Because I Didn't have the heart to

I could've loved you.

But I didn't.

I could've kissed you.

But it would've meant nothing.

I'd just mean that our mouths touched.

I could've smiled.

But I wouldn't be smiling.

It'd be just some big empty line that's curved at the ends.

I could've cried when you left me.

But, nothing came out, just tears.

Nothing worth talking about, that is.

I could've been happy when I saw you.

But, that's not true happiness,

If you can't feel it.

I could've told you I loved you.

But that'd be lying.

Then again,

when have I ever told the truth?

Lost in this never ending dream.

Because in this dream; I could feel.

In this dream, You and I were two different people who loved each other.

I never wanted to wake up.

But I did.

I could've held your hand.

But, I wouldn't be able to feel it.

The only thing I could've touched,

Could've felt.

Was the hollowness in my body.

I could've refused changed your memories,

But, that'd hurt you even more.

I would've sympathized you,

But I didn't have the heart to.

I could've loved you,

But I didn't have the heart to.