This fic is written with inspiration from a love song, by the danish artist Saybia.
I strongly recommend to listen to the song, while reading, to set the mode.
Song can be found on YouTube , Saybia "The day after tommorow"
Loving you deeply loving you secretly.
I stood leaning up against the bar, wondering how it ever came to this.
A couple of days ago I had been sure of my plan and now it all seemed so lost.
First time:
It had been a regular tuesday and I had been in the middle of organizing another warbler number, when suddenly all the other boys began screaming and run over towards the corridor doors.
As I turned around, I saw a boy, curly dark hair, big brown eyes and as the boy turned around, my eyes landed on his oh so fine ass.
I heard a couple of the other boys referring to him as Blaine.
And I had heard of this boy, several times.
He sings like a dream.
He is so nice.
He was the best singer the warblers ever have.
He moves so gracefully when he dances.
You have to meet him someday.
And apparently that day, was today.
I quickly introduced myself to this Blaine. And I must give it to the other warblers, the boy seemed nice. But obvious to what happened around him. Or at least to my pretty heavy flirting, but he didn't seemed to fully getting that I was coming onto him though.
But I still somehow ended up convincing Blaine to meet with me later in the Lima bean.
And that was when it happened.
I had sat talking - flirting - drinking coffee with Blaine, whenhecame in.
Please tell me why do birds
sing when you're near me
Sing when you're close to me
Second time:
I stood leaning up against the bar, wondering how it ever came to this.
A couple of days ago I had been sure of my plan and now it all seemed so lost.
I looked through the door, and I spotted them.
Looked when Blaine andhimmade their way towards me.
Hemoved so casually, likehewas made to walk on this earth forever, and then there was Blaine, who was walking besidehim, holdinghishand.
I made a quick move to get a drink for Blaine and one forhim. I Smiled- blushed - whenheaccepted with a small smile and a thank you.
They say that I'm a fool
For loving you deeply
loving you secretly
I asked Blaine to dance, because then maybe my mind would be on another thing thanhim.
As I danced, I could feel the music in my head and the heat from the bodies around me. I loved this.
Loved how the air was thick with the smell of sweat and sex. I smiled at Blaine as we got closer and grinded my body against his. Blaine seemed just as clueless as he had been the day we meet and just smiled back.
I laughed a little, because maybe I could do this, maybe it all had been something I had made up in my head.
But then I looked over towards the bar and saw another boy, man? Sitting besidehim.
But I crash in my mind
whenever you are near
I felt a hand brushing against my ass, and I was shaken out of my starring? How long had I stopped dancing.
I turned around, to see who it had been, but i just saw a bunch of strangers, dancing against each other, enjoying the music.
I wanted that.
I wanted to feel that free, to just surrender myself to that.
But i couldn't, not sincehewalked into my life.
Getting deaf, dumb and blind
just drowning in despair
I must have dozed off again, because suddenly I heard Blaine whispering something in my ear.
What it was, I didn't get.
Because I was lost.
Lost inhim.
I am lost in your flame
it's burning like the sun
Suddenlyhegot up and looked out towards the dancefloor.Hiseyes scanning the room, stopping at something.
Blaine! And then a smile bloomed uponhisface.
Blaine takes a hold on one ofhishands, ashewalks over.
Heoffers me a smile, just before he turns his full attention to Blaine.
And I call out your name
The moment you are gone
All I can see before my eyes ishissmile,hiscelestial smile.
I felt my heart began to puod really load.
Louder than it had ever done before.
It was like it began beating louder than the music.
And it felt like it could burst out my chest.
Please tell me why can't I
breathe when you're near me
Breathe when you're close to me
I see howhelaughs with Blaine, how he smiles when Blaine lookshimin the eyes.
I don't feel like being here anymore.
So i just walk away, out in the night.
Home.
Third time:
The third time i seehim, heis sitting in the Lima bean. Drinking coffee, with Blaine.
I can't explain why, but somehow I see myself walking over and say hello.
I try not to acknowledgehim, because i know that I will be so lost for words, ifheso much as looks at me.
But then Blaine leaves for coffee and i'm doomed.
It only takes seconds after Blaine has left, beforehe, starts talking.
And thoughhisvoice makes my blood runs faster and my heart beats louder.
Whathesays is nothing like i expected it to be.
Heis insulting me, thinking I'm trying to get Blaine away from him.
I try desperately to keep the conversation going, because at leastheis talking to me.
I can't help but grin a little and lean back in my chair - Probably with the biggest smile on my face.
I know, you know I'm lost
in loving you deeply
loving you secretly
secretly
After way too short time, Blaine is back and asking some question - which, I don't know.
But as I seehimjust stare at Blaine, I have to do something. And I find myself saying we have to go out again dancing sometime soon.
But I know that's not gonna happen.
Fourth time:
It's Sectionals and I have just left the stage and am walking towards the warblers, in which I will be seated with, for the rest of the competition.
The curtains on stage starts open up and the next performance is about to get going.
But I was not prepared for this.
Forhim.
Hisvoice cuts through my bones and takes a grip around my heart.
But I crash in my mind
Whenever you are near
getting deaf, dumb and blind
just drowning in despair
As some girl takes over the song, my eyes can't seem to focus on anything other thanhim.
The wayhejust owns the stage.
The wayhejust moves on stage.
The whole scene and all the other people fades away.
I only seehim.
The wayhesuddenly seems to look right at me.
I am lost in your flame
it's burning like the sun
and I call out your name
The moment you are gone
Another tune hits and another song begins.
It's all dark.
I can't seehimanywhere.
My heart acs.
Tomorrow(say it all tomorrow)
I'll tell it all tomorrow (say it all tomorrow)
Or the day after tomorrow (say it all today)
I'm sure I'll tell you then
The last time:
I don't get how I agreed to this.
I know that this will means I never gets to tellhim.
And now, now it's almost too late.
I see the way the rose petals falls from above and the wayhesmiles, whenhiseyes lands on they man in yellow.
I don't know when I stopped singing along.
But I did.
As did my heart.
Well, I crash in my mind
Whenever you are near
getting deaf, dumb and blind
Just drowning in despair
I seehimin tears.
Happy tears ashealmost chokes out the answer.
The answer, I still had a little hope would be no.
But it isn't.
Kurtsaid yes.
But not to me.
Well, I am lost in your flame
It's burning like the sun
And I call out your name
The moment you are gone
