So I Walked Away
By Ms. Kinnikufan
Disclaimer: Still don't own the characters,
I walked away. It was the only thing I could do.
I know it will hurt Kevin, but he will recoverI hope.
He was getting close to me. More disturbing, I liked the fact that he was getting close to me. As a robot chojin, I knew I had no right to have Kevin's tender emotions. I know I have no right to another's tender emotions.
I loved his small gestures of affection, his indirect declarations of affection:
"Croe?"
"Yes Kevin?"
"I'mglad that you'rearound. Ummmhaving a coach aroundis really useful for a chojin." He abruptly ended.
"Indeed." I responded.
I could sense Kevin meant to say something more personal, but I did not call him on it, for it would have made him terribly embarrassed.
A part of me-no a great part of me, wanted to return his affections.
Sometimes I ended up doing so, convincing myself it was just coachly concern. But deep down in my heart, I knew it wasn't.
I wasn't right of me to-I'm mostly robotic. Natural law says robots shouldn't love human and vice-versa. I'm not a chojin of many morals. I've killed many with little thought or reason, but this is a law I must obey.
Besides, Kevin can do so much better then an old, slightly out of date war machine. He deserves to have someone beautiful and young and organic like him-someone he could celebrate physical love with.
Also, if I were to be with Kevin, it would separate them even further. Kevin and Robin need to be drawn closer together, not torn even further apart.
I know Robin would not approve of his protégé/best friend being with his only son.
Robin's friendship was the first friendship I ever had. Robin's trust was the deepest trust I ever had. I refuse to break either of them.
I don't want to bring any harm to the possible repairment of Kevin and Robin's bounds.
So I do the only thing I can do: I walk away. I walk away from them both. I walk away from the trust and friendship that they both gave me.
Every step I take is agony. Every "Warsman!" pierces what I have for a heart. Kevin, I know you find someone better then me. You will find someone that's more real then me.
It's the greatest pain I've ever felt. But still I walk away.
