Three years

That's how long it's been since I held you. Every morning when I wake, I feel for you next to me, but I find nothing. When it finally dawns on me that you're gone, I cry myself back to sleep and hold your pillow close to me.

I can still feel your touch on my cheek, my waist, my lips. Your warmth haunts me during my waking hours and continues in my dreams. I see your beautiful green eyes, your almost-cocky smile. I want to run my fingers through your prematurely gray hair like I used to, but then I wake up and realize you're no longer there.

Three years

How quickly can life change? In the blink of an eye, from my experience. It was just that morning I told you I loved you. You returned the sentiment and showed me the ring that promised we'd be together forever. Huh, I guess forever isn't as long as I was led to believe.

My pain has repeated every day in the three years since you left. The cliché advice says "Time heals all wounds," but I truly believe time has made mine worse. The hole in my heart you left festers and aches every day, getting progressively larger until I fear, one day, my heart will be completely destroyed.

What am I talking about? My heart is already destroyed.

Every day without you, I die a little more every day. People notice. Namine, Sora, Xion, they all fear for me. I know they mean well, wanting to help me any way they can, but I really need nothing more than to be alone and heal my own way. Though, I doubt that'll ever happen. I'll probably die before this wound heals.

At first, I was angry. I thought, "How could you do this to me after all we've been through together?" But then I realized, you had to leave. It wasn't of your choosing. I had to remind myself that you are a man of your word and would never break a promise of your own accord.

Even still, you hurt me. Though you didn't mean to, I am destroyed because of you. Even so…

I love you more than my own life.

Rest in Peace, Riku.


Author's Note: Ok, definitely the shortest thing I've submitted. I was inspired to write this while listening to Last Song by Gackt, my favorite song. It's such a heartbreaking song that I felt the need to write a fanfiction and I'd been looking for an excuse to write RiKai for a long time. Anyway, hope you liked it. I'll get back to my main stories. Endgame's new chapter is nearly finished. Just a few more pages and it'll be finished.