Part 1
Diana, I have something to tell you...
A thousand times I've thought of actually saying the words aloud, but for some reason, I can't get it out of my throat. You sacrificed so much for me, to give me what I want. How could I not feel this way? I thought I would do anything for you, and I have, and always will. It's almost too hard for me to think about, to keep all this inside. As much as I love Adam, I love you more.
He's so wonderful, and will always be there for me, I know he will. But would he understand why you mean so much more to me? You were the first person there for me. You saved me from the wrath of Faye, took me in as your 'little sister'.
I loved you before that, that first day I saw you when I came here, everything in my life seemed to be going wrong. I didn't know anyone, and was so nervous when I was walking along that road. And there you were, in the window, a ray of sunshine I hoped would brighten my life. You gave me more than you could ever possibly know. My saviour became my friend became my secret love.
I hated you when I first saw you with Adam, how foolish would I have been if I had given into that feeling of fire and anger, there on that moonlit night? In a way it was more of a beginning than an ending.
You knew that Adam and I were soulmates, and you tested me, and I still wanted to do everything I could to have him first. We haven't exactly done that yet. Surprised? I can't be with him like that because all I want is you.
Should I say something out loud about this? Confess to you how I feel? How would you accept it? Would you deal with it with that wonderfully innocent way you look at the world, kiss me just to make me happy?
You seem to always want to make everyone happy, but what about you? Whose arms will you find comfort in now you've given Adam to me? Will you go to Nick, who still loves me? I see it in his eyes whenever he looks at me. Do you feel for me what I feel for you? Will you and Nick seek salvation together?
Even if I ever saw you with someone else, would I be able to accept it? I stand out on the cliff, overlooking the night time ocean, the waning moon reflecting like that night I stood with Deborah after my first motorcycle ride.
I see eternity as I look out, like when we defeated Black John, and I don't know if you saw this too, but it was then I realised we were all connected, everyone in the Circle, and always would be.
As I think of that now, I think of you. My love for you is burning, sometimes it hurts like a physical pain, that I don't know what to do about it. Now I realise I will never sleep or rest easy until the truth comes out.
I head back inside and pick up the phone. I dial your number. I know you won't mind me calling so late. You answer, somehow, knowing that it's me. You sound worried. "Cassie, what is it? Is something wrong?" you ask.
I love the way you say my name, with such feeling. Would you go to the end of the earth and back for me? Now I'm going to find out, one way or another. "There's nothing wrong," I say. "Diana, I have something to tell you..."
THE END.
Diana, I have something to tell you...
A thousand times I've thought of actually saying the words aloud, but for some reason, I can't get it out of my throat. You sacrificed so much for me, to give me what I want. How could I not feel this way? I thought I would do anything for you, and I have, and always will. It's almost too hard for me to think about, to keep all this inside. As much as I love Adam, I love you more.
He's so wonderful, and will always be there for me, I know he will. But would he understand why you mean so much more to me? You were the first person there for me. You saved me from the wrath of Faye, took me in as your 'little sister'.
I loved you before that, that first day I saw you when I came here, everything in my life seemed to be going wrong. I didn't know anyone, and was so nervous when I was walking along that road. And there you were, in the window, a ray of sunshine I hoped would brighten my life. You gave me more than you could ever possibly know. My saviour became my friend became my secret love.
I hated you when I first saw you with Adam, how foolish would I have been if I had given into that feeling of fire and anger, there on that moonlit night? In a way it was more of a beginning than an ending.
You knew that Adam and I were soulmates, and you tested me, and I still wanted to do everything I could to have him first. We haven't exactly done that yet. Surprised? I can't be with him like that because all I want is you.
Should I say something out loud about this? Confess to you how I feel? How would you accept it? Would you deal with it with that wonderfully innocent way you look at the world, kiss me just to make me happy?
You seem to always want to make everyone happy, but what about you? Whose arms will you find comfort in now you've given Adam to me? Will you go to Nick, who still loves me? I see it in his eyes whenever he looks at me. Do you feel for me what I feel for you? Will you and Nick seek salvation together?
Even if I ever saw you with someone else, would I be able to accept it? I stand out on the cliff, overlooking the night time ocean, the waning moon reflecting like that night I stood with Deborah after my first motorcycle ride.
I see eternity as I look out, like when we defeated Black John, and I don't know if you saw this too, but it was then I realised we were all connected, everyone in the Circle, and always would be.
As I think of that now, I think of you. My love for you is burning, sometimes it hurts like a physical pain, that I don't know what to do about it. Now I realise I will never sleep or rest easy until the truth comes out.
I head back inside and pick up the phone. I dial your number. I know you won't mind me calling so late. You answer, somehow, knowing that it's me. You sound worried. "Cassie, what is it? Is something wrong?" you ask.
I love the way you say my name, with such feeling. Would you go to the end of the earth and back for me? Now I'm going to find out, one way or another. "There's nothing wrong," I say. "Diana, I have something to tell you..."
THE END.
