CHAPTER 1 - Cold Showers
BPOV
Sex.
It was unavoidable. It was there.
It was the one thing holding me back from being just another teenage girl.
Everyone talked about it. Everybody was having it. Albeit, everyone but me. I hated talking about it because I didn't know what it was like although I had plenty of ideas. I couldn't avoid the topic either. Emmett was on me again with the sex talk he always found ways to shove into conversations. No matter how many times times I admitted, red-faced, that I was in fact a virgin it still haunted me. I'd never fully be one of them until I tried it.
"Can we please for once talk about something else? Isn't sex supposed to a way of expressing your love, not expressing what you can do to your love?"
Rosalie rolled her eyes at my comment and Alice shot me a sympathetic glance as Emmett's sexual inuendos rolled on in the daily conversation. Jasper tried to be neutral but the way Em and I went at it bickering was slightly entertaining. Reminding people of my virginity only worked to deter sexual conversation sometimes. Today, however, just wasn't my day.
Emmett had gotten started on one of his sexually implied rants after I seductively took a bite of my corndog. He knew sex pushed my buttons so the opportunity knocked to hard for him to avoid it. Who knew closing your eyes while you bit the tip of hotdog on a stick was so erotic? Who I was kidding? I set myself up for it whether I meant to or not. I mean, I always closed my eyes when I was savouring something. I mentally kicked myself in the ankles and sighed in exasperation as Emmett moved on to tell me that I would one day lose my virginity and I would love the heck out of it.
"You know Bella, you avoid it now but trust me when you finally let someone in," he smirked at yet another inuendo, "it will be like having a really really cold shower after you've showered in hot water for awhile"
I quirked my eyebrows at what cold showers had to do with sex and made to grab for my lunch tray.
Gosh what a horny freak he turned out to be.
"I'm sure you take cold showers every morning Emmett but really, you need to get a testosterone reduction."
A stifled chuckle ran threw the table as I pushed my chair back to leave. Jasper buried his face in Alice's neck to hide his laughter as a smile tugged at her lips. Rosalie just looked bored and redundent because Emmetts sexual banter was nothing new. She also knew what it was like to take really cold showers with him. Trust me, we all knew what it sounded like. As I went to turn away from the table I saw Emmett grin at my rebutle. He was boisterious and dirty minded but he was also my adopted brother. I left my tray with the rest on the garbage bin and took one last look at the table. They continued to pick at their food trays and make conversation. Watching the scene I couldn't help but reminisce about how we all came together.
I had lived back and forth between my mother Renee and my father Charlie but with mom living in Pheonix and Dad in Forks the travelling was getting to be a bit pricey. When I was five we decided I would stay in Forks with Charlie and spend two weeks at a time with Renee in Pheonix. I didn't mind much. You couldn't help but come to love Fork's rainy, overcast weather and green scenery. My father Charlie was a salt of the Earth kind of guy and if being the Chief of Police in Forks wasn't enough, he was also well-known for his foster parent status. We had kids coming in a out of our house my entire childhood. Eventually the strain of being a foster parent got to Charlie and he stopped taking in strays but not before Emmett and Alice permanently joined the Swan family. Emmett had been found alone in the mountains hiding from a black bear by a local hunter. Alice was abandoned after a serious accident and afterwards she couldn't remember much of her life before it happened. The courts sent both to live with us when we were all eight years old and we've been close ever since. Jasper and Rosalie, the Hale twins, lived right next door so we naturally spent a lot of time together raising hell in the neighbourhood. It wasn't much different now as the four of them, all coupled up now, one by one filed out from the cafeteria while I for some reason stood alone in front of the garbage can.
"Excuse me," spoke a soft velvety voice from behind me stirring me from my nostalgic relvery.
I hopped to the side and stared distractedly at the unfamilar face with the tousled bronze hair. And those eyes - topaz.
His cough broke my stare and I apologized, "my bad".
"It's all good." His voice was like velvet again as he continued, 'I'm Edward by the way. Edward Cullen."
Edward. Cullen. I regained my composure and began speaking again, "The new guy right? I almost forgot Forks High was getting a new student. I'm Bella."
Edward extended his hand in my direction and I took it instinctively expecting velvet but instead being met with a normal human hand with it's normal human temperature. I shook his hand with confidence but let my eyes linger on his face. His features were so defined and caught the light at the most perfect angle and my breath hitched as I continued staring.
Where did this guy come from? A catalogue for male perfection?
I could feel heat rising from my neck up to my cheeks. I imagined them turning the faintest shade of pink.
"Nice to meet you Bella."
And with that and a crooked smile he turned to toss his garbage in the bin and leave the cafeteria. The heat was still rising in my cheeks and suddenly I was overcome with an overwhelming urge to take a really cold shower.
EPOV
Her cheeks were the faintest shade of pink but the colour tinge was there. It only highlighted her soft cheekbones and brought out her light brown eyes.
Her name was Bella.
I dropped the garbage from my tray into the bin and walked away hoping silently this wouldn't be our only encounter. I kept hoping inwardly when I heard a high pitched voice ring with my name. My eyes followed the sound to Jessica Stanley who stood in all her curly hair glory waiting at the doors to exit the cafeteria.
"Edward come on! I'll walk you to biology." she sang as I walked nearer to the crowd. Eric had his arm around Angela while Mike and Tyler lingered behind them pretending to stick their fingers down their throat in a faux barfing motion. Eric and Angela were a very lovey dovey kind of couple and sometimes it was a little too smothering.
Jessica tugged at my elbow as I pumped fists with the guys in farewell sending a small smile in the couple's direction as I reluctantly followed Jessica.
My parents and I moved to Forks a week ago after my dad accepted a job at the local hospital. To everyone in Forks he was Dr. Carlisle Cullen but at home he was simply Carlisle. Esme, my step-mom, was a warm loving woman who's knack for interior decorating was relevant wherever Carlilise wanted to move us. As the son of a local doctor my arrival had become fast spread news amoung the student body at the high school. Jessica was in four of my six classes while the others had one or two with me. This, I felt, suited Jessica just fine but I wasn't sure if I was up to all the attention. They all seemed nice enough but there were all obsessed with the same thing - sex.
Sex.
There wasn't one moment where someone didn't say or do something that could be construde as sexual. I had gone through the paces and had sex but I never saw the complete and utter fascination with it. I was a normal teenager with normal hormone levels who didn't constantly fantasize or converse about sexual intercourse.
Maybe I wasn't so normal after all.
BPOV
I left for Biology after leaving Rosalie and Emmett to grope each other at the lockers. Telling them to get a room would be counter productive so I just huffed a small huff and shrugged off with Alice in tow. Jasper had given her a fleeting kiss on the cheek goodbye before making his way to his next class. I could stand being with Alice and Jasper together as a couple. Jasper was always considerate of my aversion to PDA and all that other stuff. He really knew how to make me feel comfortable and that was what I liked best about him.
Alice walked with me in the same direction for awhile before noticing my spaced out expression.
"Earth to Bella." No answer. "Hello?....Bella.." she snapped her fingers in my face.
"What?" I answered her impatience.
"Where did you go there for a minute?" I could tell Alice knew that look on my face but also recognized it's unfamilar place on my face.
I turned to her squeezing my arm tighter in hers as we walked in sync down the hall.
"Sorry Al. I was just thinking. Were you saying something?" I tried to change the subject.
"You sure Bells? because if I'm not mistaken I think sweet virginal Bella was daydreaming about not so virginal things." She winked.
My face began to heat up.
"Actually, I was remembering something," I nudged her in the ribs lightly. "Why is everyone so quick to assume all day dreams are sexual?"
Of course, I knew the answer but Alice always knew the way to answer me without completely making me feel like an inexperienced teenage girl with normal hormone levels who didn't havethe constant need for sexual fulfilment. I mean of course I thought about it, even considered it but in reality I had no idea where to even start.
I could hear Alice breathe in before she answered me.
"Well for one, day dreaming about sex usually takes up a lot of energy, hence the spaced out expression and two, your so anti sex people think it's fun to believe you've crossed over into unknown territory."
I had to admit she was kind of right but there was no way I was going to admit my lack of sexual anything - including the female orgasm - and be late for Biology at the same time. My issues with my own personal Area 51 and my libido were going to have to wait. Now it was time for Bio.
Alice left me at the door to class with a triumphant smile as she danced off into the distance. I swivled into class with a bit of a slouch. Sex sex sex sex sex. All of it, it all wore me out sometimes. I knew more about sex than I cared to know but in none of the ways I should.
I was lost in my thoughts again heading to my seat when I noticed the usually empty seat beside mine was occupied. I followed the torso to the face it belonged to and was taken aback. Those topaz eyes were staring back at me. Edward Cullen was in my Bio class sitting in the not-so-empty-anymore seat beside mine. If fate gave me anything, this was it.
I smiled a small smile and hopped on the stool laying my books on the desk. Biology usually was a major snore fest but I had an inkling today things would be different.
"Fancy meeting you here" Edward almost sang. I blinked twice before getting grip enough to answer.
"Yeah really huh. How is your first day going?" I all but croaked out.
"It's getting better" he smiled and there it was, that crooked smile.
Heat rose in my cheeks and I felt them turning a darker shade of pink. Again, my breath hitched as I reached to open my notebook stealing sideway glances at my new lab partner.
I spent the rest of the class averting my gaze from the rest of his body. The shirt Edward wore was tight enough to sculpt his figure and I had zero complaints about that. My palms began to sweat lightly as tried putting images I'd heard of sex together with images of Edward together. I'm not sure if it was working but I would not have complained if someone decided to throw a bucket of ice water at me in that very moment.
Suddenly, when I stole a glance in his direction I noticed a change in his body. I scanned over Edward and saw his fists clenched into tight balls, the material of his shirt strained against his muscles and he was angled away from me. What was wrong with him?
EPOV
My first day of school and one of the most embarassing things to happen to a teenage boy was happening to me right now.
I had a boner. My dick was hard and there was no relief until I was home safe in my bedroom where I could release the tension.
How was I going to hide the thing until I was safely hidden in my car? The distance from here to the parking lot seemed like miles and I drew a breath of air in to calm myself.
My reflex reaction was to angle my body away from Bella just slightly so she wouldn't be able to see. It felt rude but that was better than embarassed at this point.
I clenched my fists into balls, my knuckles going white with the pressure. My whole body tensed as I pictured dirty diapers and insects in an attempt to surpress my teenage hormones. Everything within me tried to think clearly, to think rationally. After a few moments I decided to quickly look over and see if she suspected anything.
I could tell she had by the tension in her brows. They were furrowed together as her eyes darted over me and back to her books quickly.
I didn't want to be rude but I had to stay as calm as possible.
What I needed was for the damn bell to ring so I could get out of this place.
I needed to be home.
I needed a shower now. Badly.
