My mother is crying

My father is yelling

My brother is dead

I feel like the one stuck on a boat where Sam and my father are playing Tug of War while I'm in the middle. I feel so disclosed and insecure. I wonder what my mother would feel like if I join Sam to fight back against the British. Sad? Heartbroken? Bitter? Mournful? Disconsolate? It feel like Sam is just taking this too far, but standing up for us at the same time.

My mother is crying

My father is yelling

My brother is dead.

I hope that doesn't happen.