Feelings

Tori Vega walked into her school, Hollywood Arts, with her bag slung over her left shoulder. She walked casually to her locker, and unlocked it, grabbed some books and stuffed them into her bag; she zipped her bag and closed her locker, only to jump back in surprise when she saw Andres' head.

"Geez, how long have you been there for?" asked Tori as she took a deep breath to try calm herself down.

"Just got here, why are you so jumpy today?"

"Dunno, why are you so annoying today?" Tori lied; of course she knew why she was jumpy. She was always jumpy when she knew he was here by himself.

She always got butterflies when she came in contact with him, but lately those butterflies had turned into bees that seemed to be attacking her from the inside, on top of that her palms became sweaty, she couldn't hold a train of thought and worse of all she always had this big goofy smile on her face when ever he talked to her. Tori didn't know what was going on with her, his mere touch resulted with an electric pulse that surged through her body, and his voice made her legs turn into jelly, then his smell made her drift off in a cloud of bliss.

"Hello! Tori!" Tori snapped out of her daydream when she heard him call her name.

"Yeah! Umm what!" Tori tried her best not to look at his liquid chocolate pools called eyes.

"I said; Hey Tori!" He looked at her with a teasing smirk on his lips.

"Oh, umm, hi Beck" Tori forced a fake smile; it took all her self control to not attack his lips with hers.

"Did you hear? It's alphabetical improve today!" said a totally enthusiastic Beck.

Oh great, the thing that had put her in this whole mess. She had wanted to get back at Jade for pouring coffee on her head, and what better way then to kiss her boyfriend, and that's exactly what Tori did, completely unaware of the drug she was about to get hooked on. Yep, Beck Oliver was a drug, once you taste him, you'll want more, and if you don't get more you'll go through withdrawal symptoms, such as electric pulses that surge through your body or the occasional bee sting from with-in. Beck Oliver was more than just an emotional drug but a physical drug too, with his shaggy brown hair, his insane smiles, his chocolate-brown eyes, his to-die-for body and his olive brown skin.

"Damn drug." Mumbled a frustrated Tori.

"Did you say damn drug?" asked he-who-shall-not-be-named with a confused look.

"No, umm I said damn thug. Yeah damn thug, oops look at the time got to go." And with that Tori shot off in the other direction, before she did something really stupid like kiss the guy.

"Okaay. What was that all about?" Beck asked Andre.

"I don't know. Do I look like a girl?"

"Nah, but you sometimes act like one." Said Beck playfully. Andre play-punched his arm. "I really don't understand females, but when it comes to Tori around you, I'm dumbstruck!"

"What do you mean 'around me'!"

"Oh come off it Beck, I think she has feelings-"Andre stopped himself, turned around and followed Tori, leaving an even more confused Beck shouting "Feelings! Feelings for what! Andre!" then to himself "feelings for me?"

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Andre came to the black box theater and stepped inside, knowing Tori would be there. She was sitting on the stage with her legs crossed and her head in her hands. Andre walked up to her, and gently lowered his body down next to her.

"Tori, I think I just accidentally gave Beck the idea, that you have feelings for him. Which is wrong, because you don't have feelings for Beck, right?" said Andre while he burst into a fit of laughter. Tori peeked up at him with a death glare that stopped his laughter at once. "Oh boy. You do have feelings for him, and I'm guessing that it's more than your average crush."

"Yes Andre," admitted Tori through a sigh, "I do have feelings for him, really big, confusing feelings, which I guess are just boiling over the top." Replied Tori, after months of keeping the secret, she just had to tell someone.

"Oops, and I think you might have to explain those feelings to him." Replied Andre in a very guilty voice.

"Maybe some time in, like never."

"Never might be sooner than you think." Said a rather nervous Andre.

"And why is that?" asked Tori frustrated.

"Because he's here, in the room." Squeaked Andre as he jumped to his feet and rushed past Beck, you was standing in the doorway.

"Aww man!" moaned Tori, as she heard his combat boots shuffle in her direction, and felt him slide down next to her, he placed a re-assuring hand on her back.

"Tori?" asked Beck, but Tori refused to look up at him, "Come on Tori, we'll have to speak about this sooner than later, so why not now,"

"…stupid Beck … like a drug…" was all that he could make out.

"Huh, like a drug? What does that mean?"

"Means you're addictive" mumbled Tori.

Beck looked down at her, "Care to explain."

Tori raised her head and looked him in the eyes "I mean, once you get a taste you have to have more."

Beck rolled his eyes "I know what addictive means, but what do you mean I'm addictive?"

"For goodness sake. Damn-it Beck, you're cute, sensitive, sweet, funny, friendly, wonderful and not to mention a good kisser. When we touch I feel as if electricity pulses through my whole body, or when you talk all I can do is smile like an idiot. You are all a girl could ever want in a boyfriend, all I could ever want. But it's wrong for me to feel this way about you; you are a friend, a close friend, not to mention you are dating one of my friends. I'm sorry." Whispered Tori, as a tear slid down her cheek, Beck lifted his hand to her face to catch it, but instead of letting her face go, he turned it to face him and let his hand rest there.

"At least you're not alone on this Tori." He half whispered, half sighed.

Tori looked at him with tears still in her eyes, "Wh-what?"

"God Tori, if that's what I do to you; you have no idea what you do to me. Every time I see you I have to remind myself that you're just a friend, when you hug me I feel as if I were floating on clouds, when you speak I hang onto every word, trying to listen to some indication that you feel the way I do. When I had to do that play with you, I secretly wished we had to kiss, just so I could feel your lips against mine, and the rush I get after kissing you it's like nothing I've ever felt before, you're like my favorite damn disease." Blurted out Beck. Tori looked up at him as he leaned down to touch her lips with his. Tori was surprised that she remembered how his lips felt on hers even though their last kiss was months ago. He was soft and gentle as his lips meshed with hers; he grazed her bottom lip with his teeth and tangled his hand in her hair to balance himself. His tongue brushed her bottom lip, asking for entrance, she gladly obliged, as she felt his hot breath evade her mouth.

Tori pulled away from him, "I can't, and we can't do this Beck. It's wrong to cheat."

"Tori, how can we carry on, if we know what we do to each other? It will be like torture. If this is about Jade, don't worry about her, for you I would do anything." Beck said, as he caressed her face.

"Beck, you're just saying that in the heat of the moment. I know how it feels to be cheated on; I won't do this, even if it hurts to hide my feelings. I care for you too much to let you do something you'll regret." Tori said as she took his hand from her face and stood up.

"So you're just going to go back on everything you just said to me, and on everything I just said!" shouted Beck, standing up, "You're being selfish here! You're not the only person in this situation, I care for you, deeply, and you can't walk around as if you didn't know anything!"

"Yes I can Beck, and that's exactly what I'm going to do. Just know this; I care for you Beck Oliver." Tori gave him one last kiss on the check and then left him standing there, with his heart open and raw, and hers broken.

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It was lunch and Tori, for once, was upset to see Beck. She couldn't stop thinking about what had happened between them a few hours ago, he had just told her he cared for her and she merely shot him down.

"Stupid, stupid, stupid!" mumbled Tori as she hit her head with her hand and sat down across from Beck and Jade and next to Cat.

"Tori? Is there some water in your ears that you can't get out?" Asked Cat sincerely.

"Yes…" groaned Tori as she looked up only to meet Beck's eyes, then glance away. Gosh, what was I thinking! My best friend tells me has feelings for me then kisses me and I run away!

"Beck, I'm going to the bathroom, see you in a few." said Jade, as she kissed Beck on the forehead.

"Wait, Jade!" shouted Cat, as she raced after Jade.

Beck looked at Tori and put his hand on hers, unknowing delivering a pulse of pure pleasure to her.

"Tori…" he moaned. Tori looked in his eyes and she saw the hurt she had caused. "Please Tori, I'll do anything. Just please."

"We can talk after school, but Beck I am not cheating." Tori got up and left Beck to try and make sense of the thoughts that floated in his mind.

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The rest of the day pasted quickly, and in doing so Beck Oliver's stomach worked itself into a big knot. He was leaning casually on Jades locker waiting for her to come. He had finally decided, it was Tori, all the way. Ever since she had spilt coffee on him and then the time they had kissed in class, he was hooked. Beck chuckled to himself as he remembered Tori's earlier words of him being a drug that she was addicted to, he felt exactly the same way.

"Someone's in a good mood." said Jade, as she approached Beck.

Beck quickly grabbed her wrist and pulled her into the janitor's closet.

"Jade, we haven't really been talking to each other. You seem to be distant, and I guess we have just grown apart. I think we just need to break-up, I'm sorry."

Jades world came crashing down around her as she felt the tears in her eyes, "Beck…" Beck cut her off with a kiss to the forehead and walked out.

He rushed out of the school and jumped in his car, he speed down the road and was to busy thinking about Tori to see a car speeding down the other road, out of control and in his direction.

The car collided with Beck's in the front causing it to flip then roll. Beck was thrown violently from side to side; he felt his roof collapse and his leg break. His head hit something and suddenly everything started to go black. He was in unimaginable pain and the last image to appear in his head was of Tori, then Becks' world came to a stop as the blackness flooded in washing away everything in its path.