After watching Wednesday's Child it got me thinking that if Law and order ended or Olivia left was it like that to suggest that she could be was pregnant so it could be bought back later on that the test wasn't negative after all and actually positive.

This is based on nearing the end of season 15 and how something happens to get Olivia thinking again of what she might of missed out on

I hope you all enjoy it as I have only started watching the show and I really like Cassidy and Olivia together they make a great couple

Even though Bensidy may no longer be, I was going to write that into this, but I just couldn't do it sad but I love them together and even though it seems Cassidy thing about having kids it was a way to have Olivia happy and her leave the show or the show to finish.

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She never thought taking over from Cragen would be so hard a mother figure she had said everyone wanting her attention and needing it, was it just stress she felt so run down it was starting to take its toll on her, would she have said yes if she knew, maybe they needed another captain one who knew how Special Victims Unit worked.

Her feet up on the couch a bottle of wine next to her, Cassidy back from undercover but working at IAB suppose someone had to, how often had the two of them been home together, they had started to fight a bit, she couldn't open up to him about Lewis, instead the empty nights were filled with glasses of wine, she didn't have a problem. She didn't want to admit to him that the work was causing her stress she never thought that working at SVU would be so hard but then she always had Cragen around or Munch now it was just her, her to make the hard decision decisions that could affect so many people, she always had her opinions or what to do but now everyone depended on her to make the right decision no one to go to, no one to tell her not to do it. She had even snapped at Cassidy a few times over simple things him ringing to ask what food she wanted she snapped at him telling him to make the decision for once she was over it, seriously how hard is it to choose something to eat.

Walking into the apartment the long hours, seeing the glasses and empty bottles of wine surround her girlfriend leaning against the lounge whispering softly "Liv" he hated coming home seeing the bottles of wine surrounding her, he wish he was here more for her, the arguments were small but becoming more constant, him about her drinking, her that he was never home he knew the toll of being in charge was taking on her and he wanted her to take it easy but this was Olivia Benson she lived for SVU .

Looking up at her boyfriend "hey" seeing his eyes looking around "I only had a few" seeing his eyes raised "a few Liv is not the empty bottles lying around" her eyes moving away from him "I need them, just forget it, I'm going to bed"

Watching her walk out she didn't like fighting he couldn't stand by and watch her do the same thing her mother did.

Moving over in the bed his arms around her, despite it all he loved feeling her body pressed against his, the way her hair smelt "Liv, I wish you would talk to me about what happened, instead of drinking"

Her eyes moving round the room could she pretend she was asleep "that isn't why I have a few glasses" stroking her head "its not a few glasses though is it how many bottles do you go through a week, I hate seeing you like this babe"

Closing her eyes she couldn't tell him everything in the courtroom Lewis had humiliated her, Brian was there for part of it "I've told you nearly everything, there are just some things that I can't talk about and you don't want to know" how was she meant to say she lied and that Lewis was handcuffed to the bed whilst she nearly beat him to death that he got to her and it all bottled over, would he understand, she knew Baba didn't believe her but she didn't change her story or the fear she thought "whatever it is Liv, you know you can tell me" moving away from him "I've told you everything you need to know and you were in court that day, just leave it, I've said things to you that no one else knows don't push it any further please, I don't want to remember what happened I just want to forget Lewis ever existed"

His voice soft feeling his fingers on her hair "I know Liv, sometimes I just feel there are things you are hiding from me, and if you spoke about it, maybe you won't drink as much"

Moving further away from him "I don't drink much, if you were home more" nodding his head "yeah Liv It's my fault I'm sorry I'm not home as much but I can't be choosy I've just got my shield back we have talked about it, don't you think I would rather spend my nights here with you than with tucker or out working"

Turning to face him "I never said that it was your fault, I'm tired just go to sleep" turning away from her is this what it is going to be like from now on he knew she had been through a lot and deep down he wondered if taking over from Cragen was the right thing, there was something he needed to say to her, despite it all he didn't want to not be with her, he, he he just had to be with her.

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Her eyes opening in the bedroom, the smell from the kitchen wafting through into the bedroom, throwing on a robe before heading out to the kitchen. Looking up as Olivia walks out "great timing babe, I was going to bring you breakfast in bed" smiling at her boyfriend walking over to him "what's this for" seeing him watch her across the bench "cooking breakfast for my girl" walking around to the kitchen putting her arms across his waist "you not working today" shaking his head getting the toast out of the toaster "a day off, want to do anything or just relax at home"

Grabbing a piece of bacon and popping it into her mouth "I have to go into work this morning" seeing him stop what he is doing a scrowl on his face "Liv, what about taking it easy, we need to spend some time together and you need to take it easy, all this extra workload isn't good for you you need a day off"

Moving towards the bedroom "I will this afternoon, I thought you'd be working today Tucker always has you on call"

Was it too much to ask for his girlfriend to spend some time with him "I can't help that you know that Liv, I had to start somewhere, I got the day off to spend with you" turning to face him from the bedroom door "you should of told me, I'll come home about lunch time, and we can spend the afternoon together doing something"

Walking back into the kitchen dressed for work seeing the plate of bacon and eggs put down sitting opposite him "I'm sorry Brian, I won't stay long, just need to close some of the cases" taking a large gulp of the coffee" walking into the kitchen kissing him

Watching as she goes to walk out the door "Liv, we need to talk"

Her mouth dropping as she looks at him "what about, now?" Wanting to say yes, as there isn't many good times, he didn't want to ruin the day but he needed to tell her "come home and we'll go out to lunch" walking to the door facing Brian "I really am sorry"

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Sitting at her desk she shouldn't of come in, her mind going back to Brian "we need to talk" she knew they were having a few up and downs but she didn't think it was that bad, they didn't spend as much time as they used to but her job was more demanding now she was in charge of SVU her baby her project.

Brought out of her thoughts by the phone ringing "Benson" hanging it up before calling Fin and Rollins she should of known that it would never be just coming in briefly.

Walking into the apartment looking around for Brian, she had tried to call him earlier but he didn't answer, she didn't want to leave a message, looking around she knows she is later than she said but he should realize that cases do come up.

Walking over to the bench seeing a message there "Liv, I've gone to work, waited but you never came back will be back later tonight" she could feel the tears come to her eyes they had nights that were amazing but they were now few and far between

Walking down the sidewalk, her face down, bundled up in her jacket as cold as it was she wasn't feeling it, her thoughts going back to Brian she was in bed last night when he came home pretending to be asleep she didn't want to talk to him not yet but even she was mature enough to know that that they were having problems and had been for a while was she ready to break up with him, could she cope without him despite it all she wanted to be with him, she couldn't imagine him not in her life, her life had been hectic and she had taken it out slightly on him in a way she couldn't blame him.

Looking up as she hears footsteps hurrying up to her nothing said between them as they walk side by side "what's happening here Liv" stopping shrugging turning to face him "I don't know, it seems we're kind of stuck, I've been thinking about it, ever since yesterday, maybe I was kidding myself thinking nothing was wrong here, but we found each other at the low points in our lives, you got shot and demoted and I got …. Hurt, you got me through it all, I don't know if I would of got through Lewis without you" pulling him towards her "we've been there for each other, I'll always be here for you Liv"

Turning to face him "Maybe there is something more right for each of us … I still think about having a family, I want kids and to grow old with someone, that someone I thought would be you, do you ever see yourself having kids growing old with me?"

"I don't see myself growing old Liv" whispering to him "you don't do you" smiling moving away from her "Liv, there's something that's been on my mind for a long time, something I think about that I never told you" as they both stop walking not able to look up at him, hoping this moment wasn't going to come "go ahead tell me I can take it"

Looking down at her she is so damn gorgeous shaking his head "not like that" moving over to her, his fingers reaching for her chin moving her face upwards "I love you Liv"

Surprise in her eyes her voice quivering it wasn't what she expected "I love you too Brian, always will" feeling his lips on her head "let's go" walking off holding each other hands looking up at him as his lips find hers "I do want to work this out Liv, I don't want to lose you" smiling up at him "me too, I don't want to imagine you not in my life" pulling her close to him "you don't have to"

(that is the way I wanted that scene to go for them to be happy)

To be continued

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A/N I have yet to watch the episode as we are 4 weeks behind in Australia so it is my reasoning, there is one scene taken from the show as I got the dialogue and loved it, it was so sweet

The next chapter will probably be slightly longer wanted to leave it at that scene