As Long As You're Happy
Author's notes: hello is regular
Hello is flashback
Yeah just thought it was important
Oh and this is AU
Oh and Raven is half Japanese (yeah I've been reading code lyoko)
Oh sorry if Raven seems a bit oc
Also this was lingering in my mind so I had to do it. And also this is for star fire fans who feel that I've bashed Starfire in my other story. I do love her just not as much as Raven.
Well on with the show:
As Long As You're Happy (Raven's P.O.V.)
"Do you really have to leave Richard?"
"Yeah Rachel I'm going off to college"
"Yeah but why all the way in America"
"Bruce wants what's best for me"
"I know, but you're going to be so far away, I mean we're in France and you're in America"
"Don't worry Rachel I'll write and talk to you twice a week"
With that we kissed. This would probably be the last time I'd kiss him in a long time. He was going to leave for college. He had graduated early. And Bruce thought it was best if he went to America.
I Love him so much. As we still kissed it became more passionate. And one thing led to another and we made love. It was my first time. At seven in the morning we got up. He had to leave early.
I'm here now with him in front of me.
"Richard please don't go"
"I have to Rachel"
I started sobbing. This was the first time since my mother's death. For years I had a protective shell around me so no one could get in. I wanted to be alone. But here came Richard and he showed me how to feel again.
"Rachel please don't cry not for me"
"But I love you Rich"
"I love you too Rachel and I always will."
"Ok promise me one thing"
"Yeah anything"
"Will you come back to me"?
"What do you mean"?
"After you graduate will you come back to me will you come back to France and love me"
"Of course Rachel I couldn't imagine a world with out loving you"
"Thank you, I'll be here waiting for you. Here in France"
With that said we hugged and shared a passionate kiss. And he left.
That was years ago. Six years to be exact. And he never came back to me. He broke his promise. When I finally figured out that he wouldn't be back I broke down even more than I already did.
A few months after Richard left I found out something. I found out I was pregnant. I was so happy. But me, being pregnant was horrible.
At five months into my pregnancy I had an accident. I had fallen down the stairs. As soon as I reached the last step I knew she was gone. I felt a snapping. And I felt my world crash. I had felt my baby die. There was blood everywhere. And I cried. I never did tell Richard I was pregnant.
I then passed out. When I woke up I was in the hospital. My neighbor had heard a ruckus and decided to check up on me. She knew I was pregnant. When she saw me on the floor with blood around me she immediately called nine, one, one.
At first he would call me three times a week and he would write me letters and send me pictures. But the calls became less and less till there weren't any. The letters stopped coming.
I just thought he was busy. And I waited and I waited. It was at least a year. When I finally realized he moved on I decided I should too.
I became cold once again. I rebuilt my barriers and my shells. I did it so no one could hurt me again. I've experienced too much pain. My mother died when I was five, leaving me alone with my abusive father. He would beat me. He would throw me. He didn't care about me. Then I ran away. I ran away from Japan. I ran to France were I knew I would be safe.
Then, came Richard. He broke down the walls I had struggled to put up. I had an emotionless facade. He made me love again. And when my daughter died I felt like my whole world came crashing down. When I realized Richard was coming back I didn't cry. I just started putting my walls back up.
A few months later I found a job. I had entered a contest. Participants had to design a dress for a model. I had one with design. It actually got made.
When they sent me congrats and my prize they also wanted me to work for them. I moved to the north. I had also changed my name. I didn't want to be Rachel anymore.
I was changing and so was my life. I needed to be some one else. I changed my name to Raven Roth. I no longer wanted to be Rachel Trigon. Rachel Trigon was dead along with her daughter, Raiden Jade Nightingale Grayson.
I would work. I liked my job. And I liked my boss. She was really nice. Her name was Claudia Epstein. She had curly black hair that went to her shoulders. She was nice and compassionate. I also did like my co-workers.
One night I was up till dawn on a project. I was supposed to make a dress for a model. Her name is Kori Anders. She was very famous. And she also became my best friend.
When I was done with the dress Kori loved it so much she had to thank me in person.
"Hello miss are you Raven"
"Um yes and you must be Kori"
"Why I am Kori"
"You know Kori you don't have to thank me I'm just doing my job."
"No but I want I am truly grateful. Your design was perfect."
"Thanks"
"Raven I have a question for you"
"What is it"
"Are your eyes and hair truly purple"
"Yes, yes they are"
"Your eyes they remind me of the amethyst stone. And your hair has a beautiful shade"
"Um thanks Kori"
"I
also have another question"
"Um what is it"
"Will you be a model for the company I work for? See John has been looking for an exotic model, one like your self. He would absolutely love you."
"I don't know what to say"
"Please say yes it would make me really happy"
"OK then yes I will be a model"
"Yes glorious and also will you be my friend"
being her friend made me think. It would mean coming out of my shell and breaking down my walls. My heart told me I could trust her but my mind didn't. I followed my heart.
"Yeah I'll be your friend"
"Oh even more glorious and please call me Star or Star fire"
"Uh ok"
After that I moved out of France and in with Kori in California. Kori became my best friend. Almost like the sister I never had. She's the only one who I show my smile or the only one who could make me happy. And I loved her and I knew she loved me back because she even told.
I didn't exactly know how to model, but Kori showed me. I was good but not as good as Kori.
I remember the first time I saw my pictures in a magazine. I was posing on a sandy beach. I was lying down near the water with my hair out. And with a smirk on my face.
The magazine had called me the new "It Girl"
I was known as Raven the dark exotic French model. Kori was the one who told me that. I just went along with it.
Over the next few months I modeled clothes and I took pictures. I would sign autographs and open fan mail.
"Hey Raven I'm going to go out with Robin tonight"
"Okay Star don't stay out too late and don't do anything I wouldn't do"
"Of course Raven"
Kori had a date with her boyfriend, Robin. That wasn't his real name but that's what she always calls him. I've never seen him before. I've only heard of him and I've only heard his voice.
Lori doesn't have pictures of him because she says it's bad luck. They've been together for at least a year and half now. From what I know he's very nice. And I know they're in love. I do think he's going to pop the question.
I dozed off into a sleep. I had been reading a book and it started to get boring. So I dozed off. Then I hear some one calling my name.
"Raven, Raven"
then I knew it was Kori.
"Yeah Kori"
"Finally, I'm engaged, I'm going to get married, married to Richard."
"Ok great but can you please get off of me you're crushing m spleen."
"Oh I'm sorry Friend Raven"
She always used Friend Raven when she was truly sorry.
"It's ok but I am happy for you"
"Oh and we're going to have a party this weekend to celebrate"
"Do I have to go" I said only joking, but she didn't catch it.
"Of course Raven do you not want to see me and Robin"
"I was joking relax Star"
"O okay well good night"
"Good night"
I got up and went to my room. I climbed into my bed and fell asleep.
DREAM
"Rachel please don't cry not for me"
"But I love you Rich"
"I love you too Rachel and I always will."
"Ok promise me one thing"
"Yeah anything"
"Will you come back to me"?
"What do you mean"?
"After you graduate will you come back to me will you come back to France and love me"
"Of course Rachel I couldn't imagine a world with out loving you"
DREAM OVER
I shot up from my bed. I didn't expect to dream of this. I worked so hard to repress this memory. It isn't my memory but it's Rachel's. And Rachel is long gone. I got up and went to the kitchen. I looked through the cupboards for my tea.
I took out the teapot and put some water in. I sat down on the counter and waited till it was done boiling. When I heard the whistle I turned off the stove and got my mug. I poured the water in it and took my tea bag and started to dip it.
After I drank my tea I went back to my room. I laid down on my bed, thinking of Richard. He betrayed me and broke his promise. I know deep down inside I still love him but my feelings for him are over powered by coldness in my heart.
My heart is like a glass. Let it fall and it will break. You can always fix it with some glue. It's not as good but it will do fine. Let the same glass fall again and it will shatter. Again you can always repair it.
Lat it fall one more time and there's no use in fixing it again. It would be to fragile.
I went back to sleep with Richard's face plaguing my dreams.
A Week Later
A week passed by and I was in a limo with Kori. She was so excited about the party. I was little excited to but I didn't show it. When we pulled up to a manor the driver came out and opened the door for us.
Kori stepped out first. And I saw camera's go off and buzzing. Then I stepped out I experienced the same things.
We walked in to the manor. The first things I notice are the tables and the people buzzing around. I notice a sweet melody playing from a piano.
Kori grabs my arm and we are going through a crowd.
"Come on Raven I want you to meet Robin"
"OK OK Star"
We went up to this man. He was at least two heads taller than me. Kori tapped him on the shoulder and he turned around. She jumped into his arms. He was facing me. And when I looked up to see his face my breath caught in my throat. My eyes went big. I had shock written all over my face. And I could say the same thing for him.
All I could manage to say was a whisper. That was all he could manage to say too.
"Richard"
"Rachel"
well this is just going to be like 2 or 3 chapters. Tell me if you guys like it. I want some feed back. Tell me if u like the idea. And I should be updating soon on Should I Stay or Should I Go?
