Disclaimer:
Turtlequeen2: Since people seem to like my poems, Embrace the Darkness and The Heart of the Wind, I decided to make more. This time this is about Kohaku and Sango's relationship. I always had been the fan of their angst filled bond and decided that it would be a good subject for a poem.
Kohaku: Sango, who?
Turtlequeen2: -sigh- Figured you'd say that…
Kohaku: Who the heck are you and what am I doing here?
Turtlequeen2: -rolls eyes- Always the forgetful one aren't you? -sarcasm-
Kohaku: -look of confusion- Just hurry up with what you're trying to do!
Turtlequeen2: Fine, fine. I do not own Inuyasha or Kohaku. Only Rumiko Takahashi does. I hope you enjoy it! Thanks for Kagura615 for the insperation! This is for you!
Note: This is in Kohaku's POV by the way…Ane-ue is the title that Kohaku gives to Sango. It is an old Japanese term for a highly respected elder sister.
Ane-ue
Who am I?
Why am I alive?
Why does my mind seem so foggy?
And who is she?
I obey my supposed master, Naraku
Doing the deeds that he set me out to accomplish
Though, how come whenever I do them,
I feel so much dread and pain?
I don't know what I am
Or where I came from
Though, for some reason I know that I'm human
I did not come from Naraku like the others I work with did
I grow so confused when I am sent to assist others
Under Naraku-sama's jurisdictions
They say I have the skills of a warrior
If I can fight so well,
Where did I learn such skills?
And more and more often
I see her
That young woman who strangely has the same type of outfit
That I have
She always beckons to me with grief
Such sadness and longing
Who is she?
Her eyes glow with uncertainty
As if she debates with herself on who I've become
But how would she even know me in the first place?
Every time I see her face
I feel unbearable guilt of some hidden, forbidden past
In my mind's eye
I see red, so much red
So many tears
And pure darkness
Although it's misty,
I know that I had something to do with it all
Then I see her face within that memory
I know that she has something to do with my life!
If only I could find out…
I want to know who I am
Where I belong
But, do I really want to find out?
Every time I try to think back to her
Or that particular picture in my head,
I start to feel pain
Physical, mental, and emotional agony
Blood starts to surround me
It gets on my hands
My clothes
My face
My weapon
And on the others around me
And throughout this whole ordeal
I hear the woman call out my name
"Kohaku! Kohaku!"
How does she know me?
Tears glisten down her cheeks
Her sobs are worse than anything else
Those tears make me feel so much guilt
Then one word always comes to mind when I see her
Ane-ue
That word alone it full of locked up sorrow
Full of unwanted memories
Is getting my memories back worth it all?
Ane-ue
Is she my family?
Why do I get the feeling that I hurt her so much?
Why do I feel so petrified?
There are so many unanswered questions
Who would've thought that such a small word
Would become so complicated
And cause so much hurt?
If she is to be my sister
Then who is Naraku-sama to me?
Why am I fighting for him if he is the core of my suffering?
What of his other servants?
Would I better off if I broke away from him?
This woman I see
As with sadness,
She also gives me an odd feeling of comfort
As if I'm closer to my true home when I'm near her
Is she the only one that I hurt
Or just the one I hurt the most?
How could I harm someone I can't even remember?
What have I done to deserve such agony?
What frustrates me the most
Is that I am on the brink of remembering the forbidden,
Though I cannot seem to completely open that door
Should I persist
Or just give up?
Before I can reach the white light of remembrance,
I am shrouded in black
Called back by Naraku-sama
And that cursed jewel shard in my back
Before I can see the other half of my lost life,
I turn my back upon it
The sight petrifies me beyond my will to bear
My heart clenches in emotional pain
My mind freezes up
And her face shows up after this horrible ordeal every time
Her face and the title Ane-ue
I am faced with many fears and worries
Though, even though I must have hurt her in some way,
She always seems to have such love in her eyes
As she looks at me
And cries for me
If I've done something so terrible,
Why does she continue to forgive?
Why does she continue to never give up?
I want to know more about her
As long as my path is controlled by my master
I will continue to walk along it
However, once the door of my past opens itself,
I will try to break free and find my true self
My other life with my Ane-ue
A/N: I hope that you enjoyed it as much as I did writing it! Please review and tell me what you think! I will post more poems once I get more ideas!
Ja ne!
