Disclaimer: I do not own Takeru, Daisuke or Kari. They are property of who ever own Digimon. Not me. Them. Not me. Them.

If Only Tears Could Bring You Back to Me

A first person perspective songfic
by K-OSS

I remember the night I called you, and you said you met someone wonderful and terrific. When you told me who it was, and I found out it was someone I knew, I was taken back, but happy for you. Maybe it was a delayed reaction or just blinded by denial. But later on, my heart had never felt such pain.

"How will I start tomorrow without you here?
Who's heart will guide me when all the answers disappear?
Is it too late? Are you too far gone to stay?"

I see you and him together at school. You hug so happily. I could never be angry at either of you. But as I watch you two, I can't help but to feel that I've lost something. A part of me died. I hide my face and hold back the tears. And you tell me that we're still friends. I appreciate it more than you'll ever know. But I still yearn for yesterday.

"Best friends forever, should never have to go away!
What will I do?
You know I'm only half without you!
How will I make it through?"

I go home and cry on my bed as I look at the picture of you in my wallet. I wonder if you'll ever see me as more than a friend again or if you'll ever realize how much I truly love you.

"If only my tears could bring you back to me!
If only love could find a way!
What I would do, what I would give,
If you returned to me someday, somehow, someway!
If my tears could bring you back to me."

That night I cry myself to sleep. It is an odd feeling to feel such hapiness for people but at the same time be completely miserable over it. I search inside for hope, but find none. The reality has already sunk in. Funny how I can give hope to so many, but never have any myself.

"I'd cry you an ocean if you'd sail on home again.
Waves of emotion will carry you, I know they can.
Just let love guide you and your heart will chart the course.
Soon you'll be drifting in to the arms of your true north."

I see you again at school the very next day. He's not with you at the moment and you have such a caring look on your face. I wonder at times if you still have feelings for me. You look in to my eyes and I'm curious to know if you see what I know in them.

"Look in my eyes,
You'll see a million tears have gone by,
And still they're not dry!"

I talk to you so much, even when I'm tired, you pry conversation out of me. With each exchanged word, I am split further and further between hapiness and depression.

"If only my tears could bring you back to me!
If only love could find a way!
What I would do, what I would give,
If you returned to me someday, somehow, someway!
If my tears could bring you back to me."

I remember when we talked after school and I burst into tears spilling almost everything to you in my utter confusion of emotions. I still don't know how a guy can be hung up on a girl he has no chance with.

"I hold you close and sob the words I only whispered before!
For one more chance,
For one last dance inside of me!
That I would not be alone!"

The tears, the memories, the pain still come. It seems pretty much endurable for now. But don't get me wrong, I'm happy that you're living the life you choose and that you're following your heart.

"If only my tears could bring you back to me!
If only love could find a way!
What I would do, what I would give,
If you returned to me someday, somehow, someway!
If my tears could bring you back to me..."

Hikari, I wish you and Daisuke a happy life. And I'll always be here, your knight in shining armor, even if I don't look it.

Your Hope, Takeru Takaishi


Authors notes: Well, it just goes to show you. Reality makes the best fiction. That's right, 99.9% of this story is straight from my life. This was originally a letter to a friend of mine, but I turned it into a fic. Please R&R, your fanfic pal: K-OSS