Cherrie: hi! Its me again, I hope you'll enjoy this story!
Summary: (Set right after eps. 126- Change Heartache into Courage) One night Kagome wakes up crying and sweating from a nightmare. Inuyasha comes down and comforts her, but their comforting eventually leads to Inuyasha marking her. When Kagome wakes up in the middle of the night, she runs away. Why? Is she rejecting Inuyasha?
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"…" Speech
'…' Thoughts
Vocabulary:
Hanyou- half demon
Baka- idiot or stupid
Miko- priestess
Haori- Inuyasha's top
Koi- love
Substitute Love
Chapter 1
PrologueIt has been a week since the death of Kikyo and two days since the event with Naraku's offspring. Ever since then, Kagome would have nightmares, the same one every single night. Miroku, Sango and Shippou had gone to the demon slayer's village so that Sango could repair her hirakotsu, which left Kagome and Inuyasha to pursue their search for jewel shards.
In the Inuyasha Forest- nighttime (Normal POV)Inuyasha and Kagome had been searching for any signs of Naraku for the whole, but to no avail, not even one little tingle of energy.
'I wonder what Inuyasha's thinking about, probably Kikyo.' Kagome thought as she kicked a small rock on the forest floor.
They haven't been talking since the encounter with Naraku's offspring. Kagome wouldn't even let him carry her, she insisted on walking, and that hurt the hanyou.
It was Kagome who broke the eerie silence.
"Inuyasha can we find a place to camp for the night?" she spoke, barely above a whisper.
'What's wrong with you Kagome?' Inuyasha thought, concerned.
"Feh. Weak humans. This spot's alright I guess" he answered and jumped into a tree, "Make some ramen wench."
Kagome tried to hide her tears, she wasn't PMSing no, but with all her emotional stress and nightmares she just couldn't stand reality saying the same thing about Inuyasha, that her worth to him is a tool to find the jewel shards.
Inuyasha sensed her tears,
'Shit. I made her cry, again! I'm such a baka!' he yelled at himself.
Inuyasha jumped down and landed gracefully beside Kagome.
"Oi, what's wrong Kagome?" he asked, voice laced with concern.
Kagome sniffed a bit and wiped her eyes, but she wouldn't look at him.
"N-nothings wrong Inuyasha, I should go get water for your ramen now." She said, faced glued to the ground, and shuffled away to find a stream.
Once Kagome left Inuyasha punched the ground hard with his fist, causing a dent in the forest floor.
'Dammit, why can't I figure out what's wrong with her?' the hanyou thought angrily.
At the river bank (Kagome's POV)
I walked as quickly as I could until I spotted the stream, when I got there I gave a long sigh and sat down. I know that Inuyasha would never love me the way I want him to, but I just can't help but feel rejected everytime he reminds me. Washing my face of any traces of tears I dipped the bottle into the stream. Quickly I made my back to our camp, I know how grumpy Inuyasha could get if I don't give him his ramen.
At camp (Normal POV)
Kagome finally made it back to the camp. Inuyasha had just made the fire.
"Come on, I'm hungry." Inuyasha whined.
"Alright, alright. Just give me a minute." Kagome replied.
When the hanyou and miko were done their dinner, Kagome went and change for bed.
'I hope I don't get that dream again…' she thought as she changed behind a wide tree.
As soon as Kagome got changed she took out her sleeping bag and got in.
"Good night Inuyasha." She whispered before falling into a calming sleep, for now.
"Good night Kagome." Inuyasha replied softly, he sat back in his tree and looked down at the miko that he learned to care about.
'I wonder what's bothering you Kagome, I just wish you could tell me.' Were his last thoughts before drifting off in a light sleep.
Inuyasha's ears twitched. Someone nearby was whimpering and whining.
'Who could that be?' he absentmindedly thought, half awake.
Inuyasha could sense fear, sadness and regret coming from… directly below him!
'Kagome!' the hanyou thought alarmed, 'I'll kill whoever hurt her!'
Quickly Inuyasha jumped of the tree and landed on all fours, then scattered to a whimpering Kagome.
"No, stop! Please don't go!" she cried out in her sleep.
Inuyasha gently picked her up and wrapped his arms around her frail form and rocked her back and forth whispering sweet nothings into her ear. Kagome's whimpers and tears were stopping now. Slowly her eyes opened to a very red piece of cloth.
"I- Inuyasha?" Kagome whispered, surprised, then suddenly pushed herself away from Inuyasha and curled up into a ball at the base of a tree.
Inuyasha was confused; he sensed Kagome's distress… and fear? Was she afraid of him? He reached forward with a clawed hand to touch her but quickly retracted when she flinched away.
"K-Kagome?" he stuttered.
'She's- she's afraid of me…' he thought, ears pinned against his head.
"Kagome, what's wrong?" Inuyasha questioned.
"It's n-nothing." She replied.
"No, it's not nothing, now tell me wench!" he said to her, a bit harsher then he expected.
Again he saw her flinch. Inuyasha sighed.
"Kagome, please tell me what's wrong. What did you dream?" he asked softly.
Kagome's heart swelled, she knew that Inuyasha wouldn't hurt her, but her dream it seemed so real, so painful and every single time it just got more brutal.
"Inuyasha… I-I…" Kagome started but looked down, "it's nothing."
Inuyasha got annoyed and moved forward and held her by the shoulders and shook her.
"Godammit Kagome! Just tell me what's wrong with you!" he roared, and he regretted everything he did right when he looked into Kagome's eyes.
She was shaking with terror filled eyes. Her lovely scent of jasmine and lilies were drowned with fear, fear of Inuyasha. And quickly as he grabbed her he let go and stumbled back.
"K-Kagome… I-I didn't mean that." He whispered and reached out for her but drew back when she flinched and darted back away from the hand against the bas of a tree.
"K-Kagome…" he breathed, unable to comprehend the situation.
As he realized the situation he felt as if a million sacred arrows stabbed him.
Kagome was scared of him. Kagome was scared of her protector, the one who defended her from opponents, but her protector could not protect her from himself.
Inuyasha saw Kagome's tensed up muscles relaxed, just a bit.
"I-I'm sorry Inuyasha, don't mind me. You should go back to sleep, you must be tired." She said, her voice wavering.
Inuyasha scooted a bit closer to her and mentally smiled when she didn't flinch or move away, only that she tensed a bit.
"Kagome, you know you can tell me anything right?" he asked quietly.
"Yes I know Inuyasha, but there's nothing to tell." She whispered back.
Inuyasha sighed.
"Kagome, you know that I know there's something so spill it out." Inuyasha said, a bit stronger.
Kagome pulled her knees closer to her chin and wrapped her arms around her legs, hugging herself.
"Really Inuyasha the dream was nothing!" she reassured.
"Kagome, I heard you. You were whimpering, please tell me what's wrong." He pleaded.
Kagome sighed.
"It's just- the dream is the same one every night… and it just gets worse and worse everytime." She whispered, shivering a bit from the night's chill.
Inuyasha remarked this and took of his haori and wrapped Kagome in it. He smiled when he took in the sight, here Kagome was sitting in the night wearing HIS haori, and it made him feel like Kagome belonged to him. He smiled secretively.
'My Kagome.' He thought.
Kagome blushed.
"Thank you Inuyasha." She smiled and tightened the haori around herself, savoring the lingering scent of rainwater, forest and a bit of doggy smell.
"Feh." Was his reply, but a blush was his true answer.
"Well, are you going to tell me what happened in your dream? I do want to sleep you know." He said, in his usual gruff voice.
"It's nothing important Inuyasha, you should go to sleep. I bet you're tired." She said as she got up to go back to her sleeping bag, but a clawed hand caught her wrist pulled her back down into Inuyasha's awaiting arms.
Kagome stifled a gasp. Inuyasha pulled her back to his chest, his legs surrounding her stretched legs, his chin on top of her head. Inuyasha's arms were wrapped around her protectively.
"Please Kagome, tell me what your dream was about." He breathed into her ear.
Kagome shivered in pleasure.
"Do you really want to know?" she asked.
"If I didn't I wouldn't be asking now would I?" he replied.
Kagome sighed.
Kagome was running, running as fast as she could."Get her Inuyasha!" the women screamed.
The hanyou smirked and grunted as he sped up to catch his prey. Kagome slipped and fell on the damp forest floor. With one big leap Inuyasha was hovering over her shivering form.
He laughed and her heart broke.
"Kill her Inuyasha kill her so that I may have my soul back!" she commanded.
The hanyou smirked and raised his sharpened claws.
"Good-bye Kagome." He snarled.
His hand went right through her heart in one quick motion. Kagome's eyes went wide from shock and pain.
"Inu-yasha…" she whispered before taking her last breath, and even in death she could hear his cruel laugh.
By the end tears were trailing down her face and dampening Inuyasha's haori. Inuyasha was stunned, he didn't know if he should be happy that she opened up to him or horrified to know that he was the cause of her fear.
"Kagome…" he breathed in lack of knowing what to say.
"It's ok Inuyasha, see I knew I shouldn't have told you." She replied and got up.
Well tried to get up anyways, his hold tightened on her more, forcing her back down.
"Kagome… How could you EVER think that I would do that to you? I-I can't even imagining doing something remotely close to that! Why do you feel this way?" he questioned, hurt.
"I'm sorry Inuyasha! I know I shouldn't think that way… but I can't help it, everytime- everytime you go to her you're telling me that you don't care and it hurts. I know I should accept it since you love her but it just hurts." She replied whispering the last three words.
Inuyasha was stunned, he knew that Kagome was unhappy everytime he went to see Kikyo, but he didn't know that he'd hurt her everytime. He just thought that Kagome was mad because he left all of them.
"Kagome…" he was at a loss for words.
Inuyasha nuzzled her raven locks and took a deep breath, Kagome stiffened, there was no more scent of fear but sorrow, and Inuyasha didn't like that scent much either. He only liked the scent joy and happiness on his Kagome.
"I-Inuyasha?" she questioned, confused by his actions.
"Mhmm?" he replied moving down to nuzzle the back of her neck.
"W-what are you doing?" she asked, blushing furiously.
Inuyasha sighed, "Kagome, you know that I would never harm you, but you still dream of me doing this. What do you want me to do to prove that I would never harm you?"
"Inuyasha!" Kagome exclaimed confused, "you don't need to do anything, I wasn't expecting you to prove anything!"
Inuyasha turned Kagome around in his lap, and leaned his forehead against hers, her breath against his.
"Kagome I want to prove to you that I can care, I want to show you that I worry about you. And most of all I want you to know that I love you." He said. Finally, the big secret was out.
Kagome gasped. Did Inuyasha really say what she thought he said?
Yes, yes he did.
And did he regret it?
No, not at all.
"Inu-yasha…" she managed to breathe out.
"I love you…" he whispered back.
Then the doubt started.
"Inuyasha, if you don't mean it please don't play with my feelings, if you're really-" she started to ramble.
Inuyasha crushed his lips to hers. One arm wrapped around her waist and the other hand was placed on the back of her head so that she couldn't escape. He concluded that Kagome's lips tasted like honey with a hint of jasmine. Inuyasha kissed her sensually, slowing and teasingly. Then lightly he licked the bottom of her lip, asking for entrance to her sweet cavern. When Kagome gasped in surprised, he took the opportunity and dipped his tongue in. Inuyasha felt her stiffen and rubbed her back in small comforting gestures. Inuyasha felt Kagome melt into the kiss, and soon they were battling for dominance. Sensing that Kagome needed to breath, he reluctantly parted from her honey glazed lips.
Kagome's cheeks were flushed, never in her life have she been kissed by a boy. That was her very first kiss and it was wonderful.
"Inuyasha…" she whispered, stunned at his boldness.
"Kagome," He replied and enveloped her in a fierce hug, "I do mean what I say, I do love you, and I know that it doesn't seem like it but give me time to show you."
Kagome smiled and gave him a quick peck.
"I would love for you to show me Inuyasha." She replied.
Inuyasha smiled and dipped his head and kissed her. This kiss was passionate; showing all of Inuyasha's emotions, his joy, his sorrow, his fear and his love. When he heard Kagome moan softly he smirked against the kiss. Slowly Inuyasha brushed his hands on her stomach underneath her shirt. Kagome gasped and broke apart, blushing.
"Kagome, I want to show you that I can love you. So much." He whispered huskily.
"I know Inuyasha, I just was just- nervous." She replied softly.
"It's ok." He said and took his haori off Kagome and laid it on the ground, Kagome following it.
Inuyasha dipped his head down and kissed her, this time with more passion and lust. Kagome moaned softly against his heated lips and lifted her hands to his furry ears; slowly she rubbed the base of both ears and earned a purr from the hanyou. Parting reluctantly from the kiss, Inuyasha lifted Kagome's school uniform above her head and took it off. He took a step back and admired the young miko.
"Beautiful…" he whispered.
Kagome blushed and shyly walked up to him and took off both his haori and undershirt. Lightly she traced his muscles, earning a moan from the hanyou. Inuyasha ran his hands all over her body, his lips permanently place on her lips and shoulders. He nipped softy at her skin leaving little red marks. Inuyasha tugged on the contraption that bonded her breasts with confusion. Kagome giggled softly and guided his hands on her back and unclasped the contraption. Inuyasha looked at her with such longing. Feeling the hanyou's intense staring her started to lift her arms to cover herself but was swiftly brought back down with Inuyasha's hands and a growl of protest. She looked down in embarrassment.
"Kagome don't, you're beautiful." he assured, and lightly cupped one of them.
Kagome stifled a moan.
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Inuyasha lowered himself slowly into her, knowing that her first time would be painful.
If one was a demon, you could hear the cries of passion throughout the night. That night two lovers were bonded body and soul, a hanyou and a miko. One of the future, one of the past.
Kagome grumbled and squinted open her eyes only to find that it was still night. Turning around her looked up at her hanyou companion sleeping peacefully, a possessive arm around her waist. He was mumbling something about 'not leaving' and she just smiled, that is until she heard him say,
"Kikyo."
Then reality came crashing down on her, and her eyes widened.
Cherrie: That's the first chapter! Yes it's a cliffie! Don't get mad, though it might take me some time before I can update again. Sorry. I hope you like it and please read and review! Thank you very much!
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