Thanks Spikes red queen for the inspiration

Summary: Way back in season 2 when willow re-soul angel, she was bound to him, when she goes all vein-y and she does it because of all the Pain and guilt she feels coming off angel, she goes looking for the soulful vamp, what happens when she finds him…

Set in S6 of Buffy and umm... Not really any spoilers for angel

I do not own Buffy or angel:( oh and Doyle never died, there was no Tara and no Fred, Gunn or Wesley

Angel sat in his dark office, looking at old photographs that were stacked in many piles on his desk. He stumbled across one of his favourite photos; it was a picture of Buffy and Willow at summer break. He ran his fingers across Willow; he sighed an un-needed breath and whispered "How can I ever thank you" There was a knock on his door he quickly threw the photo in his draw along with the others with a swipe of his large arm.

"Come In" he said

Through the door came Doyle. "S'right if I take the night off?" The Irish accent of his voice said.

"Yeah whatever we haven't got a lot on" Angel replied.

"You aright boss?" Doyle asked as he took a seat. Angel looked up and sighed another un-needed breath

"I just gave you the night off, isn't there somewhere else you would like to be rather then listening to my problems?" Angel asked.

"Well I have a few minutes to spare if you wanna talk?" Doyle replied and at that minute Angel's cell rang

"Hello?" Angel said

Willow walked into the magic shop. Anya came dashing up to her.

"Willow-" She began, Willow stuck out her hand and stopped her in her tracks.

"Don't move!" Willow screamed. She looked down at herself; she had to make it stop, all the pain the sadness and guilt. She remembered what had set her on this search to stop the pain.

FLASHBACK

"Red you alright in there? Pet?" Spikes deep voice asked as he continued to knock on her door.

"Yeah fine thanks" Willow replied laying back on her bed.

"K see ya downstairs in a bit" he said and walked off. Willow looked out the window, suddenly she doubled over in pain/ Images flashed through her mind, they were not her own they belonged to "ANGEL" She wheezed out. The flashes become real she was watching as she saw angelus kill time and time again, she saw the time he was cursed, she then felt all this guilt rise inside her. Then she felt her hands begin to tremble. She looked at the book case, she nodded her head at a book, it flew to her. She then felt her eyes turn.

END FLASHBACK

She looked up at the restricted section of dark magic books, once again she nodded all flew down and landed open on the table, she walked towards them and buried her hands into the pages and drained the magic from the book, her hair and clothes turned black.

Once finished she smiled.

"Time to come out and play ANGELUS" she cried the last bit and whirled off in lightening.

Buffy's POV

I picked myself from the floor, Willow had gone crazy she needed help, but who was I to call… Giles? No he was in England, Xander had tried… Angel, yes that's it! I cried I ran to the phone almost sliding on the shinny floor, I dialled and waited.

Angel's POV

"Hello?" I asked.

"Angel? It Buffy" Buffy's frightened voice said.

Buffy? Oh no something's happened what do I do?

"What's up?" I replied.

Stay calm she could just be phoning to check in! when does she do that Never! something' happened" Thoughts were rambling around inside my brain.

"It's willow" That's it, I thought Oh no she can't be dead no, no ,no

"Wait what's happened?" I found myself asking once more,

"I don't know she just flipped"

I was about to reply when I doubled over in pain "ahh" I screamed.

"Angel? Angel are you alright? Angel?" Buffy screamed down the phone.

Angel saw flashes all the angry he felt, all the power, something was wrong, he finally controlled himself.

"I'm alright" he breathed into the phone.

Willow's POV

As I travelled all over LA to find him, I found myself thinking.

How could he do this, why did I have to bloody re-curse him, stupid bond, I hate this feeling, I HATE YOU ANGEL! I found myself shouting in my mind like he could hear me.

All the stuff you have done, just horrible making me feel this way! Its all your fault you know, I'm gonna enjoy kicking the soul right out if you, I wish this feeling would just go, why will you not go! I shouted. I stopped right outside a building

ANGEL INVESTERGAINSIONS I could feel him

"Show time"

Willow walked into the building where she was stopped by a man.

"Do you have a appointment?" He asked placing a hand on her shoulder.

Willow grabbed hold of his hand and threw him backwards into a wall making it crack.

"Forget the appointment, this is important" she laughed and continued to walk through the lobby until she stopped at the door.

"You have no idea where she is?" Angel asked

"Nope, Anya rang said she drained all the dark magic books, something's making her horrid" she replied. There was a knock at his door,

"Come in"

"Well search places where dark arts are practiced take spike he will know"
Willow walked through the doors and saw angel she threw the phone out of his hands.

"Angel? You there" Buffy's voice said as the connection went dead.

Angel turned his eyes wided.

"Hello Angel!" Willow said smiling wickedly

(AN: How did u like that, that was only the first chappy:) hope u enjoy plz review)