AN- I had an awesome idea! A series of Warrior Cats poems, in one story! So, I'm going to start it and see what you guys think of it!
Warrior Cats and all character in it are the intellectual property of the Erin Hunters. Sandstorm Warrior only claims ownership to her own words and ideas.
Cinderpelt's Heart
Sometimes when I lay awake at night I dream
Of all I have lost
Of all I shall never gain
I see myself where I have always known I belonged
In the forest, running after him
But I will never be there
As the monstrous shackles holding me here will never break
The chains that force me into a fate I know I didn't earn
This is not my destiny
This shouldn't have been my life
I am not the cat you know
I never meant to be her
I wanted to have a future
Like I did on the only joyous day of my life
The day I stood next to him
Being told I would be great with his help
My heart has never felt so full, so joyous
So full of a future by his side
I wanted nothing more than to please him
Than to be by his side forever
But my zealousness doomed me
In a flash of metal, my future, my love, my destiny was stolen from me
I will be forever grateful I found a place
That I was able to help
But I never wanted to be who I was forced to become
Anyone could see my pain
With every step I took I felt it
But I hadn't a choice
My only option was to be her
To heal others like I never could have been
She taught me everything she knew
Every herb, every poultice, every concoction
But never did she teach me what I needed to know
I could heal greencough, chills, even diseases no one else knew
But never did I find the remedy for a broken heart
Every time I looked at him, it broke once more
For what could have been
For what should have been
For what I wanted more than anything else
Every time I looked at her, it broke twice over;
She had the only two things I had ever wanted
Freedom and him
But neither would ever be mine
I see that now
But she cannot see the path she has taken
She has faltered and fallen
She cannot accept her fate
To be apart from the one who makes her happiest
I have lived with this
Why can she not, when her pain is so much less than mine?
She has the fate she has always wanted
She is exactly who she has always wanted to be
But she finds it unfair
She thinks her injustice merits fleeing
But she does not understand how little she is suffering
I know I sound a bit full of myself
A bit too critical, too harsh, too concerned with my own feelings
But I find her just as much so
But this is my fate
And I will accept it
Because this is the fate I was given
And I will work to see it through to the end
With all of my heart
So I do not fear this
I know it shouldn't be my time
But it is
And I shall accept it
So goodnight, dear Leafpool
Sorreltail, I wish your kits well
Give Firestar my love
I could not have changed this…
But I can have the courage to accept it…
…
…
…
What- What is going on?
My fate…
Is it being changed?
Please, I cannot go on like this!
Is this my fate?
Is this what it should have been?
…
…
…
So this is what it should have been?
This is joy?
This is fulfillment?
This is love?
Thank you
Thank you for giving me this
Thank you for your life
But this is your life, not mine
So you are free, just as I never was
Live well, love Lionblaze, goodbye dear Cinderheart
It is time for me to leave
Thank you…
AN- I hope you liked it! And understood it. Most of it is an ongoing monologue from Cinderpelt, and then her death, her revival, and her separation from Cinderheart. Tell me who you would like me to write for next!
Thank you for reading!
-Sandstorm Warrior
