In the darkness, even the smallest dimmest light shines through.
But when I look around I see no light. I see no hope.
I don't see anything. Its like Ive closed my eyes, though
my eyes are wide and open.
I cant feel anything either.
I don't feel my lungs fill with air as I breath in. I don't
feel my chest rise and fall. Am I even breathing?
What is going on?
Oh...Oh wait.
This couldn't be? I couldn't be dead could I?
What happened? The last thing I remember
is...oh. Thats right.
The meeting. I guess I was dissolved.
Thats the only explanation. I guess this means I'm. I'm dead.
How could German let this happen? Didn't his Boss listen
to everything he had to say?
I'm not horrible. Ive had my faults right along side every
other country. How could this have happened? How could
nobody stand up for me? Taken me in? Put me on Parole?
Anything.
Elizaveta? Roderich? Ludwig? Francis? Antonio?
No one? Did everyone lie when they said they cared for me?
Did no one tell the truth? Or were they to scared to help?
Or is it my fault? Did I push them away? That cant be right?
I'm to awesome!...Or am I?
I'm despicable. I'm not awesome, not even close.
I'm grotesque. How could anyone care for me? Ha! I cant
believe I thought that. How could anyone love me?
I'm a lazy sack of shit! I steal others land. I hurt innocent
people and I don't give a damn.
But maybe I should have. Maybe if Id actually cared for
others they would have cared for me. Maybe if I...
"Vakey vakey, my little German Democratic Republic."
