Together We Stand—Forever We'll Fall
Chapter 1: Almost Nothing
Disclaimer: I don't own Death Note, can't say the same for Jane Glass though…I just can't be sure.
Warning: Mentions of death, suicide.
A.N.: Jane Glass and I are collaborating on this.
He had died without her even knowing, since they hadn't been hanging out, but she would rather him be alive and just not wanting to see her than him being dead. She didn't care that he didn't love her. She knew when they began dating that he did not and might not ever love her, but that made no difference to her feelings.
If you really love someone then sometimes you don't mind that they don't love you back, and this had been one of those deals. She'd rather him being alive and dating another girl than dead…she'd rather him be doing anything, so long as he was alive. Now, though, as Misa rode a train going who knows where, she thought about a couple of years ago, when she first learned of what had happened.
Misa had been enjoying a banana split on a couch in her hotel while listening to some new music she'd found via a friend when she heard a knock on her door. She had turned down the music before heading to the door, and she opened it to see Matsuda standing there. She smiled at first, but then noticed how grim he looked, "What is it?" She had asked, sounding concern. "Um…I know no one else told you…but…uh…Light Yagami…is died." Matsuda said, speaking slowly and carefully, but that didn't make anything about his words better.
"H—how did…?" She had asked, unable to finish her sentence. "Blood loss…" He said, looking down, and she could tell that there was more to it. She continued to stare at Touta Matsuda, and he continued his grievous report, "He was Kira…and…he…he killed his own father…I…I shot…" Misa didn't notice that she had let go of the ice cream bowl until it shattered at her feet, and even then it was but a whisper. She stood there in silence, mouth open in shock, tears streaming down her face, and no words could be said. "I'm…sorry…" Matsuda said, looking away with red eyes that held tears.
She didn't blame him though, she was at least happy that someone told her, and it was about time, since Light died a year earlier than when she was told. After that, she stayed inside her hotel, going shopping every now and then, though she didn't eat much. It had been weeks before she started eating properly, and she had trouble believing he was dead. She went to his grave after a month or two, and after that she went to his grave all the time…a part of her ad been buried without her knowing.
Now, on this day it had been nearly three years since she was told about it, and she didn't see a reason to continue living. Everyone she really cared about kept dying…first her family, then her boyfriend…what hope was there? Not only that, but it was as she once told L, "…I would never live in a world without Light…" And even L had known her love for Light was beyond any other.
Finding out that Light was Kira the whole time made her happy…but also sad. When she thought about all those people who had loved and cared for Light, all those people Light killed so easily…. How could he? Killing that monstrous man who killed her parents was one thing, but his own father? How many other innocents had he killed? Did killing evil people really justify killing the innocent ones?
It was too late to ask these questions. She loved Light…. The train came to a stop, and Misa stepped off, walking for some time to her destination, then she walked to the back of a large but empty place, who knew what the building was for, but it didn't matter, a building was a building and any would suit her purpose. She glanced forlornly at the buildings around her and everything below her, and then she saw the blood red clouds…the beautiful sunset made just for this moment.
She stepped under the large metal fence so that there's nothing separating her from the edge of the concrete. She'd need to only take a step. She'd thought of this moment all day…while getting dressed in this black and white dress…while putting on her high heel black shoes…while fixing her hair and putting on the black hair band…and while fixing her black eye shadow, all for Light. Even an idiot could guess she was mourning…which was the point.
After staring out at the horizon for several minutes, she glanced down, closing her eyes for the last time. She was ready. Ready to leave this world and face Nothingness, and hopefully, Light.
Someone behind her cleared their throat, "This would break the record for the stupidest thing you've ever done."
She gasped at the voice. No…he was dead…wasn't he?
