dear diary,

I dreamed about Mal coming back I never told anyone not even Mike this but mal tried to rape me and in my dream he did. it scared me because I know Mal didn't feel anything so all he was trying to do was give me pain. Mike might know but I never talked to him about it its been a year since all-stars and mike lives right across the street from me. I love it but sometimes I fear because I see Mal in him but not like it was when it was either Mal or Mike now there one person and I think Mike realises this too and I know everyone has a dark side and I know he tries to control the impulse like the other day we got in a fight and it happens like most couples but he almost slapped me and I know he didn't change into anyone but mike never hurt me before so I decided that I have to break up with Mike as much as it pains me to say it.

love Zoey