From "When the Gun Goes Bang Bang" Episode 10. I do not own Rizzoli & Isles, as much as I want to I never will.
Have you ever thought about what it would be like to die? It's not what they say it is. Oh sure there's a white light and there's this tug-o-war going on between those saying go to the light and those telling you it's not your time but they never said you'd still feel the pain. They all say there is this peace and quiet, hell no, there's chaos and pain. You hear those from 'the other side' but you still here those on the scene yelling and screaming and all you want to do is tell them to shut up so you can find that peace and quiet. But no, not for Jane Rizzoli, no way are they going to let me go quietly into that light. Come on Maura just let it be, I'm tired and I hurt, quit pounding on my chest. Ok, if I come back maybe she'll stop. Wait are those her lips on mine? Maybe I'll just wait a few more minutes. Wait! Why am I enjoying her lips on mine?
"Ok, I've got a pulse and she's breathing again, where's the ambulance? Korsak we need that ambulance or she's going to bleed out right here." Maura didn't take her eyes off of Jane while she spoke to the officers behind her.
So this is what they mean by an out of body experience. I can see what's going on around me but I can't do anything about it. If that's the case then why the hell do I still feel the pain? That really sucks, I shouldn't have to deal with the pain if I'm not even in my own body. Damn Maura's going to kill me, look what I did to her dress, it's ruined. Oops they already killed me.
"We're right here Doc, let's get her loaded up and out of here." The ambulance attended knelt down beside Maura. "You keep doing what you're doing and we'll lift her onto the gurney ok?" Maura just nodded and she kept her hands on Jane's stomach hoping she was staunching at least some of the blood flow. "Hang onto her Doc here we go."
Yeah Doc hang onto me. I like the way you do that. How is it that I can be having this out of the body experience if I'm not dead? Because if Maura says I'm breathing and I have a pulse then I must not be dead but I can still hear their conversation. If the situation wasn't so serious this would be kind of cool. I have to remember to tell Maura about this. I wonder what Maura meant when she said she needed me. Hey, why are you moving away? Come back here. Maura get that body back over here. Maura come back!
"Single gunshot wound to the abdomen at point blank range. Her pulse is weak and her breathing is irregular." Maura rattled off the information to the trauma nurse.
OUCH! Damn don't move me so fast that hurts like a son of a bitch. Maura! Where are you Maura? Don't leave me Maura! Maura I need you!
"Doc you're going to have to wait out here. She's not going to need your services for a very long time." The nurse placed her hand on Maura's shoulder to stop her from following the gurney into the emergency room. "What's her name?"
"Jane Rizzoli." Maura stood there wondering what she was supposed to do now.
"She related to the Frank Rizzoli who's in there now?" She pointed over her shoulder. "He just arrived about 5 minutes ago."
"Yes he's her brother. How's he doing?"
"Whoever inserted the tube in his lung probably saved his life." The nurse saw the look on Maura's face and knew. "That was you wasn't it? You've been pretty busy saving lives tonight Doc. Why don't you go sit in the waiting room over there and we will keep you as up to date as we can, on both of them. Looks like their parents are going to have one hell of a night."
"Oh god we have to contact Frank and Angela." Maura turned to Korsak. "It's hard enough to tell a parent that one of their children has been shot how do you tell them two of them have?"
Korsak put his arm around Maura's shoulders and walked her into the waiting room and helped her into a chair. "Don't you worry about that Doc, that's not your job. You're right where you are supposed to be right now. The lieutenant will go see them and make sure they have a ride over here. You did good Doc, you saved her life."
Maura looked down at her hands and for the first time realized they were covered in Jane's blood. "She lost so much blood, I couldn't stop the bleeding. Korsak she has to live."
"Hey she's a fighter Doc, look what she's survived so far. She's not going to let a little thing like a bullet keep her down. Hey Doc do you feel up to taking us through what happened back at the headquarters? We got bits and pieces, can you fill in the spaces?" Frost was about to kick Korsak for asking her when Maura looked up and took a deep breath.
"Frankie was hurt very badly and Jane told me I was the only one who could save him. No pressure right? She pulls out one of my books to find out what tension pneumothorax was, like I didn't already know he was going to die if I didn't do something. And that officer just stood there as if he was protecting us when all he wanted was that camera." Maura looked up at Frost. "He put the camera in his jeans pocket so you might want to call someone and have them retrieve it before it gets lost in the shuffle. It looks like a cigarette."
"Thanks Doc I'll make sure they grab it." He left the room to make the phone call.
"Maura, she's going to be ok. She knows you're waiting for her and that will give her the will to live." Maura's head snapped up to look him in the eye.
"What are you talking about?" She tried to duck her head so he couldn't see the tears that were threatening to fall.
"You two have been doing this dance around each other for years and this may be the catalyst to make you both realize how you feel about each other."
"I'm still not sure what you're talking about." Maura looked truly confused.
"Ok forget I said anything. I must have been wrong." He shook his head because he really thought there was more than a friendship between these two.
"No, you can't make a comment like that then tell me to forget it. What are you referring to?"
"Well Doc, I know you and Jane are close, I just thought maybe you felt more for her than friendship." Maura watched him blush.
"You think Jane and I are in a lesbian relationship?" She almost laughed. "No we are just very good friends. But she still means the world to me, and my life would be empty without her in it."
"Ok Doc, sorry I said anything." Korsak couldn't believe he read things so wrong. "Why don't you try to rest, you've had a rough day."
"Maybe I'll just put my head back for awhile." Maura closed her eyes but she couldn't ignore what Korsak intimated about her and Jane. She knew she loved Jane and her life would be empty without her but was it more than that? She'd always been drawn to her, more than to anyone, man or woman, she'd ever been drawn to before. But was it a sexual attraction? How could you not be attracted to Jane Rizzoli? She was a very beautiful woman with a strong personality who commands attention when she walks into a room. People are drawn to her like a moth to a flame. But was that all it was? Today when she saw Jane lying on the sidewalk she felt as if her world had been turned upside down and it has yet to right itself. Which is as it should be when you see a friend die right? But if she was honest with herself it was more than that maybe Korsak was right.
"We need to get her into surgery A.S.A.P." The surgeon on call said to the rest of his team. "She's stabilized and we've finally got the bleeding under control so let's move. We have to work fast."
Do I have to stay with my body or can I float over to check on Frankie? Is Frankie floating around like me? Hey this is a hospital, I bet there are people floating around all over the place. We could form our own society. Kind of like the Dead Poets Society. Ha that's a good one Rizzoli. Damn no wonder this hurts so much, that's a big damn hole in my stomach. I don't think I'll be pulling that stunt again anytime soon. Hey it saved Frankie so I did my job right? Damn Ma's going to kill me. I can see it now, 'If it weren't for you Jane, Frankie would be working in the family business with your Father fixing sinks not getting shot'.
"Vince do you really think she has those kind of feelings for me?" Maura opened her eyes and looked up at Korsak.
"I can't be sure Doc, but whenever you walk in the room Jane's eyes light up. Maybe she's not anymore aware of those feelings than you are. I've actually been enjoying the show, she gets this goofy grin on her face when she's talking to you and if she ever knew I was watching she would kill me. Big tough Rizzoli becomes a puppy dog when you're around." He smiled over at Maura and knew that he had been right.
"So it wouldn't bother you…if… you know…we…had…a." Maura wasn't sure how to finish the sentence.
"You want to know if you two being gay would bother me. Not really, I just want Jane to be happy and if you are what makes her happy then who am I to say anything."
"I don't know if I am of the lesbian persuasion but I think I might be attracted to Jane. That's what confuses me, I've never been attracted to women before."
"Maybe it's like they say, you haven't met the right woman yet. Maybe Jane's that person."
"You know Vince, you're not the tough guy you want people to think you are are you? Deep down you're an old softie." Maura looked up at Jane's old partner and watched him blush again and knew she was right.
"WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?"
