Chapter 1

She felt her body tremble as she raised her head off the pillow and looked down her naked body. She ran her fingers through his hair and held his head to her as his tongue lapped at her juices, before he began to gently suck on clit.

"Jesus….. That feels so good," she moaned dropping her head back onto the pillow as he began to slowly kiss his way back up her body.

"Open your eyes," he whispered; she could feel his hard shaft pushing against her opening. She opened her eyes and met his as he pushed himself inside her. "Fuck!" he gasped as her walls gripped him tight. He began to move slowly and gently inside her, pushing as deep as he could.

"Hmmmm," she moaned as he pulled almost all the way out before slamming back into her as he began to move harder and faster into her. She could feel her climax building as he pounded her hard.

"That's it baby…..Just let go," he panted as he looked down at her his eyes never straying from her face. "I'm right with you….."

"I… I love you," she gasped as her climax took hold.

Olivia's eyes snapped open in the darkness of her room. Her breaths shallow and fast as she tried to control her breathing, her body soaked in sweat and shaking from the dream. She turned her head and looked cross at the empty space beside her. Yet again Brian hadn't come home after another argument they had. She sat up and swung her legs over the side of the bed grabbing the sweats and hoody from the floor and pulled them on before leaving the room.

She opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle of wine, she needed a drink. She stood staring at the bottle as she held it in her hand.

"Fuck!" she snapped putting it back and grabbing a bottle of water instead

She grabbed her bag from the table on her way past and sat on the couch, she reached into the bag and pulled out the white stick, her hands shook as she looked down at the two pink lines. The lines blurred together as her eyes filled with tears. She held in her sob as she pulled her phone from inside her bag.

Where are you? I need to see you she typed in. She hesitated slightly before pressing the send button and let out the breath she had been holding. She dropped the phone to the couch and dropped her head back closing her eyes as she waited for the reply. Her phone buzzed and she jumped slightly picking it up reading the text.

I'm working on a case, can it wait till later?

She shook her head before she began typing.

If it could fucking wait, would I call you at four in the morning.

She kept hold of the phone this time knowing the reply would be quick. He was pissed at her she understood that but she needed to see him, and she couldn't put it off.

I'm at the station.

She stood up and grabbed some socks and her sneakers and pulled them on. She picked up the white stick and put it in her pocket before grabbing her car keys and badge. As she got to her door she text back.

Will be there soon.

She climbed into her car and pulled out the garage heading into the city.

She couldn't believe this was happening, just as she thought she was getting her life together.

"Why now?" she asked herself. "Why the hell now."

If this had happened 5 years ago she would have been ecstatic, but now after what she had been through. The attack, the trial, Munch leaving, then Cragen going, being promoted she didn't need this, not now. She wasn't in the right mind to have a baby, there is no way she can she do this. She wiped the tears from her eyes and took a deep breath. She knew she had been drinking a lot more lately; it was her way of coping. Every morning she would wake up hating herself and promising herself no more. But every night she would drink to numb the pain.

"You never know it could be a false alarm, from all the stress and stuff," she said to herself. "Who are you trying to kid Benson, you're not that lucky."

She carried on driving getting closer and closer to the station and more nervous at what she was going to say to him, her hands trembled on the steering wheel.

Ten minutes later she pulled up outside the front of the station and turned off the engine and looked at the building. She felt sick at the thought of telling him. He was just getting himself back on track, he had not long been reinstated and back to a job he loved.

She climbed out the car and took a deep breath as she headed into the building. The place was still quiet as it was just after half four in the morning. She stopped outside the squad room and tried to calm herself before she went through the doors.

"Just do it Benson," she said to herself. "After all this isn't just your fault."

She pushed the door open and walked into the squad room. The room was empty but she saw him sat in the small office off to one side. She slowly walked up and stood in the open doorway and watched him as he filled out paperwork.

"What's so important that it couldn't wait?" he asked not looking up at her.

"I….. I Erm," she looked down at the floor not able to look at him.

"Look I'm really busy here, if you have something to say then hurry up and say it. I told my Captain I wouldn't be long," he said.

She looked up from the floor glaring at him. "I'm so sorry if you feel like I'm wasting your time!" she snapped.

"I didn't say that, it's just I'm really busy, I just started back and I don't want to piss my boss off straight away, and unless I'm mistaken you're the one that told me to fuck off. So I'm sorry if I'm not all fluffy smiles and hugs right now."

"Fine," she said striding over to the desk her temper getting the better of her. She reached into her pocket and pulled out the small white stick throwing it down on the desk in front of him. "Congratulations," she said as his eyes dropped to the stick on his desk and he slowly picked it up looking at it.

He saw the two pink lines and felt his hands begin to shake.

"You're….. It's… your pregnant," he stuttered. "H….. how?"

"I will give you three guesses but I think you will get it the first time, we weren't exactly careful."

"But what about….? I mean is it mine? How can you be sure?"

She looked at him their eyes finally meeting for the first time since she came in the office. She couldn't be angry at him for asking the question.

"Because you're the only person I have had sex with since the trial, I couldn't let him…." she felt the tears rolling down her cheeks that she had tried so hard to keep from falling. She quickly wiped them away. "I wouldn't even let him touch me; he hasn't touched me since before the attack. I'm pregnant and the baby is yours El," she said turning away from the door and walking out the squad room.

Okay just a short first chapter to see how people respond. Yes or No to carrying on?