I, Kate Starling, have never been in love. I have endured almost 2 millennia's on this earth and have experienced many kinds of love; the strongest love of a makeshift family and the true bonds that we share, the acceptance of our extended family – Carlisle's compassion, Esme's devotion, Alice and Jasper, Emmett and Rosalie – most importantly, the friendship I share with my dearest cousin, Edward. Although we of the Denali clan have reputations for our relationships with human males, it doesn't equate to a true romantic relationship. In all honesty, the longer time progresses, the harder it becomes to survive alone. This is where Edward I and relate. However, he would deny his loneliness, whereas I could confide in him.
He taught me to hope.
I could see through his façade though. At first I couldn't understand why he escaped from his family, they were the perfect Cullen's after all. But then I realized how much of an outcast he must have felt, amidst those who have found their soul mates. I suppose I have my escape too, but nothing can satiate the craving for a kindred spirit, a mate. At least, I have Tanya to keep me company when Carmen and Eleazar are together, or when Irina is with Laurent. Not that Tanya is my favourite person to talk to on the subject of love. She has her own issues in that department. Out of all of us sisters, Tanya grieves the most for our Mother, our creator.
Although I still grieve for our mother, I cannot fathom why she did what she did. At the time, I was more thankful that we had survived and Aro had been kind enough to overlook our ties to her. However, now I couldn't wish more for the end of my existence. This is especially true now that Edward had found his soul mate in Bella. I envy him. But more importantly I am so very happy for him. See, this is the beauty of having so much room to squash unwanted thoughts.
"What are you thinking about so deeply?", Tanya said cheerfully.
I don't see why she should be so happy. Ah.
Edward.
I will never understand the twisted nature of my sister's mind. She tortures herself too much. At least today will be the ending of her infatuation with him, I hope.
"Nothing. Are you finished?" I looked up to see her eyes glowing honey gold.
We'd stopped for a hunt on the way, just for the sake of precaution. Although we are committed to protecting human life, we do not find it as natural to be around the presence of humans for long periods of time.
"Yes. I'm quite satisfied. Now, let's get this over with." Tanya took an unnecessary deep breath, I presumed to calm down. But her eyes betrayed her, her tawny eyes showed her uncertainty.
I should comfort her, but I don't have the willpower to console another tortured soul. Instead I smiled at her encouragingly and raised my eyebrows.
"I'll race you…" I challenged but less than a nanosecond later she had sped off into the thick brush of the forest.
Cheat!
I smiled to myself and quickly sped after her.
