Damon's POV

''For over a century i've lived unloved and alone. First my mother, my life and the one and only person who ever cared for me left me and my brother in the hands of the most cruel father that has ever existed. All i had was my brother who i still love to death but hates me because i stole his girl...twice. And now when i finally had the girl of my dreams in my arms i found out what she felt for was never real and the guilt of hurting my brother and her haunts me and will forever. Everything was messed up until i found her, walking down the road and since then my life is fucked up...in a good way but it still hurts. Still here i am training her little brother how to hunt vampires trying lift the burden of her chest''

Damon finished writing in his journal, placed it on the nightstand, grabbed a bottle of bourbon and went outside for fresh air to clear his mind.

Elena's POV

''You're hiding something, fess up'', rebekah compelled me. I felt Stefan and Caroline's eyes on me to answer rebekah's question. I knew i was compelled i had to say it but what i was about to say i didn't knew what it was but it just came and i was shocked at myself when the words came out and my heart pounded against my chest, ''I didn't sleep with Damon because of the sire bond, i slept with Damon because i'm in love with him.''

Stefan and Caroline looked at me with horror while rebekah looked amused.

''Did that hurt Stefan, when someone you love daggers you like that''. rebekah asked Stefan.

''Go to hell'' he answered with hurt in his voice that made me feel sorry for him.

''Did...that...hurt'' she dragged the words trying to cause him more pain.

''Yes'' he said like he was going to start sobbing.

''Welcome to the last nine hundred years of my life. Well i think i had enough fun so get out...SCRAM all of you! she screamed at us and we all got up and vamped out of the library.

Caroline went on her own way looking for Tyler while Stefan and i got out of the school and stood silently on the grounds and when the silence started to get uncomfortable i decided to break it.

"Stefan i'm sorry, i knew what i felt and i wanted to tell you because i wanted you to know the truth. I didn't knew Caroline told you that...". He cut me off, "That you fucked my brother Elena. What do you expect me to say that way to go Elena you ended up being just like katherine. Damon was right, you and her have alot more common than just your looks".

"Stefan please i just want to talk" i told him.

He laughed sarcastically, "Talk fine let's talk but this time u'll listen and i'll talk, i always had i doubt on your feelings for Damon since the day he took you to Georgia. After i left with with Klaus on killing spree i know he has been your rock, your saviour and your best friend but i always thought its going to be me. You said that right didn't you or everything was a big fat lie. You waited for me and chose me but then you ruined everything by developing feelings for my brother. What happend Elena? Why you chose him maybe because you like bad boys more, maybe because he is better in bed than me and clearly you wanted more or maybe because you don't love me anymore. You know because what i think i know because you never got enough from me. All i ever got was sighs and i'm sure that he made you screamed his name. I knew you would prove me wrong that your one of those women who loved me and slept with my brother for pleasure but it turned out to be worse than them because that's what sluts do".

That's where i snapped and slapped him across his face and i didn't regret it because i had enough and now he's gonna be the one who'll listen and i'll be the one who'll talk.

"I had enough and now you listen. its true that i'm in love with Damon. I love him more than i've i ever loved anyone. You wanted to know than fine i'll tell you, you are right Damon is 100 times better in bed than you and yes he made me scream his name like crazy and i don't love him just because of he is a sex god i love him because he was there for me when no one else was and he didn't say a word and just said he wanted me to be happy when i told him a chose you and i chose you because i thought you were the safe choice but you were not because no matter what happens you always ended up hurting me while Damon on the other hand always made me happy and he is the one who in death made me feel most alive and especially the night we slept together". i said angrily.

In a second Stefan ran off in vampire speed, out off my sight and i stood there alone breathing heavily and i realized that I've never been this angry. I sighed and decided to go home and call Damon and tell him about everything that happend and especially about my snap at Stefan. He'll laugh to death.

Damon POV

As fresh air touched my face i sighed heavily and enjoyed the feeling of having a short break from all the supernatural stuff and focused on nature when suddenly i heard rustling of trees and a feeling someone's presence, like someone is watching me. I looked around there was no one but when i looked a few feet away from me a froze.

There was a grey-ish colored and a huge werewolf standing there staring at me. My heart stopped and all i thought was to run away or else i'll be it's midnight snack. I tried to move but the werewolf remained still looking at me.

Minutes passed but it didn't move and nor did i. I started to think maybe it doesn't wanna eat me but that's impossible, i'm a vampire and werewolves always smell vampire and the second they sniff them the attack. My fear was replaced but astonishment and i had a million questions in my heart that why didn't it attack me. I don't know what happend but i started to walk closer to it and when i was standing like a few inches away from it i bent down and looked in it's eyes and when i looked deep enough i felt warmth and comfort.

I don't know what happend but i felt safe like i'm with someone who i...belong with. I hesitated for a moment but then decided to go with it. I gently ran my hand over its head and felt it relax. I smiled and liked the way it looked at me but when i heard a car park at the back of the lake house i got alert and so did the werewolf. It looked at me first then looked at the moon. When i glanced over the moon it was full and when i looked back at the wolf, it was gone.

When i heard Jeremy and Matt coming i ran back in the house and walked in my room and turned the lights off so they would think that i sleeping. I heard them say goodnight to each other and then silence.

Why didn't it attack me, why did it feel good and comfy in that wolf's presence and what the fuck just happened? I had a hundred questions but no answers which left me confused and irritated as hell.

Elena's POV

I parked my car and went to take a seat at the bench at my porch. I hurriedly took my phone out and dialed Damon's number. He picked up at the second bell.

"Hey" i said.

"Hope your day's better than mine gotta say i'm liking the odds" he said half laughing.

"Stefan knows about us" i told him quickly.

"Oh...how did he take it? he asked.

"How do you think?" i told him sadly.

"Well first time i'm glad first time that i'm in the middle of nowhere. Look i gotta go..." he said.

"Not yet. Something happend today i realized something about you...about you. Maybe its the sirebond maybe it is but i'm telling you its the most real thing i've ever felt. I love you Damon. I love you" i said and felt relive. He didn't say a word and i started to get worried but then i heard him say,

"Look i'm gonna get this cure for you and i'll have to do things you're not gonna like but right now i want you to get in your car right now, come to me." he told me.

"I'll be there soon" i said as i hung up on him.

First i went to my room to change into something sexy for cuz i knew what naughty things we'll do when i get there. I took out a set of lacy black bra and boy cut panties and with that i wore see through black lace top stockings. I wore a black casual speggeti strap dress that hugged my curves perfectly, was thigh high and showed enough cleavage. And it was cold so i wore a open front black sweater. I picked up my keys ans ran towards my car, hopped in and started to drive far out of mystic falls as fast as i could to be in Damon's arms again.

AUTHOR'S NOTE

here goes the first one. there was nosmut but i promise you guys the next chapter is full of SMUT AND MATURE CONTENT.

Song for this chapter is Diminuendo (feat. Britt Warner) by Lawless. Click on the link to hear it on:Youtube: https/watch?v=4eTXIDAarx8