1He Never Left Me

I'm sitting alone.
Thinking of all my sins,
Jesus died to atone.
My mind is going back,
to the night he saved me.
and now time flies
to the night he saved my heart.
And now,
To the night, it was torn apart.
I see myself fall,
I hear my frantic voice.
I see Him look down,
as I call.
My knees are hitting the floor.
Begging please, God don't shut the door.
Hold me up, I'm falling hard.
I remember, I called a friend.
Although most of my words she couldn't understand,
there was one thing she could comprehend.
"Help me please, she had a heart attack.
Please Pray."
I hear myself call out again, "Hey!"
"You can't do this! You promised me!"
"Please, God, understand, I'm not ready for her to leave."
"Please, I'm down on my knees, don't take her away."
I cried for so long, I will be honest, I was never once strong.
I wanted to know why and how.
How did everything suddenly go wrong?
My arms reached up, pleading for someone to pull me up.
And then I got up, walked to this room I type at now.
and saw the words to a song,
"This is what it means to be held."
The tears stopped flowing,
my heartbeats slowing.
As I read the words again,
and my fury no longer upheld me.
My anger was washed away.
Gone.
My God took pity on me,
He held onto my arms,
made me stop.
He wouldn't let me lie,He made me face the truth.He held me tight,
and the angels surrounded me,
my brothers and sisters,
and I knew they wouldn't leave
And for the first time that night,
I was relieved.
I could breathe.
And now I sit,
grateful,
to be loved,
by a father that never leaves.