Author's Note: This is a songfic for Metallica's Fade To Black, it follows Amanda's cutting scenes from Saw 3, enjoy!

Dead On The Inside

Amanda exited the room, leaving her mentor and a captive Lynn Denlon to talk privately, she had abruptly protested to no avail, "Fine," she had finally said before storming out of the room into her own private sanctuary. For what seemed like forever, Amanda sat on the edge of her bed, her face buried in a pillow between her legs, she was letting her anger out. Then, realizing that this screaming wasn't working, she reached for a knife she kept beneath the mattress and pulled her black jeans down so that her thighs revealed themselves, as she slowly scraped the blade against her flesh, she heard her favorite song (Metallica's Fade To Black) come on the radio that sat on her dresser ten yards away, she began to scream the lyrics as if she were screaming for help.

Life it seems, will fade away Drifting further every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters no one else I have lost the will to live Simply nothing more to give There is nothing more for me Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be Missing one inside of me Deathly lost, this cant be real Cannot stand this hell I feel Emptiness is filling me To the point of agony Growing darkness taking dawn I was me, but now she's gone

No one but me can save myself, but its too late Now I cant think, think why I should even try Yesterday seems as though it never existed Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

A puddle of blood mixed with Amanda's tears presented itself on the floor, evidence of her emotional distress, before finally slitting her throat so she could die, she wrote a note to John and Lynn with her own blood,

"Dear John , by now you've found my body and the massive amount of blood along with it, but I am writing this to say good-bye, I'm sorry but I can't take this anymore, I see that I meant the world to you and I have a secret, a mad passion for our captive Lynn Denlon (yes, another woman). I hope that you will accept her as you had accepted me, until we meet again my friend,

Your protégé Amanda Young"

When Lynn found the note, she couldn't believe what she was reading, and neither could John, "Well Amanda, now you finally have someone who loves you back, I'll miss you." Lynn blew a kiss into the wind and John bowed his head. Over the next twenty years, the now cured Jigsaw led his new protégé through methods of his game, and when he finally died of old age, he knew that he had made Amanda proud, and that was enough for him.

Author's Note: This isn't a straight up songfic like I've written before, in this one, Amanda cuts her thighs and throat, but in a final note to John, she confesses her love for Lynn (yeah, it's two women, get over it) and through Amanda's last request, John takes Lynn in and she becomes the newest Jigsaw apprentice, I hope you enjoyed this, please review!