles
If I could
Just see you
If I could
Just hold you
Tonight

"Kanda." I muttered into his lips as he tried to pull me closer to him and I wrapped my arms around him. He pulled away and said, "I'm sorry that I was gone for so long Allen." I pulled him down on to the bed and we both fell to sleep content for the first time in what felt like forever.