Disclaimer; I do not own Final Fantasy 13. Because if i did all hell would break loose and Serah never would've woke up XD.

Warnings; angst, angst and just a bit more angst. Though there is hints of SnowxHope or Snope as I call it.

A/N This is placed about a year after the ending of FF13, I was well upset when i found out that Hope had no family left X( This is a gift to Roxy-Kins, hope you like it! :)


Moonlight shined down on the glitter like sand of Oerba shores, making the ground sparkle in a entrancing way that would make anyone sigh with ease and relax, though it did nothing to sooth a silver haired teen, his face set in a perma-frown. Hope could imagine Sazh saying that he spent too much time with Lightning but to be honest, he hadn't seen or heard from her or the others for over six months. A few months after the fall of Cocoon, they had fought together to clear Oerba of Cie'th and then they helped to bring survivers into the old town.

It started off that Snow, Serah and Lightning became too busy to hang out with him, Serah and Snow were planning to get married and Lightning thought it would be best to supervise just incase Snow did something totally idiotic. Nothing was going to ruin her little sisters wedding. Sazh travelled round Gran Pulse with Dajh, showing the young boy all the wonders the planet had to offer. He couldn't actually hang out with Fang or Vanille as they were still in crystal statis and probably never going to wake up, though he could definitely use some of Vanille's cheer.

The team had all swore to keep in touch but that was soon forgotten, and it seemed they had forgotton him as well. Lightning no longer left him messages, reminding him to take care of himself, he no longer got Dajh's frequent letters of his travels with Sazh and Choco. He missed seeing the little Chocobo foot print in the corner, Choco's own way of saying hello.

He guessed it was suppose to happen at some point, he had sensed it when his father hadn't shown up with the others, after all everyone was too busy to look after a orphan- here Hope snorted, he was nothing like the crazy Fal'Cie- though he understood where the Fal'Cie had come from. Orphan had cared once for Humans but as they evolved and wars started, they had forgone him, just as The Maker had. Orphan had only wanted to be loved again and slaughtering people had seemed the right way to do it. Orphan after all was a child in mind. Wanting desperately to be loved.

Hope shook his head, his brows furrowing deeper, he was making excuses for a homicidal Fal'Cie, what was the world coming to? It seemed on some level, he would do anything just to hear Vanille's cheery voice as she gave her endless wisedom, Fang's attempt to make Lightning smile. Snow's deep baratone voice as he talked to Serah's Tear. Snow draping his heavy arm over his shoulders, grinning at him stupidly.

He wished it was like it was before they had saved everyone.

Then he didn't have to worry about being thrown aside, Snow would've never of let it happen, the older man had been so determind to keep his promise to his mother, Nora and his father too. Lightning would be watching over him, offering her support in a way that reminded him of Nora, Light was like his second mother. Fang, was his older sister, though she hadn't paid him much attention, he had known he could depend on her. He missed being able to talk to Choco about his problems and the little yellow bird somehow answering his questions. Sazh would crack terrible jokes that would have made everyone cringe and wince. Vanille would giggle at Sazh's attempt at humour and then they would carry on travelling to find a way to free themselves of the l'Cie brands.

But that was then and this was now.

Now Hope felt betrayed, Snow promised to look after him but had failed to protect him against himself. He wondered briefly if that was why he got Alexander, the Eidolon turned into a giant wall like fortress that protected him from everything. He wished he had Alexander here too.

Someone had asked him once who he missed the most, the answer was blurted out before he could stop it. Snow. That had been his answer, many had believed he would miss Lightning, but no, it had been the tall blond and it still was him. Hope realised it was never going to change. Ever.

'Him and Serah are probably married by now' Hope winced and gripped his chest when a sharp pain jolted through it. Just the thought of never being invited hurt more then the thought of Snow not remembering who he was. Though that was pretty damn painful too. Sometimes he wished he could just follow Vanille's advice and run from it all. Run from all the pain, from the betrayel and depressing thoughts. Even his neighbor commented on how gaunt and hollow his faced looked, like he was on the brink of despair. And it was true, he was on the brink to losing his sanity and possibley becoming another Orphan.

Was it so bad to want to be loved? To feel like he had a family that would take of him? He often asked the now empty sky, getting no response except for a star twinkling merrily. Where was Vanille when you needed her?

Hope had tried, he really had. To snap himself out of...this. he had tried to live his life as a normal fifteen year old though that had been for nothing when he walked up to Light's house only to find that she had moved to Sulyya Springs, a passing stranger had told him that Serah had wanted to move there for when she had a baby. Hope didn't think he could feel so numb. And so he went home, trashed his little cabin, throwing a vase he had found and thrown it against the ground in anger ad then he ran to the beach where he had been sitting ever since in the cold, harsh November weather.

Light had moved out six months ago, exactly when the calls stopped. When Snow stopped leaving him little parcels of random stuff. When everything stopped.

"Why did Snow leave me? He promised he wouldn't..." Hope whispered brokenly into the empty sky, drawing his knee's to his chest, gripping his jeans tightly with numb fingers. He never heard the crunch of heavy footfalls across the sand, he wasn't paying attention.

He nearly jumped out of his chill bitten skin when a deep, rumbling baratone came from directly behind him as two solid arms wrapped round his shivering form.

" I know Hope, I'm sorry. I'm here now, I'll look after you I promise."

And Hope knew, he just knew that this time Snow was going to keep his promise.


A/N THE END! *bows* meh it's not bad considering I wrote it in a hour :O The plot bunnie smacked me right in the face and said " Write meeee" So I did, there might be a second chapter, might not, it depends if another plot bunnie appears XD. i'm off sleepies now. So tired XDD Oh read and review please it will much appreciated :)