Change the Past, live the Present, Build the Future

Written by: Hoshihikari4ever

Disclaimer: I do not own FY!

Spoiler: Whole Series plus OVA's plus Side stores

Parings: Miaka/Hotohori

Note:  "…." = talk Italic/Underline = words on paper, scrolls, etc…  Italic = thoughts/dreams

Chapter 1

            "The Universe of the Four Gods…" A girl with blonde hair spoke softly.  "The Universe of Four Gods?" Her best friend questioned.  The first girl nodded as she flipped opened the book. "Once the first page is turned, the story will become real…"

            Miaka paused as she placed down her pen and stared down at what she had just written.

            That was how it all began.  Five years ago…that was how it all began.  Yui and I taking an innocent walk through the library.  The day that changed all our lives forever.

            Picking up her pen, she continued to write down her encounter with this mysterious book.

            "The Suzaku no Miko?"  "Hai Miaka, There's a legend in Konan.  When disaster strikes, a girl from another world will appear, she will gather the Seven warriors of Suzaku, summon the beast god and save Konan, wishing for ever lasting peace…"

            Hotohori…Gomen nasai. I owe you so much.  Please forgive me.  I not only didn't wish for everlasting peace, I tore you heart to pieces.  Please understand, I never wanted to hurt anyone, especially you.  You placed such a great burden on me, placed everything and everyone on the line for my sake, yet I failed you.  Sorry…

            Miaka bit her pencil.  It was hurting her to write, especially about the emperor and how much pain she had caused him.

            "You're a MAN???!!!"  Miaka asked in amazement.  The purple harried man nodded as he pulled up his robes.  "but…but…you love Hotohohori…and you kissed Tamahome on the lips!"  "Ah Miaka, don't be so naïve…when it comes to love does gender matter?"

            Yup Nuriko you were so correct.  I was so naïve so immature. I was such a child.  If only, I knew then, what I knew now, then none of that would have happened.  If only I've known the affect of my actions ahead of time, then none of this would have happened.  I was such a child back then.  I didn't understand the world.  I only thought it was a fake world, a world which I paid little attention to, a world which is even more realistic then my own.

            "You be gay and I'll be weird no da" "Sorry for lying to you guys…but I'm Tasuki…"

            Chichiri…always understands.  True he may be weird at times, but he's so serious and funny.  Tasuki…well what to say, he's the fiery man of the gang.  The way he and Tamahome argued day and night…I wonder how they're doing.  How they're taking the deaths.  I hope they're all right.  Hmm…I could always trust Chichiri to take care of him, those two sure make a good team.

            "The stars foretold misfortune…"  " It's Mr. Myoujuan…"  "Ah! You're telling me that that old man we saw is actually this young fellow…?"

            Chiriko, you were so wise, the smartest kid I ever met.  You said the stars foretold misfortune.  Did you know then, did the stars foretold the future, did it ever told you of the deaths…?  Mitsukake…you were silent yet strong.  Though you grieved over your lost love, you still managed to give strength to others.

            Miaka suddenly found herself unable to write.  She somehow couldn't put what happened next into writing.  Trying as best as she could she wrote down the horrors that came with the book.

            Miaka watch stricken as the  nun chucks was swung at her by none other then Tamahome.  "DIE you obnoxious brat!" Bang! Her beloved gave her more then a bloody left arm.  Her heart tore to smithereens, just as the piece of paper with 'Wo Ai Ni' was torn to shreds.

            Miaka couldn't resist him.  The blonde slowly stepped closer.  Miaka was breathing hard. She tried to move, but was held down by his chi spell.  Nagako stepped closer.  His hands reached up, grabbed her chin up and forced his mouth onto hers.

            Miaka stopped there.  What happened afterwards, she had no idea, for she fell unconscious…all she knew was she was never raped.  Instead she continued on to other parts of her journey, parts that she still grieved over.

            On the top of an icy mountain, in a far off land, the Suzaku no Miko and her Seishi grieved over their lost friend.

            "Get out of my body! I will not harm my friends!!"

            "Shouka, please give me strength to save the child…"

            "According to the legend, the mark that appears on his majesty's neck marks you as one of the seven protectors of the Suzaku no Miko…" "The Suzaku no Miko? Who's that?"  "She is the girl of the legends. One day a girl from anther world will appear, and she is destined to deliver us from disaster…"  "The Suzaku no Miko, a girl from another world, perhaps she will love me, not just as the next emperor, but as love me as the man I am…" 

            Tears rolled down Miaka's cheeks. Writing down the deaths, made her reopen to the pains of the book.

            You died!  You all died, and its my fault.  Nuriko, Chirko, Mitsukake, and finally you Hotohori. Hotohori…Hotohori, you were there from the beginning.  You were the man who I hurt the most. I always thought you were going to be here for me.  You always were.  Tamahome left me so many times before, yet it was you who remained next to me, who stood up for me.  Yet I took it all for granted. I thought you were always going to be here.  I wish you were here now.  It's my entire fault.  This is my entire fault.  You all died for my sake.  It's my fault that this had to end so tragic.

            She sighed, crying softly to herself.  Letting her emotions overtake her.  When she could take it no more, she wrote the ending.

            The four places in heaven, the four corners of the earth.

In the name of the sacred laws, belief, and goodness.

I summon thee, Suzaku, lord of the South.

I now say these words to thee,

appear on earth from the seven places of heaven

for the sake of those here who adore you.

Come to us here with thy holy power, smash the evil which threatens us.

Save us! And hear our wishes to thee!

Descend to us now from the heavens above!

            That was the prayer to Summon Suzaku.  That was how I won, after losing 4 of my Seishi.  It was too high of a price to pay. I would have rather not summon the beast god, in exchage for having all my Seishi back, alive and with me, or at least alive in the other world.  They mean so much to me, I couldn't have pulled through with them at all.

            "No matter ten thousand years…I swear Miaka, I will find you….."

            "In another time, another place, another world….across time, space and worlds, Miaka, we will meet again…."

            Miaka chuckled as she placed down her pen.  There she was finished. She wrote her whole adventure within the book.

            An interesting way to end it, if I do say so myself. Leaving it off with the two vows. Tamahome and Hotohori's vows, the last thing either of them said to me. Hotohori before he died, and Tamahome before he was suck back into the book.  I wonder if it'll come true.  No, I know its true.  I'm sure it is.  Both man ever let me down before and I'm positive that one day their vows would come true.   

            And so this concludes the journey of the Universe of Four Gods.  Is it truly over?  Suzaku, God of Love, is this really over?  Will I ever see my Seishi again.  Will you grant either Hotohori's or Tamahome's wish?  Will you grant me my last wish?  Please Suzaku, Holy God of Konan, please grant me my last wish.  My wish, that I've prayed for, for more then two years, ever since I've departed from that world, the world which change my life.  I know you may not be able to grant the wish of Seishi and Miaka together, so I will not ask for that.  Instead, I ask for a second chance.  A chance for me to return to that world and summon you properly.  A chance for everything to reoccur once more, a chance for me to return with my knowledge and rewrite the whole story.  Please understand, I was immature, naïve and everything else.  Now, though, now that I've experience and live through the whole journey, I realize that much could have been prevented.  Please give me one last chance one chance to  rewrite the whole past.  Suzaku, God of Love, head my prayer to thee and thou will forever be grateful.

            Miaka started at the book, which she had just composed.   Finally it was over.  A feeling of relive swept through her.  Glancing down at her watch, she noted how late writing the book had taken her.

            Hmm…it's getting late.  I'll just place this in a safe place and show it to Keisuke when I get home from this camping trip in two days.  He'll be so proud of me. 

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            "Keisuke what's wrong buddy?"  Keisuke did not reply for a while.  "I'm worried about Miaka Tetsuya…"  "Ah, come on Keisuke, Miaka's 20 and all grown up, give her some air would you…?"  "Yui, you don't understand, it's been torture for me, to watch her.  She still grieves about what happened five years ago, you don't understand, I don't think you do, ever since her departure from her Seishi, she's never been the same…"  "Why didn't you tell us earlier?"  "I didn't want you guys involved, besides the reason she went camping was to relive some pain."  "So you saying you left her out there, somewhere on her own to survive!"   "Easy Tetsuya, its not like she can't survive in the wild…. besides it's only a three hour drive away."  "Where is it?"  "Why?"  "I'm going to check up on her…." "Yui replied simply.   "I need to talk to her, she shouldn't be going through this alone…I'm her best friend and besides, I was the main reason why everything turned out the way it did…."  Keisuke nodded.  "It's a three hour drive towards the east of Tokyo. Not sure what's it called, but I know its away from the city.  Miaka and I used to go up there alone, our special place…."  Yui nodded as she headed for the door.  "Hey Yui, you mind if I come along…."  "Why, you think I can't take care of myself?"  "No, it's just I think a man like me should go along, just in case you meet some guy like Nagako or Suboshi…."  Yui smiled.  "Very well….come along, you can drive…." "Keisuke you want to come along…"  "Nah Tetsuya…. I'll stay, just in case Miaka returns…" He held up a set of keys and a cell phone.  "She left these here, just to make sure I won't bother her…."  The two nodded.  "Very well…."

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            Miaka woke up to the calls of the morning birds.  She sat up and stretched.

            Two more days until city life.  Better make the most of it.

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            Tetsuya shook Yui.  "Wake up, we're here."  "Yui sat up and yawned.  "That was fast."  "Fast?  Three hours of long driving…man my legs are numb…"  Yui smiled as she helped her boyfriend stand up. "Maybe you shouldn't have come" "Why Yui…" "Cause if Miaka sees us, it'll just remind her that she's single…"  Tetsuya gave her a kiss.  "Well that isn't going to stop me from showing my affections. Besides, we set her up with so many guys before…her fault that she's stuck, her minds just stuck on Tamahome…."  Yui's face darkens.  "You know, I think of him often, Sometimes I too wonder if he'll show up…." "and you guys fight over him, and become archenemies again…" "No, Why would I want him, when I've got you?"

            The two walked, talked and left towards where Miaka might be. 

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            Miaka couldn't help but think of the book which she had completed last night.  Her fingers itched as she stared at the cover of the book.  Finally she couldn't take it anymore.  Grabbing the book, she flung open it.  Without warning red light sprouted from within.  It consumed her.  When the light died down Miaka was gone.

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            "No!!!" Yui cried as she pointed to a crimson light that sprouted close to them.  "Miaka!!!" Tetsuya cried as he also saw the light.  "Come on Yui, lets go…" The two rushed to where the light was.

            "Too late…" Yui said as she slumped to her knees.  "She's gone, too late…she went back…"  Tetsuya picked her up from behind. "Perhaps now she's happy, back with her Seishi…"  Yui turned to burry her head in his arms.  He patted her back, his eyes searching the surroundings.  He gasped.  Yui pulled away.  "What's wrong."  Tetsuya went and picked up a book on the floor.  "The Universe of Four Gods…" Yui took it, and was about to open it.  "No Yui, not yet, I don't want you pulled in either…." He took back the book.  "Let's go back. Keisuke should know about this…."

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            Keisuke nearly ran to the door.  He jerked it open, but was disappointed to see Yui and Tetsuya.  "Where's Miaka?"  He asked as he backed away to let them enter.  "Still down first…"  The three settled down.  "Alright where is she…."  Tetsuya hesitated, before pushing the book into his best friends hands.  Keisuke dropped the book at first sight.   "She got sucked in?  Miaka's inside?"  The two nodded. Keisuke picked up the book and flipped it open.  "Hey, this isn't the book…" "What do you mean?"  Yui and Tetsuya asked inmedatly.  "Miaka wrote this, in Chinese….it's her reincounter of her book, her version of the story."  Tetsuya took it.  "I didn't know Miaka could write Chinese…" "Well she studied it afterwards…" "I see…." Tetsuya flipped to the last page and saw Miaka's reflection on the book.  "Hey Miaka made a last wish to Suzaku…its written here that she wants everything to reoccur, to have a second chance…." "Yui took the book and flipped through, her eyes widening.  "What's wrong Yui?"  "The words, everything is disappearing…what does that mean…." "Keisuke took back the book. "Do you think its possible, do you think Miaka went back to change the past…that everything in the past never existed, and so the whole book is rewriting itself…" "Possible….Turn back to the first page"  He did so.  "Yes, it's rewriting itself.  New words are being written as we speak. "When then, what are you waiting for…read it…"

            The women stared at her surroundings…

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            Miaka slowly opened her eyes and stared at her surroundings, noting that she was in an alleyway.  "Konan?"  She whispered.  "No, that's not right….Konan isn't like this, or maybe it is…Maybe that's what happened after five years….I must get to the palace…."

            "Hey miss…."  The voice sounded awfully familiar. She turned to see the same blonde that she saw when she first arrived in Konan.  She slowly backed away.  "Hey miss, you new here…why don't I show you around…."

            New?  Why is everything recurring, why am I back here again.  Is it possible that Suzaku answered my prayer?  Perhaps its true.  If that is so, then this is my perfect chance to change what happened.  Well then I guess I have to follow this man.  That was how Tamahome found me, besides, those men never got a chance to do anything to me, not with Tamahome around.

            "Alright…."  So Miaka followed the man, being conscious of her surroundings, noticing that the places where defiantly different the Konan. "Alright…we're here…." Sure enough she was led to a dead end, a couple more men walked out from the shadows.

Alright, I should buy myself some time…Enough time so that Tamahome could get here.

            "Well, well look what we have here….what do you say men, why don't we have some fun…"  The men crowded towards Miaka causing her to back up towards the wall. Even though she knew that Tamahome would show up, her heart pounded loudly, hopping that this would end soon.

            Tamahome!  Tamahome!  Where are you…Help me! 

            Two hands grabbed her and through her to the floor.  Another two came up and held her down. She started to kick.

            Shit!  I forgot to fight of these men.  I did that last time and bought me some time…Dam it, why didn't I think of that earlier?

            The men laughed evilly as they bore down on her.  "Tama….Tamahome!!!!" She yelled as her eyes tried to search him out.  It was hopeless, he was nowhere in sight. Instead she closed her eyes, and waited.  The minutes ticked on.  She felt the men were on her, yet Tamahome still didn't appear. "Tamahome…" she cried out again, to no avail. She stopped when she felt the men spread her legs, feeling their fingers inching closer, and closer.  She waited, knowing somehow that this time she was going to be raped.   She could feel the men exposing her, getting ready to enter.

            Tamahome!!! Tamahome help me.  Please wherever you are.  Please…I need you now…Tamahome please…

            Suddenly she heard a icy cold voice and her body froze.  "Get down, low…"  Miaka did so, wondering why she would listen to him.  In a split second the men were off her, they yelled as they landed lifeless on the floor.  After a while, Miaka slowly sat up and faced the wall as she pulled up her clothes.  When she turned around, she saw her saviors. She had guessed as much by the voice, but was still stunned at seeing him. The man next to him caused it to be worst.  She couldn't imagine him ever being there, standing there with the first man, shoulder to shoulder.  Both men looked older, had a cruel and cold expression.  Miaka could tell the hate written on it.  No one spoke, the three stared at each other.  Finally in a soft voice, with as much calmness as she could muster, she spoke their names and watched as a smile spread across one of their faces.

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