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7/1/2030
I never thought my life
would end up this way. Me, Corrina, trapped in this god-forsaken
school called Hogwarts. My life has been pure hell – ever since I
was discovered for the despicable thing I did to my love, Severus
Snape. Ever since Severus told me of his bad, early life. Ever since
Severus and I admitted our love to each other. Okay, enough
blabbering, I'll start from the beginning.
It all started
when I received my letter to attend Hogwarts school of Witch-craft
and Wizardry as a Defence against the Dark Arts (D.A.D.A) Teacher. I
accepted, packed my bags and hurried off to this new and exciting
life. My parents didn't care where I went; they've never cared
much about me. And I don't have any other relatives to rely on. So,
as you can probably guess, my childhood was not 5 star. But Hogwarts
would change all that. Or so I thought.
Anyway, I'll
continue this tomorrow.
8/1/2030
Hogwarts
seemed so big when I got there, like a big huge mansion, with magic
in the air. Dumbledore met me at the front door, his big white beard
shining in the sunlight. "Welcome to Hogwarts" he said. He showed
me around, and then escorted me to The Great Hall for the evening
feast.
As I sat down I watched as what looked like thousands
of children in Hogwarts robes flooded into the hall. I looked at
them, questions flooding into my head. Who are they all? Which ones
will I teach? Are they well behaved? Where do they sleep?
Once
everyone was seated, a thin, wrinkled old woman came into the hall
with a stool and a old, patched hat. What the hell is going on? I
thought to myself. She placed the stool in front of the teacher's
table and placed the hat on top of the stool, and then she left. She
came back a few minutes later with a whole lot of scared-looking
students. First years, I thought to myself.
They all came up
to the front of the Great Hall and surrounded the stool. The lady
unrolled a scroll and called out a name: "Emma Zanuchi". A girl
with pigtails walked up to the hat, placed it on her head and sat on
the stool. The hat sat on her head for a few moments, and then it
called out "HUFFLEPUFF!" Emma happily took off the hat and ran
over and sat at the Hufflepuff table. Ahh, I thought. A sorting
hat!
When all the first years had been sorted, Dumbledore rose
up from his seat, and started to speak.
"Welcome to another
Hogwarts year." He said. "First, I would like everyone to welcome
our new Hogwarts D.A.D.A teacher, Corrina Hobblewart."
Everyone
started to clap, while I sat there looking like a red tomato.
"Also"
said Dumbledore, "I would like to wish you all a wonderful year,
before we enjoy tonight's feast. Have a great year!"
He
then clapped his hands, and like magic, food appeared on all of the
trays, and pumpkin juice appeared in the cups.
As I started to
eat, I happened to look up across to the other side of the teacher's
table. What I saw nearly made me choke on my food. A man, a young
handsome man, with black hair as black as a pitch-black room, a
sallow nose and wearing black robes, took residence at the table. At
that moment, he looked at me, and I swear to God, all of the crushes
that I have had in my life could not override what I felt now for
this strange man. I felt a feeling that I had never experienced
before as I looked into those big, black eyes. He then looked away,
and I continued to eat.
Okay, I'm gonna stop here for
tonight.
Night.
10/1/2030
The
next morning, I was heading down into the dungeons for D.A.D.A with
2nd Year Gryffindors, when I bumped into the man again.
"Hi."
I said. "I'm Corrina. What's your name?"
He gave me a
look, which plainly said piss off, and then walked away. I shrugged
to myself, thinking maybe he had a bad day, and walked off to the
dungeons.
After my D.A.D.A class I went to the
staff room, and the man was there, reading a book. A woman was there
at the table, drinking tea. She had white hair and hawk-like eyes. I
walked past her and walked straight up to the man.
"Hello."
I said. "Sorry if I annoyed you before, but I want us to be
friends."
He looked at me straight in the eye, causing my
heart to skip a beat, and said "You pissed me off once today, don't
try me again. Take the hint!!" And he got up and left the room. I
sat down in the chair and relaxed, thinking about how to get this man
to notice me.
Just then, the hawk-eyed woman got up from the
table and walked over to me.
"You been annoying Severus,
huh?" she said.
"His.... His name is Severus?" I
asked.
"Yeah, that's right. Severus Snape, teacher of
Potions. Don't mind him, he's always in a foul mood. Best to stay
out of his way if you can help it."
I wonder why he's so
foul, I thought to myself as the woman left the room.
That
evening, I decided to go and look for Severus in the dungeons.
I
found him sitting at a cauldron, cutting up unicorn hairs.
"Hello
Severus." I said. He jumped and turned around, but when he saw it
was I, he sighed and went back to work.
"Why do you hate me
so much?" I asked. "Why are you so foul to people? There's more
to life, you know, Severus."
Severus stood up and said
"Corrina, if I wanted you to know my life story, I would have
written an autobiography and personally given you a signed copy."
Then he walked out of the dungeon.
Hmmm.... I thought to
myself.
12/1/2030
The next morning, Severus
avoided me as much as possible, or so I thought. Whenever he saw me
coming to him, he would run off. Okay, enough is enough, I thought,
as he ran off for a fifth time that day. I'm going to talk to this
man, and if that means taking drastic measures, well, so be it.
The
next time I went to the dungeons, I saw Severus standing in front of
me. Before he had a chance to see me, I grabbed him around the waist
and put one of my hands over his mouth, and pulled him into an empty
classroom.
I pinned him against the wall and said; "Now you
listen to me, Severus. You've been trying to avoid me all day,
trying to keep away from me. But that's gonna stop now. You're
going to start being nice to me or I'm going to show you what us
girls can do. Understand?"
I released my hand from his
mouth, but kept him pinned to the wall. He tried to get away, and
yelled "Piss of, bitch! You can't tell me what to do!" At that
point, I put my hand back over his mouth and said "Hmmm... not
co-oporating, I see? Well, Severus, I want us to be friends, and
until you agree to be my friend you'll be stuck here for a
loooooooooooooooooong time."
Severus stood there for a
minute, thinking. Then, as I released my hand from his mouth again,
he said, "Well, do you realize that if I agree to your demand it
will not be much of a friendship, will it?" I then fell silent,
realizing what a fool I'd been, threatening Severus like that. I
knew why I did it, though. I did it because I knew that if I let
Snape get away with ignoring me, that my love for him would die,
which I could not bear.
"Yes, I realize that." I said.
"But I think you're a good guy, Severus. Please!"
Severus
gave me that look again, and said "If I had a book for every women
who thinks I'm a good guy, well, I'd have enough books to last me
a lifetime. I'll be your friend, but don't tell anyone if you
know what's good for you."
He then pushed me off him,
turned, and walked out of the room.
Over
the next few weeks, Severus and I became good friends, helping each
other and having early morning chats in the staff room. I hadn't
yet been able to gain the courage to talk to him, about his early
life, but that day I was feeling quite brave.
So in the early
morning, I got up, went to the staff room, made myself a cuppa and
took a seat next to Snape, who was drinking tea and reading The Daily
Prophet.
"Morning." I said. "Morning." He said
back.
I took a deep breath and said quietly, trying not to
meet Severus's eyes "Severus, you still haven't told me why
you're so mean toward people. What's wrong?"
Severus
froze, then five seconds later, turned to me and said, "If I tell
you, and you breathe a word to ANYONE..."
"I won't," I
said quickly, but quietly, "You can trust me."
He was
silent for a while, and then he said softly "Well, I suppose it all
started when I decided to teach at Hogwarts, and I met..." He gave
a sigh and said "..when I met Katie Bowles.
"She was
gorgeous... curly golden hair and golden eyes, attractive figure... I
fell in love with her on first sight. I wanted so badly to date her,
seeing she was my age and all, but she already had a boyfriend, who
was..."
He stopped, and his face started to show so much
rage that for a moment I was scared of him. Finally, he managed to
squeeze out "Jack Rowell".
He looked too mad to continue,
so I sat there in silence, and after awhile he spoke again. "Jack
fell in love with her, they left Hogwarts and married, had a little
girl named Connie Rowell. She came and left Hogwarts. Ever since that
happened though, I've felt so foul, like I've lost the one thing
in my life that I truly cared about. There's a big hole inside me
that can't be filled. That's why I'm such a bastard to
everyone, to try and fill that hole."
He fell silent again,
and I foolishly asked "What happened to Katie and Jack?"
Severus's
look turned to rage again, and he spat out the words "Happily
married 20 years." He then turned and walked out of the
room.
14/1/2030
The next day, there was a
Quiddich match scheduled – Gryffindor versus Ravenclaw. I had been
asked to referee the game, as I'd had some refereeing experience
before.
Out on the field, I mounted my broom and as the
players flew above me, I released the quaffle and started the game. I
flew up on my broom into the sky, and started to referee.
I
came across a couple of fouls and cheats, but nothing too serious
during the game.
But as I was flying behind Angelina, I didn't
notice the bludger coming toward me. It hit me on the head, and I
fell toward the ground, unconscious.
I woke up lying
on the Quiddich pitch with Snape on top of me, his hands on my chest,
obviously giving me CPR. He turned his head, and for a split second,
he looked at me in a way, which told me that he knew I loved him, and
that he loved me too. Maybe he was a mind reader. He had just saved
my life, and that one event, had opened Severus's heart to me. What
a shock!
"Are you all right?" He asked. "Yeah, I'm all
right." I said, slowly about to get up, but Severus stopped me.
"No, don't" he said. "You need rest. Let me help." He then
waved his wand and a stretcher appeared. He waved his wand again and
I was raised onto the stretcher. He then guided the stretcher with me
on it into the hospital wing with his wand.
15/1/2030
I
left the hospital wing a few days later, with a bandage on my head. I
had a plan to talk to Severus that day and ask him about yesterday,
and his feelings. I knew he would tell me. I had not yet told anyone
about what he told me about his past.
I went to the staff room
and found Severus drinking a cup of tea. "Severus" I said. "Mind
if I have a word with you in private?" He looked up at me, nodded,
and rose from his chair, following me into an empty classroom.
We
both sat down in chairs, and I said "Okay, Severus, you can admit
it. You love me, don't you?"
He didn't respond, just sat
there, looking at his knees and twirling the end of his black robe in
his fingers.
I got up and sat beside Severus, and put my hand
on his hands, which gave him a bit of a shock, as he demonstrated by
jumping and not fiddling with his robe anymore.
I said to him
"Severus, I don't know how you'll react to this, but I..." I
paused. "I... I love you, Severus. I've loved you from the very
first moment I saw you."
Severus froze. He looked in my
eyes, a few minutes later, and said rather shyly "I love you too,
Corrina."
It was my turn to freeze. I wasn't expecting
that, even though I'd had suspicions ever since the Quiddich match.
Severus just didn't seem the type of person to admit something so
personal to me and in the open. But I guess he proved me wrong.
He
continued. "When I saw you in the Great Hall at the start of the
year, you reminded me so much of Katie. That's why I resented you
so much, why I acted like such a bastard toward you. But then, when I
looked more deeply into you, after we became "friends", I
couldn't stay away from you. When you fell, during the Quiddich
match, I nearly died, because I thought I was going to lose another
person I care most about in the world. I don't want to lose you,
Corrina."
I was silent for a while, and then I said "Well,
I guess we're dating now, aren't we?"
He smiled and
nodded. Then, without warning, he put his arm around my neck and
pulled me toward him, pressing his lips against mine and kissed me
passionately.
And I kissed back.
17/1/2030
Things
were still the same between Severus and I a few weeks later. We were
still together, and luckily, we had managed to keep our love affair a
secret from the rest of the school.
The last few weeks had
been total heaven. Severus and I were falling more and more in love
each day. We made love one night, when the urge to resist was too low
to overpower the urge to proceed. But we swore afterward to keep it a
secret, seeing all the teachers, including Dumbledore, and the rest
of the school thought Severus and I were still virgins.
One
night, I decided to go and see Severus in his room because I couldn't
sleep. So I got up and snuck down to the dungeon area, hoping that no
other teachers had heard me. When I peeked into Severus's room,
what I saw nearly made my heart stop beating.
Severus was in
bed all right. But he wasn't asleep.
He was with another
girl. They were kissing.
I stood there frozen. This couldn't
be Severus. Not the Severus I knew. The one who treated me so well.
The one who told me his deepest darkest secrets. The one who said he
loved me...
I choked back a sob and ran out of the dungeons
before Snape could hear me. I ran, faster then I've ever run
before. I wanted to believe that it wasn't true, that Severus still
loved me, that it wasn't all a joke.. No... no... it can't be...
it couldn't be...
I kept running, to nowhere in particular,
ignoring the tears falling down my face. I heard a voice call behind
me "Corrina!" but I didn't stop. I wouldn't have stopped for
anything or anyone that night. I was too upset.
I heard
footsteps behind me, so I headed into the only nearby place: a dark
looking forest.
As I ran into the forest, I heard a sound,
which made me stop in my tracks. Scared, I ran and hid behind a tree,
peeking out to see what had made the sound.
A weird looking
creature, with the head of a lion, the body of a zebra and the legs
of a giraffe, came out of the shadows and looked at me with it's
eyes.
I stayed behind the tree, scared to death, wondering
what the weird creature was. It started to approach the tree, and I
started to back away. As I backed off, it gave me a look of anger and
pounced at me.
"CORINNA!" I heard someone yell.
I
felt an arm grab me around the waist and drag me away from the
creature and out of the forest.
They put me down about a
couple of meters from the forest and helped me to stand.
"Thanks..."
I said, and turned around to face none other then Severus Snape, in
his night robe.
I got up, wiped the grateful look off my face,
and stormed off back to Hogwarts, leaving Snape standing near the
forest, looking very confused indeed.
19/1/2030
During
my D.A.D.A class, there was a knock at the door and Severus walked
in.
"Ah, Professor, mind if I have a word to you after
class?" he asked.
I shrugged and said "Ok." He nodded
and left.
After class, I went down to the dungeons
where Severus was, and knocked on the door.
He turned, saw it
was me, smiled, and beckoned me to come in. I entered, sat down and
waited.
He looked at me and said "Well, aren't you going
to apologize now?"
I looked up. "Excuse me?"
"You
heard me. I'm waiting."
I glared at him. "You're the
one that should be apologizing, you bastard!". As soon as I said
that tears started running down my face.
His face changed from
a look of expectancy to a look of concern. "What do you mean,
love?" he asked, putting his arm around me.
I shrugged it
off, and said "You know what I mean, Severus."
He sat and
looked at me. I said, crying really hard "I saw you Severus. I saw
you with that other girl, kissing her like you kissed me. How could
you, Severus? You sounded so honest and genuine when you said you
loved me. And now I find out it was all a lie!?!?!"
I
couldn't stop it now. I put my head into my hands and sobbed really
hard.
While I was sobbing, Severus said "Honey, people
change, their hearts change, people move on. I may have loved you
once, but.."
I felt a huge amount of rage fill me. I stood
up and screamed "DON'T YOU DARE CALL ME HONEY YOU BASTARD! YOU
THINK THAT YOU CAN CHEAT ON ME AND CALL ME HONEY! WELL, YOU'RE
WRONG! YOU WILL PAY, SEVERUS, I PROMISE YOU THAT!!!!!!!!!!!"
I
then ran out of the room and ran up to the teacher's dormitory.
That's it. I thought to myself. Severus has gone too far. There's
only one thing to do. And I'll do it tonight.
21/1/2030
I
don't know why I resorted to this, now that I look back on it.
Maybe it was because I was angry. Hurt. Confused. Maybe because I
needed some sort of revenge, to make life feel normal again. Maybe
because of the way my parents treated me. But for whatever reason, I
still did what I did. And I'm not sorry for it.
Anyway, that
night, I went into the kitchen and took a sharp knife out of the
drawer. I then quietly snuck into the dungeons where Snape was
sleeping (by himself, I must add) and looking like an angel.
Well,
he'll be with the angels soon, I thought as I approached the bed.
Or maybe even with the devil. Who knows?
I turned myself so
that I was standing directly in front of the back of Snape's head.
I bent down so my mouth was level with his ear and whispered:
"Goodbye, Severus. Maybe one day, you'll regret what you did
after I do this."
Then I raised the knife above my head and
lunged it at his chest.
It didn't take long for
the teachers to find Severus dead in his bed the next morning. What
shocked them the most was the wound in his chest, which told them
that this was no accident: Snape had been murdered.
Nobody
knew who had done it, of course, but there were a lot of people that
everyone thought were suspicious. Professor Trelwany was one, seeing
she had hated Snape since he wouldn't communicate with her. But
nobody suspected me.
Dumbledore announced the murder at
breakfast and said that all attempts were being made to find out who
did the murder.
While all of this was going on, I tried to
keep out of peoples way as much as possible, trying to look
innocent.
It didn't work.
Just as The Great Feast was
about to end, Argus Filch ran into the hall and up to the teacher's
table, yelling "I KNOW WHO DID IT! I KNOW WHO MURDERED SNAPE! I SAW
IT HAPPEN!"
He raced up to Dumbledore and murmured into his
ear, while the rest of the hall buzzed with curiosity and excitement.
I, for one, prayed that I wouldn't be discovered, that Filch was
wrong.
I guess I didn't pray hard enough, because Dumbledore
stood up and said "In spite of new evidence, the murderer has been
found."
He fell silent, and then said "Corrina Hobblewart
murdered Professor Snape."
A huge amount of murmur took
place in the hall, with all eyes on me. I felt guilty, but not
ashamed.
Dumbledore looked at me and said "Do you have
anything to say, Professor?"
I shook my head.
"Very
well." Said Dumbledore. "For this crime, you shall receive 20
years in Azkaban." He clapped his hands, and two guards came
forward and dragged me out of the Hall, and into a cell room, until
they had room for me in Azkaban, I guess.
That's my story.
And I write it, here in my cell, hoping someday that someone will
read it and know the real Severus Snape.
