1He Never Left Me
I'm sitting alone.
Thinking of all my sins,
Jesus
died to atone.
My mind is going back,
to the night he saved
me.
and now time flies
to the night he saved my heart.
And
now,
To the night, it was torn apart.
I see myself fall,
I
hear my frantic voice.
I see Him look down,
as I call.
My
knees are hitting the floor.
Begging please, God don't shut the
door.
Hold me up, I'm falling hard.
I remember, I called a
friend.
Although most of my words she couldn't understand,
there
was one thing she could comprehend.
"Help me please, she had
a heart attack.
Please Pray."
I hear myself call out
again, "Hey!"
"You can't do this! You promised
me!"
"Please, God, understand, I'm not ready for her to
leave."
"Please, I'm down on my knees, don't take her
away."
I cried for so long, I will be honest, I was never
once strong.
I wanted to know why and how.
How did everything
suddenly go wrong?
My arms reached up, pleading for someone to
pull me up.
And then I got up, walked to this room I type at
now.
and saw the words to a song,
"This is what it means
to be held."
The tears stopped flowing,
my heartbeats
slowing.
As I read the words again,
and my fury no longer
upheld me.
My anger was washed away.
Gone.
My God took pity
on me,
He held onto my arms,
made me stop.
He wouldn't let
me lie,He made me face the truth.He held me tight,
and the angels
surrounded me,
my brothers and sisters,
and I knew they
wouldn't leave
And for the first time that night,
I was
relieved.
I could breathe.
And now I sit,
grateful,
to be
loved,
by a father that never leaves.
