I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh 5Ds or any of the characters in it ~
Pairing : Rudger x Dr. Fudo
Side Note : I fan-named Mrs. Fudo 'Hana' (since it means 'flower' or something and it looked like it suited her ), and Dr. Fudo 'Hakase' (since 'Hakase' means 'doctor', 'ph.d', etc).
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Chapter o1 : Shame and Happiness
Who would have expected that the calm professor was a screamer? He conducted himself so accordingly in the work place, albeit ... the man behaved childishly whenever he became excited about the possibilities of that research, but that was something Rudger loved about him even more. There was more than one side to this man. A part of him was calm, serious, that obvious work - place personality one must have that commanded respect from practically everyone around them. Another part was more playful, daring, someone you felt like you can confide your innermost secrets into. Damn. Why did that woman have to get to him first? Yeah, that was right. Professor Fudo was married, the wedding band remained on his ring finger and it indicated that perfectly. However, that did not stop Rudger from making his advances on the man. Just the slightest bit of attention to a certain point on his neck made dear ol' Hakase Fudo moan so loud ; Rudger found it cute of him to try to muffle those moans by putting his hand over his mouth or by biting into his neck in return.
" Rudger ... I have to get home. Hana's --- " just at the mention of his wife, Rudger placed a forceful kiss onto his lips as he forced him back down onto the bed. The two were currently at the elder Goodwin's apartment complex, Hakase had dropped by to pick up a folder of data to analyze and they ended up on the bed with Rudger kissing at his neck.
" Aren't I good enough for you?! " Rudger asked, almost hissing to his employer. Grabbing onto Hakase's hand, Rudger practically tore the wedding band off of his finger only to toss it carelessly over his shoulder ; and as the man was about to get off the bed to retrieve it, Rudger merely pushed him back onto the bed. " You want me too, don't you ?! "
" To want and to know what's right are two different things. I made vows, you know, " Hakase clicked his tongue irritably from being forced down onto the bed once again.
" Your 'knowing what's right' means for you to ignore what your heart's telling you and it's telling you to accept me, to love me, not her, "
" I love Hana, Rudger. She's the mother to my son -- " Once again, interrupted with a kiss. Once they broke apart, Hakase automatically blurted out : " Would you stop doing that? I would enjoy it if you let me --- hnn ... " this time, Hakase interrupted himself with a moan as he felt Rudger now rubbing his thumb against an erogenous zone located right over his ribcage. Rudger's other hand moved in between Hakase's legs, squeezing him hard and earning him another loud moan.
" You want to do this. Give in, you owe yourself one bit of happiness, Professor, "
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Didn't wedding vows mean anything these days? I thought they had, I had been so dedicated to Hana through the short year and a half we had been married and I never dreamed of cheating on her. Especially with a man at that. There had always been two conflicting forces in my heart, one telling me : "Stay with Hana! It's safe! She'll never leave you! She's a wonderful woman!" and the other telling me : "Go with Rudger, you fool! He'll love you for you, he'll take care of you! He'll protect you! He might not be the most sensitive guy, but he does all he can". It always gave me guilt in the end. It felt like I was wronging Hana, it didn't feel right to be married to her and not love her with my entire heart. It felt like I was wronging Rudger, since I would not divorce my wife for the chance that we might work out. I didn't want to break up my family, Yusei deserves a stable home. My son comes before myself , before Rudger, before Hana, before anyone. Yusei's happiness came first.
If ... that were true, how did I end up like this? My breath hitching, panting as Rudger continuously rubbed away at my groin and making me hotter by the minute. How did it come to this? I gave into one of the deadly sins, and that one was "lust", or was it "greed" as well?
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I moved over to the junction where his neck and shoulder met, burying my face within it and beginning to suck on that tanned skin of his that earned me a throaty call of my name. One of the hands that had been running along the side of his body went to the hand that had once been the owner of that damned wedding band, lacing our fingers together. The other one, busied itself with unbuttoning that gray dress shirt Hakase usually wore when he went off to work. That was slid off along with that laboratory coat, revealing the man' naked torso for my eyes to feast upon. Who said that all scientists had to be pencil thin nerds? Hakase was a slim guy, but he had a balance to his body. The muscle he had was in fine shape. The man had to face it, he was a pretty boy and he always had been. My hand ran along his chest as if to memorize every curve, every muscle, until it eventually settled on a certain sensitive nub on his chest. I teased it by rubbing it in between my index finger and thumb, while my tongue went off to tease the other.
Hakase groaned deeply, as was expected. It made me wonder if Hana gave him any attention like this, I wouldn't put it pass Hakase to be the one who gave everything to that woman only to have nothing given to him in return. The professor was way too nice to even bring something like that up, he was happy as long as Hana was happy and that was what bothered me. Hakase's happiness mattered to me, pass those smiles, pass that cheerful facade, I knew he was unhappy. I didn't want the man I love to live like that, he was going to become mine. I would be the one to protect him, to make him smile genuinely, to bring back that childish excitement that had slowly been beginning to fade away from him.
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My hands were grabbing at his hair, I was surprised Rudger hadn't punched me for practically yanking on it the entire time. We were both too preoccupied and hot to care. When did it get so hot in here? My pants felt so tight, I hadn't paid any notice to the fact that the large buldge in between my legs was the cause of that. Rudger took great pride in noticing this, he knew that he was he one who made me so hot and bothered. Slowly, almost tortuously, he unbuckled my belt, snapped open the top to my pants and began to tug them down off of my legs to leave me in my boxers. Wait a moment - ? Why was I the only one getting naked over here? No fair! I didn't quite get the chance to take off Rudger's clothing, he was already continuing in teasing me with the simple motion in lifting up the hem of my boxers and letting it go, leaving the elastic to slap against my hip. "Rudger ... " that name left my lips in a breathless moan. I felt like a virgin all over again, like some inexperience school girl being made love to my a man who spent years mastering it.
If I only knew where this came from ... why Rudger was so bent on this. It was just sex to him, wasn't it?
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His groans were increasing in volume as soon as my hand grasped the large buldge between his legs ; I rubbed it gently in the beginning, but soon I became more rough. Hakase's continuous moans told me he loved it like that. So the professor had that kinky side to him too , I never would have known. I was surprised that Hakase pulled me back up to him , pressing our lips together passionately as in a quick movement, I ridded him off his boxers and left him vulnerable underneath me. God. He was beautiful, that body of his was flawless, scar less. Well, there was this small patch of darker skin at his inner thigh, but that was only supposed to be a birthmark.
He had pushed himself up to his knees, eyes clouded with lust as he impatiently tore away my lab coat and my dress shirt to go along with it. When Hakase wanted something, he went straight for the honey. " Take it all off , " Hakase's sultry voice came in a low groan as he soon began to toy around with my belt in order to remove my pants. Chuckling at his impatience, I decided to aid him in this and I took the liberty of removing my own pants and underwear while the professor never once took his eyes off of me.
We stared at each other. Once the clothes were off, our gazes turned to each other's "package". I would say that Hakase was a little over average size, by an inch or two, though I was still bigger than he was and it seemed the frustrate him. I always thought that Hakase looked cute when he pouted like that. He reached for something in a drawer, searching for something, right until he found a bottle of lotion. Curious of what he was going to do, I continued to watch as he poured a generous helping of lotion onto his right hand. He carelessly throw the bottle away, as I had done to his wedding band, and he began to rub his hands together in order to warm them up. Instead of coating my cock as I expected him to do before I penetrated him, he did something else, something I rather enjoyed.
Hakase went onto his knees, chest now laying on the bed as his rear remained in the air, mimicking the 'doggy style' position many gay couples were familiar with. His fingers went straight for the prize, two of them sliding into his entrance while Hakase moaned out my name. That was one of the sexiest things I had ever seen. It only got better when he turned his sights on my throbbing cock ; his tongue began to run along it as his fingers worked its magic to stretch himself open. His tongue ran all along the shaft, the head, even a certain pair at the base of my erection. It took everything I had not to come right there in his face.
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I don't know what got into me. One minute I'm laying back taking everything, next I know, I'm basically masturbating in front of Rudger and giving him a blow job. I don't know why my body wanted this so much, my heart and my mind gladly complied to it, they made no effort to fight back whatsoever. I knew deep down inside of myself that I wanted this, that I wanted to love him, that I wanted to be with him instead of Hana but ... one thought always kept creeping into my mind whenever I considered it. Yusei. He wasn't even a year old and he would have a broken home, he wouldn't have a happy family, he would end up being put in the middle of Hana and I and I did not want that for him. His happiness was supposed to come first, but here I was giving into my own selfish desires. It only proved how horrible of a father I was.
I pulled my fingers out of my entrance, that hand soon moving to stroke myself off as I began to suck on Rudger's arousal. It was bigger than I thought, I couldn't take it completely into my mouth. I started out gently for a moment, but then, I began to suck harder on it, Rudger's groans were enough to tell me he enjoyed it like that. I pulled away once I was sure he was on the edge of coming right in my mouth, that wasn't where I wanted it to go, I wanted it inside of me, not on me.
" Put it inside me, " I found myself saying as I sat up onto knees. Wait a minute -- When did I become the bottom? I was a man too, dammit!
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" Put it inside me, " those words rang clear through my ears like a bell, giving me a sense of delight upon hearing them. The moment I did that, Hakase will be mine and mine alone. Being bound to some woman by law did not mean a thing, he was going to be mine in body and soul and a certain Quantum Physicist knew that. I knew he wanted it, he wanted me, he didn't want Hana any longer. I knew it, the only reason Hakase stayed with her was because of his son! It was wonderful parenting on his part, but he didn't have to be miserable to give that little boy happiness. I wanted that to get through to him, more than anything else. My thoughts had been interrupted with Doctor Fudo's teasing comment of : " If it hurts, you're so fired, " with one of the widest smiles on his face.
" You can't get rid of me that easily, " I chuckled in return. I gently pushed him down on the bed once again, then I lifted up his hips only to notice a look of disappointment in his face. That confused me. Did he have a problem with the position? Heh, figures. Hakase had only been with Hana and missionary got pretty boring. So, I flipped Hakase over to his stomach and lifted up his hips once again, though this time, he had a smile of content on his face. I started out slowly, as to not hurt him, Hakase never had been with another man before after all. His loud moans filled the entire room, with each inch I inserted making them increase in volume. I swore, he was going to let the entire building know what we were doing!
Hakase continued to groan so loud as I continued to push into him until I was completely in. I lowered myself so my chest was now brushing against his back, with my hand moving to grab onto that hard cock that was dripping with pre-cum already. I pumped it as I slid myself out of that tight entrance only to ram back in again, each time his muscles squeezing down on my cock as if it was trying to milk the cum right out of it. Our moans intertwined, however, Professor Fudo's easily drowned out mine. At one point, he let out a moan bordering on a scream of pleasure. I must have hit a special spot inside of him. I stopped all together, pulling my hand away from his cock and him giving me a look mixed with irritation, longing, confusion, and impatience. I was standing straight up on my knees, my cock still inside of him and my hands wandering back into his hips. Hakase remained confused for a moment longer until I began to thrust into him, harder and faster than before, angling myself so that with every thrust, I pounded into that special area relentlessly. My moans were nothing but quiet grunts, very soft and quiet, compared to his screams. I didn't expect someone like Doctor Fudo to be so loud in bed, but damn, those screams turned me on even more-so. I wanted to know how loud he could get, I wanted to see.
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My body was on fire. It was burning with desire, it was burning for more. I wanted it all, his thrusts, his touches, his kisses, that occasional bite he gave to that special point in my neck. I wanted him. My climax was already reaching, it was so difficult to keep myself from spilling all over the bedsheets with Rudger now pounding into that special spot inside of me. He began to bite down on my neck , rub that special zone at my ribs with one hand as the other left my hip to tease at one of my nibbles. If he wanted me ot scream, that was exactly what he got. I screamed out Rudger's name in my ecstasy, I could hold back any longer and at that exact moment, the "white venom" shot right out of the "mouth" or my "snake". Rudger did not take so long to follow my example and that hot seed filled upmy entire insides a few times over. So much so, that the sticky fluid trailed along my rear and thighs.
I was in a daze. I didn't notice Rudger pulling out of me, or myself just plopping down onto the bed gasping for air. I remember Rudger towering over me, the gentlest smiles on his face as he brought me into his strong arms. It felt really cliche for to do this right after sex, but I didnt't care. I wrapped my arms around him in return, but there was something forming in my eyes. They weree tears. I wasn't sure if it was happiness or sadness that I felt, so, it was dismissed as a mixture of both. Sadness for betraying Hana's trust in me, for letting myself give into my desires, happiness to be taken and loved by Rudger, and sadness to be so confused about my feelings for the both of them.
I ended up crying like a little kid, never once sobbing, but letting those tears spill out of my eyes. " Hakse ... why are you crying? " Rudger's voice came, his hand moving to stroke at my hair in an attempt to comfort me. " Did I hurt you? " I shook my head. " Tell me what's wrong, " I shook my head again. Rudger let out a noise that sounded like a groan of annoyance before he pulled me up so our lips met. He kissed me with passion, our tongues wrestled for dominance and it appeared that I won that round. Yay. Rudger pulled away once both our lungs were dying for oxygen. He laid down beside me on the bed, never once releasing me from his grip and keeping me in that warm embrace. " I love you, didn't you know that? Since I first saw you, I've loved you. I wanted you to be mine, I wanted to make you smile, to get excited like you always do over those projects, I wanted to make you happy. Aren't I enough for you? "
How ... how was I supposed to answer that? My answer will always hurt someone. Saying "yes" meant betraying Hana, betraying our vows, her trust, her love, it meant turning my back to her. Saying "no" meant hurting Rudger, one of my closest friends, it meant losing him, forever closing the door of oppurtunity of what we may have been. No matter what I did, I couldn't change what I just done. I betrayed Hana, my wife, the woman I love, I betrayed her and the family I made with her. What was I supposed to say? My heart ached, that feeling of dread washed over me as I wished to crawl into a hole and hope that whatever godly force, be it the Crimson Dragon or the Earthbound Gods, would strike me down and kill me to escape it. I didn't want to hurt anyone and yet I did.
" ... No, " my answer came smoothly and calmly. I turned my head away, Rudger assumed it was because I just didn't want to see how that answer tore him up, but it was for a completely different reason.
It was shame.
